Kola Xiong Xiong's road to Baking

End of this road and starting of new ones

2010-10-06T19:38:00.002+08:00

It had been a year when I first started out Sweet Thots with my friends, and soon it's coming to the end of the road. Well looking back , will keep wondering is it all worth it for the past 1 year ? where would I had been if not here ? Well hmmm maybe I might have landed myself in MBS like most of my peers are OR maybe not ( was only offered a 2nd interview when i accept this batam offer) Well u lose some , u win some , I had to say that i did pick up some stuffs while I am here , useful or not ? only time will tell.

Anyway in less then 1 mths time , I will be back to SG and hunting for jobs to start all over again , which is one part I hate , cos choosing the right job and getting it is so difficult. Just went for an interview and flunk it. I had interviews as I always failed to "sell" myself off. Well will just have to keep trying :)

天生我才必有用，只能在等待我生命中的伯樂。

Anyway Just like to share some links of my works here , hopefully someone will like it !

Whole cakes

Tarts

Cupcakes

Homemade Desserts/Cakes

Snow Skin Moon Cakes

Minis

Wedding Packages

Malacca Food Trip - July'10

2010-07-29T18:36:00.009+08:00

Long story , Short said ! ( 长话短说）Just food pics and addresses !!! ( and a bit of @#$@# in the end )

1) Chung Wah Coffee Shop - Chicken Rice Ball
Jalan Hang Jebat,
75200, Melaka.
Operating hours: 7am to 3pm. ( Info online )

My Take : We tried Chung Wah and Hoe Kee , IF you believe me , go for Chung Wah , Hoe Kee totally cannot make it , in terms of chicken , it is not as smooth and tender like Chung Wah , also it just take like Singapore chicken rice taste , with the dark colored sauce , the rice also cannot make it cos it is gluey outside but inside is very grainy and the chilli also cannot make it !!! Trust me , go for Chung Wah

2) Jonker 88 - Chendol , Baba Laska
88, Jalan Hang Jebat,
75200, Melaka.
Operating hours: 10am to 6pm (8pm on weekends) ( Info Online )
* Off on Tuesday !!! ( Am sure abt this )

My Take : Best Chendol , Best Laska for me , if you like you can try the nonya assam laska but i prefer the curry one ( Baba Laska) think they top it with sardine flakes , thus the soup is sweet and spicy. somtimes i will have it just w/o the noodles/bee hoon.

3) Dim Sum - Esp the Meat juicy pau
Yong Moh Coffee Shop
32, Jalan Tukang Emas,75200, Melaka.
5am till late noon.
Off days: Tuesdays ( I can't confirm this, info online )
Along the narrow Jalan Tukang Emas, or Blacksmith Street, adj to Jonker Walk and opp the 17th Century Kampung Kling
Mosque

My Take : Dim sum .. nothing fantastic, in fact ,,, edible only but the Pau is really juicy , be careful when you take your first bite !

4) Pak Putra - tandoori chicken and Naan
56, Jalan Laksamana 4,Taman Kota Laksamansa , 75300, Melaka
5pm to 12am. 012-601 5876
Off days: alt Monday ( some ppl say they closed on Monday , some said alternate Monday, But I went on Monday IT was
closed , despite the waiter told me they were open the nite b4 i was there.)
* Please do come early for the Tandoori Chicken , I did not get to try b4 i was there like 10pm+ and just saw them served the
last place of Tandoori !!!

My Take : The naan was supered !!! together with the chip pea dips , a must try to me ! ( even though we did naan in school but it was not as soft as theirs !!! You won't regret trying )
**TIPS : For shortcut ( by foot ) , Cut thru Baba House if not you had to turn one big round.

5) Oyster egg Bunga Raya food court

My Take : ( so-so only , Ang Mo Kio Ave 10 , Blk 409 one is better to me if u like those wet wet type)Along jln bunga raya, the first stall in a lane (60-77 medan makanan bunga raya) beside a coffeeshop. The wanton noodle next stall, noodle not bad but soup CMI.

6) Tau Sia Pia Kim Huat Confectionery at 14, Jln Kg Kuli (off Lor Hang Jebat) ( can give a miss )

7) Crepe - Nadeje Patisserie
 Lot No. UB051, 052 & 053 Dataran Pahlawan Melaka Megamall Jalan Merdeka 5000 Bandar Hilir Melaka

8) Nonya Kueh - Baba Charlie Tel: 06-2847209
72, Lorong Pantai Tengkera 2C
First notable landmark that you will notice at Tengkera, is the Balai Polis Tengkera (on your left. Then, keep going straight for
about 1km, and you will come to Masjid Tengkeraon your right. Once you've spotted this mosque, you need to decelerate.

My Take : So-so to me cos i am used to bangawan solo , but dun have chance to try the kueh dar dar , think we are there tooo early. try maybe go after 12 pm

9) Kedai Satay Xiang Ji
Xiang Ji is located off Jonker Street. It is just a short walk from Jonker Street, and it is opposite SRJK Pay Teck.
50, Jln Portugis Melaka
Tel: 019- 667 88688)
Never get to try so no comments.

10 ) Nonya Bak Chang - East & West Rendezvous (durian cendol and nyonya chang)
60, Lorong Hang Jebat, 75200 Melaka.

My Take : My fav bak chang !!!!! for ppl who like spices , esp i think tumeric !!! Must try !!!

11) La la & 4 treasure - Lane after Madam King’s department store on Jalan Bunga Raya
* Cockles and Shellfish Stall – walk into the dark lane where you’ll be greeted by wooden stalls with long low tables that are dimly lit with even lower benches to sit on. It’s like the outdoor hawker stalls of the 60’s.Ordered lala & this round snail The lady would just blanch them in boiling water & you eat it with this hae koh/belacan/lime/peanut dip. ! The jiu he eng chye was very good too. ( neber try )

These are mobile pushcarts that serves tasty snacks:
* Yu Char Kuih – ( Neber see )
* Popiah – in front of Mdm King's , very nice but lardy , 1 small is just nice , 2 might be too much cos of the lard used
* Pak Thong Koh –( didn’t try )
* Carrot Cake – black type. ( neber see )

12) Tan Kim Hock Product Center (85, 87, 89 Jalan Bendahara [12]) sells famous food specialties from Melaka, like Dodol, Cincalok, Belacan, dried fruits, durian cake, etc

13) Capitol Satay Celup, 41, Lorong Bukit Cina.
Must try my fav meat ball !!!
Sticks @ RM $0.80 now
Please try go b4 5 pm although they put open @ 5pm , we reach at 5 and it's full already , online ppl say it's closed on monday BUT it was open when we were there. But Q is on even time we pass by it , so go ard 4.45pm to wait ! ( who say only Singaporean is KS ! , there are ppl running in front of me that day )

Hotels that i had stayed b4 :-

Hotel Hallmark,
☎ 06-281 3409, [46]. Hotel Hallmark is a two star budget hotel. There are 78 furnished rooms that include standard, deluxe and family suites. Private bathrooms, air conditioning, 20" colour TVs and IDD are some of the hotel's facilities including spa service. Modern card-access locking system is provided to room doors.
* Lobby air con not on , staffs calls and knock on our door a few times for nothing important , card have to refresh ever day after 12pm. Bed is BAD !!!! too hard for me , Pillow is BAD also , like those cube sponges. Only good review I had is FREE wifi and rain shower :P ( yes i am a sucker for that ) Oh .. it's a bit ulu to walk from jonker street also. ( near Xiang ji Satay )

Baba House [35]. 125-127, Jalan Tun Tan Cheng Lok. Fax: +60-6-2811217 ( not too bad , nice bed and quilt to me and got a more " secure " carpark to me , and now that i like the naan so much , Baba house is the gateway for shortcut.

Heeren Inn. Jalan Tun Tan Cheng Lock, 75200 Melaka. so-so , no lift , no breakfast (who needs it anyway ) rooms bit run down.

My recommendation out of these 3 is Baba House. Book from Agoda , quite good n cheap to me.

Some Baking supplier i found online ( been to all except Everest ) :-

Everest Hotel @ Restaurant Supplies Sdn Bhd
No 6,8,10 Jalan Melaka Raya 26,
Taman Melaka Raya,
75000 Melaka.
Tel : 06 282 8233
Faks : 06 282 8366

King Hin Plastic Enterprise
89,Jalan Temenggong,75200 Melaka
Tel : 06 292 6981 H/P : 019 655 1778 [Mr. Lim]
*good for pirated PME/Wilton cutter/tools

Wang Yen Trading
51,Jalan Kota Laksamana 1/2,
Taman Kota Laksamana,Section 1,75200 Melaka.
*nothing much actually , but i bought some transfer sheet and chocolate mould

Free Lunch @ Nando's

2010-07-25T20:35:00.000+08:00

Petisco	Cataplana
Espetada	Half Chicken

Won a meal for 4 @ Nando's FB page and decided to ask Bryan , Lynn and Yijia for the meal , since it's Mr B's B'day so did a cake to surprise him as well ( Also I save on $$$ to give him a treat ! ) So took a morning ferry @ 9.30 am , and reach SG @ 11.30 am and make my way down to Nando's pre opening meal @ Tanglin Mall. My sis was late , and my gal was even late , cos 3 of us went in w/o her first. Well I had actually read it wrongly , I thot was ALL U CAN EAT .. so was quite disappointed , cos we are limited to 1 starter , 1 main and 1 drink each , and for the drinks , they only allow 1 *special drinks/table , it's only $1 different from the normal soft drinks !!! , Well the handed us 2 * $100 GV and a Q&A form. I thot they could at least put it that , Max you can eat is $200 and anything more you need to top up , I think i be happier that way then to restrict this and that.

Well we ordered "Petisco" since all of the staff recommend that and for main we ordered the "Espetada with 2 sides " , "Espetada Rustica" and "Cataplana" and the waitress was like give that look and "oh ok " well dunno is it me think too much , or is like she is like giving us the " so you guys knows how to order the most expensive items" Duhz ... as if we are cheapo like that !!! Well the reasons why we order those are becos we tried in KL and really like it , and "Cataplana" is a new additional to the SG menu ! Kinda of turned off !
Well the food taste nice of cos , as well as the Peri Peri sauces !!! But ... some bad review here :-
1) the chicken was bit cold .. not as warm as expected cos the skewers were "hot"
2) Even the 1/2 chicken my daughter ordered was a bit cold also BUT the meat was soooooo tender .. loving it , even the BREAST !
3) The table a bit too small for us when the 4 main was served , think they change the plating , to give it a more high class look , compared to KL's mid valley one.
4) The staffs did come around and talk to us , which was good , BUT they was a point where I was talking and he was like looking elsewhere , I mean if you dun really like to pay attention ,then dun ask me ! I am just giving you my views ( cos I thot since I eat for free , least i should is to give my honest reviews)
5) The waitress was bit irritating , some of our plate was still with bit of foods AND we were holding on to our fork still , why keep asking if can clear the plates ? ( they at least asked 3 times ) they restaurant was not very full , why so kan cheong to keep plates ? I mean at least look at the customers , if they are holding their utensil , have the thots that we are still eating !!!

Other then those , had to admit , my fav is still Espetada ! And Thanks once again for the wonderful lunch ! Nando's !!! ( But we left still bit hungry LOL )

Green Tea with Avocado Mousse

2010 ... Year of the Tiger ! ( the incomplete post)

2010-02-23T15:18:00.004+08:00

Been a while , seriously I dunno what to update , Guess like have been pretty kind to me ? ( cos i usually blog when i am sad LOL ) , but had been busy , stressed and tired becos of Project Sweet Thots , More is going to come with more things on hand and trying to be better then the current status. Anyway b4 I start the long long long story of my boring updates, like to share some pics for those who are not on my FB , some of my new ideas/creations ?

2010 - Gonna be a busy year for me I guess , so far , still trying to come out with more "new" stuffs for the shop and hopefully business will pick up faster. CNY this year a bit boring , as per normal for most just that my relatives did not came over this year cos Buffet @ their house instead. Think mum bit lonely becos of that , not really in a bad way though. Oh i did something funny this year , post pre-CNY pic for ppl to take poll for my outfit ( though no ppl really reply LOL ) attached is the few pics

Sweet Thots & Me

2009-12-27T20:02:00.002+08:00

Gosh … It really been a long while since I updated this blog , 2 main reasons . 1) Being I did not have Internet excess for about 1 mth (excuses) 2) Been very busy with the new setup of the shop (excuses no.2).

First of all, for all those who been checking this blog of mine out on and off, I will try to update more of my life and work here more frequent (that is if I am not spending all my time on my new PS3!!! ha ha ).

It had been more then a month since the shop is opened, a lot of ups and downs during this period, but now, more or less things had been kind of stable (I think)
Xmas is over ( today 25th le ) So gonna work on CNY and V.day items now , I know it's a bit late but better late then never.

Before I go into work work work , something about my life here first : -
Finally consider settled down , got a room above the shop , quite big but EMPTY. Why empty ? cos I only got the following inside :-
1) 1 TV console and a TV( 32” LCD though :P )
2) 1 PS3 Console with 2 games
3) 1 Sofa Bed
4) 1 Cabinet ( 5 layered drawers ) for my clothes
5) 3 foldable mattresses ( Bryan , Wz and Mavis , one each )
6) 2 cushion ( came with the sofa bed)
7) 3 pillows ( 1 by Wz and 2 by Bryan )
8) 1 body bolster
9) 1 suitcase ( as my table for my Macbook )
10) 1 Magic mop
11) some misc stuffs lying around

Imagine my room is @ least 6m by 5m , 30 sqrm ( abt 1/3 of my HBD size ) but with only these few items ….. So frenz , where is my house-warming gifts !!!!! :P

Still got a problem with the language here , so meals are a bit problem for me. Brunch is usually Chicken Rice or Bread , Then dinner is usually Indo Mee ( my style ) I usually cook with curry chicken , or a lot of different ways of eating.
Work

White Curry Indo Mee

Curry Chicken Indo Mee

Curry Tuna + Tofu Egg

How I spend my time here ? well usually wake up @ 7.45am then brush my teeth then open the door for my staff to come in , then will do all the daily stuffs , like prepare for orders , for shop sales , etc. then at 9.30 , I will go for my shower and get changed. Then whole day will be in the shop , working , till 8 pm , sometimes I will take a break in between , maybe a nap or something , cos I am working more like split shift here , 12 hrs shift ( where the other staffs only work 9 hrs ).

At nite , usually I be cooking my own dinner , then off to shower and then TV or nowdays start to do a bit of gamming , Just got a PS3 but seems like not enuff time to play ☹ can no longer be like last time le , play games ALL NITE LONG !! Guess age catching up with me. Just always feel not enuff sleep here, dunno why also.

Mille Crepe

8" BF - Special order

Special request Indulgence

Everything so far so good , except that we really need more exposure to get ourself notice. Sigh , I wanted this to work , will look good in my resume next time ( even though I am really not ready to be a “chef” YET. Anyway daily operation had more or less stable a bit , now just need to work on the “wedding” CHEAP packages , headache , cos really got no experiences in this field.

X’mas over , not very fantastic cos only mange to sell less then 20 logs cakes , I kinda of hope to hit @ least 40 pieces though. My cookies is moving slow also , did not even manage to sell a single whole fruit cake. ( Oh did i mentioned , we opened on X'mas day itself and the walk in was pathetic !!! ( if not for a collection , it could had been worst then a normal weekday !!! )

Some things I really need to figure out , how to minimize wastages, cos the strawberry here really can die , SOOOOOOoooooooo Juicy that it keeps “weeping” and the color change real fast after cutting , thus my cakes can onl;y last 2-3 days MAX.

Things I had oreadi done to help minimun wastage , do small amount for cakes tht cannot keep long , use plastic wrap , sugar syrup the cake …. Dunno what else I can do. Headache also …

For main focus now is to
1) Come up with the wedding packages
2) Cookies and Cakes for CNY
3) Cakes/chocolates for V.day
4) Bring down operational cost
5) Bring in more Revenue
6) Learn how to write ... Sigh writing and pipping always hit me real hard !!!

Think that’s all for now , Sunday today , tomorrow OFF but cannot go back cos need to learn some local cookies from Boss’s relative. Well always good to learn more things ☺ no harm done , maybe will try catch a movie tomorrow ( if got time cos I am thinking of doing some sweet bun for own consumption , bought my own yeast n flour and filling oreadi)

Wish I could live a different live if I could turn back the clock

2009-10-11T01:30:00.002+08:00

It's been a while again , just came back from a holiday trip , will update on that once I got all those pics.
Kinda of feel emo nowdays , alot of things in my mind. Just happen to chat with a senior in FB today. She happen to keep in contact with one of the teacher from my secondary school. and i ask her to send my regards. But she manage to contact the teacher and gave me her contact nos. It got me thinking , should i contact her ? cos as u know lar , former teachers of urs will always ask , what you doing now and stuffs. For me i feel inferior , cos at my age , I still did not achieve anything great ? no career no nothing, still living a day to day lives.

Batam project starting soon , I wish to do my best for it but am scare , what if i fail to get it running well ? it's all my fren's $ . I just hope all will turn out well . Every1 thinks I am good but in the actual fact , i dun think i am , it just a front i project to others.

Looking back ... i had really take my life got granted , but what can i do to change now ? how do i go about changing it ? do i still have a 2nd chance like many said ? I really dunno. Suddenly feel so useless .... Y am i always so Emo ? Y am i born this way ? Y i grow up this way ? What had really gone wrong in my life ? I really got no answers to it. But i guess i can only blame myself for what it is today.
< to be continue >

Cream Sauce spaghetti

2009-07-22T21:09:00.004+08:00

奶油白酱 ( cream sauce )
〖 ingredient 〗
Fresh Cream ----50g
Milk ----300g
Butter （1） ----50g
Butter （2） ----20g
Flour ----50g

〖做法〗
1)warm cream + milk together in a saucepan/small pot and leave aside
2.Melt 50g of butter in another pot。
3.Add flour and cooked till fragrance。
4.Slowly add in the warmed milk+cream。
5.keep stirring , do not burnt
6.Stir until well mix
7.Put in a small container and add in the 20g of butter , to melt it.

培根奶油意面
〖材料〗
your choice of spaghetti - 200g
Bacon bits
Shaved ham
hot dog/sausages
button mushroom
chopped garlic
Olive oil
Stock - 150g
Cream sauce ( from above) - 80g
Fresh Cream - 60g
Butter - 50g
Parsley
Cheese of your choice
Salt , Pepper , Black Pepper - to taste

Steps.
1.boil hot water , add bit salt then cook the noodle
2.put some olive oil in a pan n warm up then add in the chopped garlic
3. add in the bacon bits ( do not put too much oil cos bacon bits will have oil )
4.Add in Ham/hot dog/sausage fry a bit brown then add mushroom
5.then add in the stock n then follow by the cream sauce n let it small boil. ( can add some pepper to taste)
6.Put in the noodle n cook for ard 1-2 min then add in the fresh cream n parsley and some grated cheese/shredded.
7.Ready to serve.

This is my fav style , for the actual recipe pls refer to Here

Back from another Malacca Trip , July-09

2009-07-21T20:20:00.002+08:00

Just came back from another 2D1N Malacca trip , this time round , Mum went with us and i get to test my GPS application on my iPhone ( which was really good !!!! ). Anyway this trip was not so tiring , if fact gets a bit bored @ times LOL , We left early , ard 7am from SG , had a light breakfast @ Jb then reached Malacca ard 11am. First thing we ate @ Chung Hwa again , was a bit of Q oreadi when we were there. We had 1 whole chicken this time round ( 3 of us had 1 whole chicken , the table next to us , 4 person only had like 3/4 chicken , LOL ) then we went over to Jonker 88 for Chendol , cos our rooms will only be ready by 1 pm+ , this time round we tried Hereen Inn ( cos Hereen house 's family room was booked) Well .... they place is cheap , but of cos , so you can't expect much , not as comfy as the Baba House of cos. Very basic and poor mum cos there is no lift here. We did not choose Baba house this time becos it's too far in , so we dun wan mum to walk too much , but in the end , worst she had to climb stairs. After checking in , we took a rest and then ard 4pm , we left for Tan Kim Hock , which mum was very happily shopping , total we spent abt close to RM $200 on local product !!! then we left for Capitol Satay Celup , which was lucky we arrived b4 5 pm , by the time we started eating , the Q starts again. Then went to Palawan for a bit of look look C C , then we headed back to hotel b4 hiting the nite market , which we bought some more local products LOL. Mum bought a pair of beaded shoe and we got some snacks+ fruit sherbet which is like slupee ? + dim sum of cos.
Next morning , we went to Jonker 88 again for laska + chendol , tried the nonya asam n the Baba one this time , personally I prefer the Baba laska better. After which we went to buy some pineapple tarts and then head to my Wanton Mee. Back to hotel , took a rest and then Bryan's got craving for another laksa , so both of us went to Jonker 88 again , where he had another round of laksa and i had a Baba Laksa w/o the noodle. After which , i bought another sherbet for the road ( cos the weather is getting a bit hot and then we left for Singapore. That's all for my trip in Malacca , for pics pls refer to my FB

Personally I dun mind the pineapple tarts from LW but find the filling abit little , the Ma Ti Shu from Uncle 5 was not bad , she even give us a candy each ( cos most Ma Ti Shu is hard inside , this one inside still bit chewy/runny , which i liked) of cos , the rest of likes is like the last time , Chicken rice , Chendol , Dim Sum , Celup and this time Sherbet for the hot day!

Mum's local product shopping

Out of job .... and Moving on again

2009-07-21T19:51:00.003+08:00

DIPB 003 + Chef Frederic

Dipb 003 Grad

The Dipb003 Grooming Dance

Been 2 mths since I last updates , alot happen these few mths , mostly work related. Been in and out of job recently. oh guess forget to mention I had my graduation on 24th June, was supposed to be a happy day but then most of my classmate wasn't able to make it so there's only 6 of us ( out of the 10 ) But overall , still happy lar.
During this few mths , I had work in a few places , hotel , restaurants and finally a cake shop. Think i still feel so much happier in cake shop , maybe becos i clicked better with the place there. But all good things must came to an end, My stay at the Japanese cake shop only lasted 1 mth, and the reason I left is becos I defer my ICT without letting my boss "DECIDE" first and they deems as not respecting them and feel "NOT HAPPY" that is the exact quote , he say he is "Not Happy" with me becos i made the decision . Oh this is like sooooooooo @$@#$@#$ , which in the first place he say I dun fit the company's culture. They best thing is , he had ask 2 gals to come for interview on the day he "fired" me. Then after that , one day b4 my last day , they ask if i wanted to stay on , well i very much would like to but i told them i need to reconsider , cos i had a trip planned for the weekends cos i thot i was "fired" and also i think to myself , i need to reconsider about working with a soooo petty boss. Anyway I think they reasons why they ask me to stay is becos they had trial the 2 gals and maybe dun think they fit , BUT then they fired me again becos maybe one of the gal decided to take up the offer , which , they did a 2nd trial on one of the gals after I left n hired her on the spot. So my hunch was correct , it's either one of the gals OR me , they are in fact choosing ppl to that extend !!! ( and the pay n T&C sucks big time ) But i was happy there , becos of my Chef & his wife , my senior , which we click n work very well as a team, BUT i hate the boss n his wife , so bossy and sooo FAKED , esp his smile .... eeeeeeeeeeeeee , so Er Xin. But then they made a perfect match LOL. Anyway it's time to say goodbye , of cos , I was sad to leave cos it means I had to look for job again and get use to new work environment again.
Hope i can find a place where I belong .... truly ....

Last day @ Glace

The Kitchen 4

Malacca 24 hrs makan trip

2009-05-16T22:25:00.005+08:00

Decided to go Malacca for a 2D1N trip on Friday, cos maybe going to start work again soon so maybe might not have chance to go again anything soon. It was a very last min decision, we only decided on Thursday. Actually wanted to bring mum along but decided not to first, cos being my first time there, better go and Reece first. Before later Mum complained too much walking again. Went to Popular to buy a Malacca map, which cost me $9.31 (which I think was damn expensive) it doesn't even have much info on the places of interests.
We left Singapore on Friday morning at 9am, went to withdraw some $ and top up petrol before setting off. Traffic was quite smooth cos it was a weekday morning, alone the way we only made 1 stop for toilet break and by ard 12.30 pm we are already in the Malacca heritage area. First we went to have “Chicken Rice Balls” @ Chung Wah (there is a few outlets selling the same thing but friend recommended this. The chicken was nice but I feel the rice not flavorful enough, but I found a way to over come this, first I break the chicken ball into 2, then deep into the gravy of the chicken, then put a piece of meat then put some chili, then all into your mouth: P it taste … Sedap!

Next we went to look for accommodations, Read online for some review, there is 3-4 that we consider, Hereen House, Hereen Inn, BaBa House or Puri Hotel, but we minus Puri cos read online price listed is b4 taxes also the outlook is sooo different from the online picture. Parking was one of our concern, so when online we read BaBa House got own parking behind so we stayed there instead, price was quite ok, 138 RM for a superior king sized bedroom with windows (the most exp room there) with breakfast provided. Room was ok and everything was fine (except we kinda of regret later, cos it is very far in the street, so every time if we go out n wans to go back to the hotel, we had to walk more compare if we had taking the nearer Hereen house/Inn.

Once check in, we had a quick shower and had a walk ard the daytime Jonker Walk, nothing much excited us cos not really in a shopping mood, ESP all those things for tourists. Saw a lot of shops selling pineapple tarts which all put “ 現做現賣” kinda of wonder how many are true BUT they all put a over in front, ha ha so u had to believe bah: P We had Chendol @ Kedai Antik 88 (Chendol 88) @ Jonker Street, someone online recommended this as the best, so we ate there, which was really good, no complaint ☺. After that we went to the cornet of Jonker street and went into the “三叔公” and have a look cos someone online put it's the same as the “Tan Kim Hock” which. IT”S DIFFERENT !!! So I did not buy anything there cos 三叔公’s products, can be found in JB or even GIANT. So we decided to go back hotel for a shower n had a bit of rest b4 going for dinner @ the famous Satay Celup. Took a short nap cos my fren was quite tired after the drive, woke up @ 4 pm and went out cos fren was here recently and said last time by the time they reach the dinner place @ 5.30, it was oreadi FULL and had to wait for about 1 hr b4 getting a table. I read online someone said they only open @ 5.30 pm though. Anyway we decided to walk there as it was less then 30min walk from our hotel, we reach there abt 4.30 and it was still closed, so we decided to detour to the Tan Kim Hock Product Centre which was abt 10 min walks away. It was really like how I saw online the products there is A LOT !!!!!!!! until I dun even know what to buy …. Coming here to take a look/picture is oreadi enuff LOL; anyway we bought quite a bit of stuffs. Oh btw, the boss really wears his signature white suit like someone posted online, so cute !!!

Left for dinner after that, we reach the place ard 5.15 and it was almost full, this is actually not my first time having this cos a fren bought home-style version back to SG for us to try b4 but eating there is really different, it was so much better ☺, Ok let me explain what Satay Celup is, it is like steamboat but using satay as base. Food is sold in skewers or small plates, Skewer cost 70cent RM and plate not sure but the blur plates are more expensive. Must get use to the staffs will come n stir the base to prevent sticking to the base of the pot I guess. Anyway some of the things I like there, is the chicken skewer (cos I like breast meat) then the beancurd skin thing, tau pok, and there is this meatball with a lot of mince meat once u bite inside, a bit like meatball version of “Fu Chow Fishball” BUT be careful the “juice” inside is hot when bite. This is confirm a must try place for first comer. Next we went back to the hotel cos bought too much things from TKH.

Took another shower, then laze abit, was debating should we go to the shopping malls, in the end, we decided to go to the night market @ jonker walk (read online and it state only on fri/sat nite) and then walk to the new shopping mall – Dataran Pahlawan Mega Mall, it is also within walking distance from the hotel, abt 20 min bah, we decided to take the smaller route cos shorter, and we pass by an old train n an airplane display. Went to the factory outlet n my fren bought some shirt , went FOS but nothing much , walk a bit in the mall b4 heading back to the night market @ Jonker Walk ( cos we are not really shopping ppl) by the time we reach Jonker Walk , it got crowded and we had to squeeze thru , by this time we also got bit hungry , read online must eat the “dim sum” which cost 3 piece for 1.50 rm and 7 piece for 3rm ( must buy more , cos we only start to eat in the hotel by the time we finished , we wished we buy more but yet lazy to go out again) In the end , decided to just stay in the hotel room and watch TV , lucky there was a hongkong movie ( in Cantonese though ), Dun except alot of prawns like dim sum in SG for that price though BUT we like the taste of it :)

Wake up at 8.30 am for breakfast at the hotel , there was a choice of western ( 2 toasts with some scramble egg and a sausage ) or eastern ( fried rice with sausage ) , Did not really manage to fill me , but then why waste when FREE rite ? , anyway after that I decided to try one of the Wanton mee stall cos read online say it a bit different here cos got no black sauce one. Then we decided to do some last min shopping of local products ( really a lot here to buy ) and hee hee back for another round of chendol @ 88 n this time round we decided to try the Baba laska (most ppl recommanded the Nonya Assam Laska though) , which was hmmmm NICE too , they actually added sardin flakes in oil in a spoon for you to mix into the gravy , taste good , esp the fried stuff , we order a 2nd round of the tau pok n beancurd skin , next time will try more here. Bought some coconut sugar n syrup from this shop also. A chef told us b4 , good coconut sugar must be slight brown in color and must be a bit soft n not too hard.

After that we went back hotel for a shower and left there for home , we left abt 12 pm and by 4 pm we are back home in sg oreadi.

P/s: did not manage to try any Peranakan/ Portuguese food this time round, maybe next time if I am there longer.

Some personal tips: -
Best to go on weekdays, not so crowded
If interested in going to all those places of interests, advise to go @ least 3D2N cos this trip is just for FOODs !!!
Best to @ least 2D1N cos can have hotel to rest/shower cos ppl tends to sweat there as the streets are not covered.
If possible, can just stay ard the Jonker Walk area, to me most of the things are within walking distances, cos if drive, you might have to go one big round as some of the roads are one-way only.

Some address of the food I mentioned: -

Capitol Satay Celup, 41 Lorong Bukit Cina, close on Monday (info I got online) best to go ard 5-5.15 pm n wait a bit rather then to go there full then u have to wait longer. (It’s the corner shop, the one few doors away no business one)

Tan Kim Hock Product Center , 85,87,89 Jalan Bendahara. ( Noticed the guy in white suit ? )

Chung Wah Chicken rice shop, @ corner of Jonker Street, weekends always long Q.

Jonker Dessert 88
88, Jalan Hang Jebat (Jonker Street),
75200 Melaka for their Chendol, laska

Night market @ Jonker Street, at night after 6pm, I think best to go ard 8-9pm, must eat the “Dim sum”, a lot of finger foods

Wantan Noodle @ Kedai Makanan & Miniman Wantan Mee ( 大姑云吞面), 40 Jalan Tun Tan Cheng Lock (Hereen Street, behind Jonker Street, open 7.30am – 2.30pm, info from online)

笑死人的12星座宝

2009-05-13T11:33:00.011+08:00

白羊座

妈妈经常叮嘱羊羊：“穿裙子时不可以荡秋千；不然，会被小男生看到里面的小内裤
哦！”
有一天，羊羊高兴地对妈妈说：“今天我和小明比赛荡秋千，我赢了！”
妈妈生气地说：“不是告诉过你吗？穿裙子时不要荡秋千！”
羊羊骄傲地说：“可是我好聪明哦！我把里面的小内裤脱掉了，这样他就看不到我的
小内裤了！”

（勇敢直率、敢做敢为的白羊）

金牛座

卖瓜小贩：“快来吃西瓜，不甜不要钱！”
饥渴的牛牛：“哇！太好了，老板，来个不甜的！”

（持家、想出轨又顾全自己的金牛）

双子座

妈妈叫双双起床：“快点起来！公鸡都叫好几遍了！”
双双说：“公鸡叫和我有什么关系？我又不是母鸡！”

（自我意识强烈、自行思维的双子）

巨蟹座

公车上，蟹蟹说：“今晚我要和妈妈睡！”
妈妈问道：“你将来娶了媳妇也和妈妈睡阿？”
蟹蟹不假思索：“嗯！”
妈妈又问：“那你媳妇怎么办？”
蟹蟹想了半天，说：“好办，让她跟爸爸睡！”
妈妈：“！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……—”
再看爸爸，已经热泪盈眶啦！

（恋母情结、依恋的巨蟹）

狮子座

狮狮去参加奶奶的寿宴。到了吃寿包的时候，狮狮问：“我们为什么要吃这种像屁股
的寿包？”
众人听了脸色大变。
接著狮狮拨开寿包，看看里面的豆沙，说：“奶奶，快看！里面还有大便！”
众人晕的晕，吐的吐。

（以自我感受、不怕旁人眼光的骄傲的狮子）

处女座

处处对肚脐很好奇，就问爸爸。
爸爸把脐带连著胎儿与母体的道理简单地讲了一下，说：“婴儿离开母体之后，医生
把脐带减断，并打了一个结，後来就成了肚脐。”
处处：“那医生为什么不打个蝴蝶结？”

（好奇心强又追求完美的处女）

天秤座

父亲对天天说：“今天不要上学了，昨晚．．．你妈给你生了两个弟弟。你给老师说
一下就行了。”
天天却回答：“爸爸，我只说生了一个；另一个，我想留著下星期不想上时再说！”

（聪明、权衡利弊的天平）

天蠍座

蠍蠍刚睡著，就叫蚊子叮了一口。
他起来赶蚊子，却怎么也赶不出去。没法，便指著蚊子说：“好吧，你不出去我出去
！”边说边出了房间，把门使劲关严得意地说：“哼！我今晚不进屋，非把你饿死不可！”

（搞不懂、不按常理出牌的天蝎）

射手座

射射：“爸爸，为什么你有那么多白头发？”
爸爸：“因为你不乖，所以爸爸有好多白头发阿。”
射射：……（疑惑中）
射射：“那为什么爷爷全部都是白头发？”
爸爸：！＠＃＄％︿＆＊（……

（喜欢思考的射手）

摩羯座

一天，羯羯跟妈妈上街；走在路上，突然下起雨来。
妈妈拉过羯羯的小手，说：“下雨了，快往前跑阿！”
羯羯慢条斯理地问：“那前面就不下雨喽！？”

（明白现实懒得改变的摩羯）

水瓶座

瓶瓶问妈妈：“问什么称蒋先生为『先人』？”
妈妈说：“因为‘先人’是对死去的人的称呼。”
瓶瓶说：“那去世的奶奶是不是要叫『鲜奶』？”

（天生的另类、脑筋思考永远和常人不一样的水瓶）

双鱼座

爸爸给鱼鱼讲小时候经常挨饿的事。
听完後，鱼鱼两眼含泪，十分同情地问：“哦，爸爸，你是因为没饭吃才来我们家的
吗？”

（富含丰富同情心、不分情况对象的双鱼）

Long updates ~

2009-05-08T19:33:00.003+08:00

It had been a while since i blogged , this few mths had been up n down like a roller coaster ride. First of all , yes , I got a job but part time only @ a hotel , which i had always wanted , BUT only to realized that it is not where I would wan to be , not becos of hard work but becos of what is to be done there. I gave up a full time job offer to go in that place as a part timer , though not what i really thot it would be but @ least i get to seen tried n know that is not where i wanted to be. Think i know what i really want for now, I really wants to do beautiful cakes and desserts , using the best ingredients and had the best presentation. Of cos , I am not @ that level yet and i am still trying very hard to learn from the best if given a chance. Maybe I wish that i dunno what i really one like some of my peers, think that would be easier and not so choosy.
My hand is giving me problems this few days , it can get so bad that until I can't even lift chopsticks for long. Think my current workplace gonna kill me , work 2 weeks and I am off for 1 weeks, anyway decided to go back to work ... FORCED myself to , till i find another job , think I had to reply on painkiller for my hand till I see a specialist in end of June.
Back to things at the hotel , 1) cos they served buffets , so hmmm things is just looks ok will do no need to look super nice , and their desserts dun really have the I see liao will "WOW" feeling. I always thot hotels might have the "WOW" factors that I am looking for but too bad ... so am kind of disappointed. But think on the brighter side , I do get to see different things , like ice-cream machine , and stuffs. But I dun think i will stay there for long cos 1) it's just part time and also the working place dun really suit me , i needed to be somewhere more jolly and not just rushing for nothing ...
Had another fren's gathering recently , desserts I made was way below standard ... quite disappointed with myself LOL ... ppl been saying ... i been doing worst then last time, dun have the "Wow" factor anymore. Must buck up !! anyway plan to get a ice-cream maker for myself , so good news to my fren ..... I might provide fresh ice-cream cake /desserts for you ppl next time .... :) next will aim to get an "espuma". Pray to whoever .... whatever .... I hope to had a chance to learn n specialize in desserts/plated .... but i dunno where i can pick up .... dun think i can do it on my own .... so if any1 got any good chef willing to take me in , let me know .... I dun mind working for free if there's things to learn !!!
Will try n start to take pics of my creation and maybe post the recipe online from now on .... always forget to do that ... feel so bad..... ..... but ... recipe .... should I or should I not share ? I been very open always but seems to me many ppl still keep their recipe like dunno what like that .... makes me wonder .... what should I do ?

P/s : hope my hand can get better , if not , I might have to even give up my dreams on baking ... ( now on 3 mths medication )

Moving on ~ ( for N times )

2009-03-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

Went for a run ..... ha ha , been wanting to do so but sooooo lazy , wonder how long more b4 my next run ... *crossed finger* that i try n do it often. Been telling myself i need to move on for the N times , hope i can really do it this time :)

Anyway , have this bright idea of mine , To all my frenz reading this blog , did not get any requests for cakes/desserts since my last post on my work in 2008, here I am giving you all another chance , ha ha , post in the comment to let me know if there is any cakes/desserts , in any flavours that you like (of cos must be practical lar), Then i will try it out and create it specially for you , YES you only :) but of cos u need to give me time to try n explore, of cos if u ever gets to eat it , means I am sucessful , if not ... then keep waiting ok :) ( ok ok maybe it's just some excuess to make you ppl comment here , BUT i will try my very best ok to get the ingredients and explore in the new creations. ) So keep your requests coming in so that i can bring myself to the next level , be it I am ready or not. hugzzzzz

WSQ Graduation @ Vivo

2009-03-18T23:03:00.005+08:00

Me + my Daughter

Went to meet my daughter and Esther @ Vivo's Marche for lunch , as per normal ..... Marche is still as EXPENSIVE , spent abt $40 on a meal .. and didn't finished all also ... waste of $$$$ , Banned myself from going there anymore ... It just not worth it !!!!. Went Daiso , bought a skin peeler for doing orange strips. Then we to a toy shop and saw a gloomy bear 's coin bank .... soooooooooooo cute ... i been looking for this for a long time and the shop i always bought from dun carry this model. Asked one of the sales person about the price and she said there is a 20% off ... so i am very tempted. But i just spend freaking $40 on a meal that is not worth it ... :( but luckily found a sponsor to help me in this "adoption" program :P , so thot will come and buy after the whole grad event.

Went to the rehearsal and was quite bored and feels very funny at first cos we have to walk up a stage and wave then had to do a dance to High School Musical's music , but ha ha actually was enjoying it when the real event started , cos to see so many of us graduates having fun n catching up and we get to wear and throw out "tall hat" , BUT of cos I am more looking forward to the one in June where it really belongs to us :).

After the event went to buy the bear , I ask for the box , at first she said dun have but then she say have .... then ok very happy to have it with the box. Upon making my payment , she told me $39.90 , then i was like look @ her ...
Me : "didn't you say there was a % in the afternoon when i was here ? "
She :" oh, you where here earlier ? "
Me : "Yes, and you told me there was a discount."
She took up the calculator and press the amount and said " ok , 20% "
I was like .... lucky i ask in the afternoon ... if not i might have to end up paying full price for it.

Hee hee thanks to my sponsor for funding in this "adoption" program cos am very happy to be able to get this bear :) and to end the day .... I got my fav " red tea longan" waiting for me after supper :) Today .... had been a nice day .... ( except for the expensive Marche !!! HNG !!!!!! )

My Prized Gloomy

恋人契约书 << Lover's Contract >>

2009-03-10T22:28:00.005+08:00

Looking thru all my past emails , found this Lover's contract given to me by my kor in 2000 , Decided to just post here , any1 interested to have a copy in Word's format , do let me know :) Cheers
P/s : but the timeframe must change to 一生一世, ha ha cos my R/L just lasted slightly more then a year :P

恋人契约书

立约人 XXX, XXX，以下简称甲方、乙方，契约

有效期自 200x 年 xx 月 xx 日起至 20xx 年 xx 月 xx 日止为期 1年。

双方同意于此为期 xx 年期间之内，恪尽恋人之职责，善待对方，

视对方为最值得依赖之伴侣和最重要的考量。共同厮守，相亲

相爱，以自己最大之努力和尽自己的力量，带给对方最大快乐。

若有违背前述原则，于沟通无效后，任何一方可片面宣告契约

终止，另一方不得异议。

契约结束前一个月内，双方得加以检讨，并决定续约与否。

易求物价宝，难得有情郎，人生无常，唯有真爱，空口无凭，

特立此约。

立约人甲方乙方

于新加坡共和国 200x 年 xx 月 xx 日立约

WSQ Graduation Ceremony For Tourism

2009-03-10T21:33:00.003+08:00

Just received this invitation and will be going with my Gal and our class baby. Hope to know more ppl in this same field if possible , ha ha , any1 wanna go with me ? Each of us got 2 invitation cards :) ( think got free FOODs !!!!!! , Ha Ha.

Taking for granted

2009-03-07T11:40:00.009+08:00

Something also I saw from online posting ....

<<如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?

如果我已不存在了...你是否才感覺的到我的離開?

如果我已離開了....你是否才感覺的到我對你的好?

珍惜身旁的每一个人,不要等到失去了

才瞭解到遺憾.和後悔是如此的痛苦....>>

ＫolaX : 要懂得珍惜身旁的每一个人，試著想一想，如果今天你最深愛的人，忽然離你而去，你會怎樣？你會後悔沒愛他多一點，沒對他好一點嗎？往往我們會對我們身遍的人事物當成理所當然，不會去加以珍惜。但如果真的失去了，我們才會後悔，人不是往往都是這樣的嗎？
所以親愛的朋友們，不要像我一樣，乘還有機會的時候，跟你身遍的愛人与朋友說一聲“我愛你”。

Translated version
If I were still love you deeply…. Will you still stay by my side?
If I were still care about you….. Will you still look at me one more time?
If I were no longer around… Will you begin to realize that I had left?
If I had been gone…. Will you begin to feel how well I treated you?
Treasure all people surrounding you; do not wait till they were gone
Then to understand that sorrow & regret are so painful……

KolaX : Treasure those around you , take a minute to think , what if your most beloved left you suddenly , how would you feel? Would you have wish you treat them better when they are still around ? Many a times we takes things and people around us for granted , this is always very common cos we are humans. I am just speaking from experience here , so frenz out there , dun be like me , once lost , it's gone forever, can only live in regrets.
So my dear Frenz , while still have the chance , tell your love one/friends - "I LOVE YOU"

通朋友 Vs 男朋友

2009-03-07T11:36:00.003+08:00

Saw something interesting online, the difference between just a fren or a bf , gals out there , see if it's true :)

通朋友：半夜會找妳打MSN聊天到很晚。
男朋友：半夜看妳還在MSN上會趕你下線(當然妳可以柪個幾分鐘)。
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普通朋友：他會找你出去玩,叫妳放棄報告或翹課。
男朋友：他會催妳快寫作業,或者想要跟你討論功課。
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普通朋友：在你生病時，會講好話關心妳。
男朋友：在你生病時，他會關心到你很煩，而且逼你去看醫生。
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普通朋友：他會盡量說好話來討好妳，妳會覺得他很棒。
男朋友：他所說的話，都是關心妳的！但通常像是在命令妳，妳會覺得他幹麻這麼做。
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普通朋友：他什麼事情都會配合著你，只要你高興。
男朋友：他會幫你辨別是非，但你會覺得他管太多。
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普通朋友：他會說他要給你最大的幸福。
男朋友：他只能給你保證，妳跟他在一起，他是最快樂的。
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普通朋友：他會幫你買消夜，送宵夜，載你上下課。
男朋友：他會幫你買宵夜，不過他會提醒你，吃什麼比較健康。
他會載你上下課，不過要他有順路，因為他不能為你而翹課。
因為他翹課，他成績便會不好，成績不好不會有好工作。
那你們將來日子怎麼會好過，他會想的很遠。
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普通朋友：他只有想到現在。
男朋友：他已經預見將來，該怎麼自我努力，好給你幸福。

Leo and Sagittarius' Love

2009-03-01T14:15:00.007+08:00

Leo and Sagittarius have the same warm, generous, loving traits but what Leo has yet to learn is that Sagittarius 'gives' to everyone, but no one captures his or her exclusive attention for long; Leo could get his or her heart broken in this scenario. Sagittarius is apt to come up with some wild idea, or big gamble, in a chance to make a lot of money and will entice Leos support, but should everything fall through, or losses prevail, then Sagittarius will still be grateful for leos love and support, but will make him/her share the blame.

Sagittarius must have his/her 'space' for exercising the personal freedom so well loved by the centaur. Sagittarius cannot understand Leo having fits of jealousy over a few harmless flirtations of his/hers but will be very possessive of Leo. Being an outdoor person and a sports enthusiast, Sagittarius will not mind if Leo prefers to stay at home in comfort, as long as they can reach agreements on other recreational pursuits for togetherness.

If leo does not try to tame this one, and does not condemn and argue over the sexual indiscretions that he/she commits, Sagittarius may someday decide that there is no reason to look elsewhere for the satisfaction he/she can find at home. This can be a relationship that has the potential to be very rewarding with the right combination of the compatibility charts. Love can make it work.

These two both have flaming passions, and a sense that life is an adventure to be celebrated. Dating involves play and possibly travel, with Sagittarius drawing Leo outdoors and soon both are glowing with fresh fire in the cheeks. Falling in love makes them feel even more alive. The athletic Saggi stirs the lion out of laziness, and into the game of pleasure. Trouble begins if Leo suspect that the Archer is an equal opportunity lover. Leo's jealousy is a bad fit with the Sagittarian's pursuit of varied experience in romance. Their fires burn differently -- Leo is ignited by concentrated attention, and Saggi's sparks cover a lot of ground, in an ever-widening fire zone.

In a relationship, both are social, but Saggi travels further afield. Saggi needs to keep moving, and feel free to follow life's lead. If Leo feels lonely and unappreciated by the busy Archer, trouble ensues. Saggi's need for freedom conflicts with the Leo's desire to be swept up in an epic romance. Saggi can be a loving partner, but can't be totally devoted in the way Leo wants. A player Saggi with the prideful Leo is a recipe for disaster. It works when a commitment is in place that both value, and the bond is kept fresh through shared experiences. When Leo trusts that Saggi will return, the bond deepens through the many comings and goings. Kids, holidays, animals, friends, parties -- the Leo-Saggi household is vibrantly colorful. As long as they keep laughing, and work through their differences, this pair has a good run.

* The Pros and cons of a Leo Sagittarius Relationship *
There is a real compatibility in a Leo Sagittarius relationship. Both tend to have an outgoing style with a lot of warmth, generosity and love. Each tends to draw from the other to create enthusiasm and warmth.

The Sag can:
Pull out the lighter, fun-loving side of the Leo.
Come up with wild ideas and entice Leo's support.
Encourage the Leo to try something new and to become active doing something both people enjoy.
Let the Leo be the center of attention while the Sag enjoys the action.
The Leo can:
Be easy-going and able to handle and accept the blunt comments of the Sag, even though the Leo may initially be hurt by the comments.
Mirror Sag's enthusiasm for fun and get quickly involved in new activities.
Provide inspiration for exploring and discovering new aspects of life.
Provide the stability in the relationship while Sag tends to wander physically and mentally.
However, there can be challenges:

The Sag's need for personal freedom often turns to flirting. The Leo may become too introspective and misinterpret Sag's flirting as the end of their relationship.
The Leo may be very vocal in expressing negative thoughts about taking part in Sag's outdoor and sports activities, causing both of them to decide to stay home and do something quiet.

爱与被爱，你如何选择？

2009-02-28T20:03:00.013+08:00

一直在問自己，爱与被爱，我到低想要的是什麼。網上看到這篇文章，好相是一首歌的歌伺，但還真得梃有意事的。

* 盼不到我爱的人，我知道我愿意再等
疼不了爱我的人片刻柔情它骗不了人
我不是无情的人却将你伤得最深
我不忍我不能别再认真忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人我知道爱需要缘份
放不下爱我的人因为了解他多么认真
为什么最真的心碰不到最好的人
我不问我不能拥在怀中直到它变冷

爱我的人对我痴心不悔
我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲
在乎的人始终不对谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切
我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎
爱与被爱同样受罪为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围 *

被爱是幸福，爱人是痛苦的。许多朋友总在为爱人与被爱这个问题烦恼。爱一个人是自己感情的投入与付出，心甘情愿，但当发现对方没有像自己爱他一样爱自己，又很痛苦。但如果说那找一个他爱你比你爱他更多的来不就行了嗎？自己又會不會決得如果不是全身投入的爱他，那又有什么意思？自己又能不能忍受不了与一个不爱的人一起生活呢？

那被爱和爱人，你又會選哲哪一個呢？我想我兩個都不選，我會選晢相戀。可能很難，但我還是想擁有這樣的一斷戀情。可能我已乘經擁有過了，而一裴子也不會再找到了。

我該放手了嗎？

等一個已不再愛我的人？我等得好累了，不知道我還能等多久。而他可知道我在等他嗎？就算知道又如何，因為他已不在愛我，而且他的身邊已有了另一個“他”。有時我真的怪他，為甚麼不能愛我多一點？為甚麼選摘逃避？可能我真的傷他太深吧！可是他一直說是我把他給逼走的，但可能他自己不知道，其時他更本就不愛我了。我止不過是他們之間的配角。＜如果你是真的還愛我，你就不會再一次選摘離開我。可能你自己都不清楚這一點。＞

* 我已经相信有些人我永远不必等
所以我明白在灯火栏珊处为什么会哭
你不会相信嫁给我明天有多幸福
只想你明白我心甘情愿等等等等等你回頭 *

我很清楚我該放手了，只是還是會有這麼一點點的不拾得，必僅我們有很多開心的回億，我沒辦法說忘就忘。我還是會幻想著，有一天你會忽然抱著我，告訴我，我是你一身的伴侶。可是一覺醒來，夢還是夢。

最後還是想對你說。。。。。。。。。我愛你。

A nice song that i got addicted

2009-02-28T01:41:00.001+08:00

The Script - The Man Who Can't Be Moved

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag I'm not gonna move,
Got some words on cardboard got your picture in my hand,
Saying if you see this girl can you tell her where I am,
Some try to hand me money they don't understand,
I'm not...broke I'm just a broken hearted man,
I know it makes no sense, but what else can I do,
How can I move on when I'm still in love with you...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Policeman says son you can't stay here,
I said there's someone I'm waiting for if it's a day, a month, a year,
Gotta stand my ground even if it rains or snows,
If she changes her mind this is the first place she will go.

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

People talk about the guy
Who's waiting on a girl...
Oohoohwoo
There are no holes in his shoes
But a big hole in his world...
Hmmmm

and maybe I'll get famous as man who can't be moved,
And maybe you won't mean to but you'll see me on the news,
And you'll come running to the corner...
Cos you'll know it's just for you

I'm the man who can't be moved
I'm the man who can't be moved...

Cos if one day you wake up and find that you're missing me,
And your heart starts to wonder where on this earth I can be,
Thinking maybe you'll come back here to the place that we'd meet,
And you'd see me waiting for you on the corner of the street.
[Repeat in background]

So I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

I'm not moving...
I'm not moving.

Going back to the corner where I first saw you,
Gonna camp in my sleeping bag not I'm not gonna move.

Another song I just heard on 《超级星光大道》and kinda of tell my current feeling , esp the last few verse.

康康 ﹣你不爱我

习惯被拒绝的人会先拒绝
这一次至少是我先说离别
有一些痛楚看不见泪水
有一种防卫叫做我无所谓
要让你快乐原是我的心愿
可是你从不在意我的伤悲
丢给我一些喜悦的碎屑
却带走我一切
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配为你在狼狈
你不爱我你真的不爱我
尽力而为我拼命给也是浪费
你不爱我是我舍不得
是我不配和命运作对
你不爱我你真的不爱我
一直以为我是后卫
原来只是那后备

☆林宥嘉伯乐☆

爱你的那一个伤你的那一个
谁才是你爱情中的伯乐
放弃了这一个然后等待着下一个
最后哪一个让你最舍不得
感谢不能让别人来说
你给过我的她们是做不到的
那时候的幸福是真的虽然过去了
我们也都经历了
释怀教育着仇恨和平劝着天下人
故事发生便住下了不管好的坏的
你让我成长了就算是痛得值得
一个个过客过得快不快乐
别太多过客祝你早日快乐
离开时别忘了看看眼前的人
流泪记住了还是微笑祝福着

Portfolio 2008

2009-02-24T23:54:00.005+08:00

Was redoing my resume and decided to do a simple portfolio and hmm was quite impressed by my own work, so thot of sharing with those whom do not have my facebook. So much unhappy things had happened so thot post something nice n sweet to cheer those who are down and sorry for all the sad posting to those who had been reading :) Esp , Chong - thanks for dropping in to see how i am , very touched :) , well who else been following my blog ? do let me know , maybe i will return with a free dessert ? hee hee enjoy my work for 2008 and do comment or RSVP from me if it suit ur liking :)

Ps: these are just some of my work for 2008, looking forward for more

Dream revolution ...

2009-02-20T00:10:00.003+08:00

Think it's time to wake up , change a different dreams, When I first did a career switch to follow my passion , being able to work oversea , learn different things and maybe becoming @ least a known chef in Singapore , ha ha , but I guess I am drifting away from that , for one , age is catching up , in this line , experience n exposure matters alot. How am I, turing 32yo , completing with others who are like 10yrs younger ? Life had been very good to me , looking back , I had no complaints , or rather I can't complaint. As the quote , everything happens for a reason. I just need to find that reason for all these.
Got another email asking me about at-Sunrice 's DIPB , really glad to be able to answer and help , currently 3 so far , hope to be able to help more , either myself or referring them to my juniors, also am very glad all of them are very willing to help one another. As i maybe had mentioned , help was given to me when i was once lost in choosing school as well, someone helped me along the way and thus I am paying it forward, and hopefully all those I helped will do the same , do keep in contact with me , and when the need for you guys/gals to pay it forward, I will let you ppl know, Let's all be a happy family of DIPB :) ( ha if only my school know how much i am helping LOL ) Think they be super duper surprise ? or maybe they will give me an award for it , ha ha . Can;t wait for my Grad in June .... hoping Arjun will come back then we can go Manbo again LOL.

Happy Valentine Day 2009

2009-02-14T17:46:00.002+08:00

The time of the year again , where lovers are happy and single are lonely, My first lonely valentine day after 7 yrs , i can't have it had been easy. Things just dun happen the way we wanted ... Shall not go into much details , Just my mum finally found out I m Single again, which was .... hmmmmm easier then for me to break it out to her.

Alot of quarrels and stuff with my Ex again , still we ended up as Exs , hope of patching back is back to NIL again. Maybe i really need to look into my own character , alot of ppl been complaining. I am not a saint , even if changes , it takes time , so frenz out there who are reading this , forgive me and i promised i will try to change , to be a better me for you ppl.

I had decided to quit looking for another LOVE , maybe becos i haben close my last book , I am still at the very last chapter , but yet do no wish to close it as yet though i know i am oreadi at the last page. I still longed to flip back to the first page. I thot I had moved on and willing to open another book but recent happening makes me feel that I am just not ready to do that as yet. I will still be willing to start from page one all over again. Maybe I am just a loser in love , maybe I just dunno how to love , maybe really I just make a better fren. To my Ex , I had told u so , but maybe you dun believe , my door will still be open for you anytime if you ever to open it. I dunno for how long , I dun wan to give empty promise as to forever and ever BUT if that one day you wish to come back to me , just let me know. Cos I had told myself that I do not wans another R/L after ours, of cos someone did gave me a bit of "feel" after you left but I really dunno that "feel" is real or I am just trying forget you.As you said , all these is too late now , but I had kinda of shut myself up becos of you , Told someone that my heart had closed , cos deep inside there is already alot of ppl , every1 of my Exs had a small place in my heart and of cos u will too , no matter what happened. I really wish you to be happy with whoever you are with , that is from deep within. But we as humans are also selfish , very much I would want you back n maybe it's becos I know I can't thus I said all those above. Who knows someday , someone , somewhere is able to melt me once again , but i really doubt it at this moment. Cos I had choose to protect myself from hurting once more.
Time had really been bad , now I am with no Love , no Job , no Career , and I am lost ... but I had to be strong ... @ least try to put on a strong front for all those around me.

Lastly , I believe all things happened for a reason , It is not an easy things for us to know each other and be together for the past close to 7 years, I thank you for every moment , U had made me what I am today , without you , I might be still staying at my old job , and not taking a closer step to my own dreams. Though I do hate you for not giving us another chance to work things out but i just had to say thank you once more for being there for me for those time together. You will always have a place in my heart. Letting go now is not I dun love you anymore, dun ever doubt it.

P/s: Just want to say sorry also to those I had hurt , I am sorry but I really do not have any more spaces in my heart. We still can just be frenz if you ppl wans but I am afraid I cannot be that special someone that you wanted.

Edited from last post - To post or not to ?

2009-02-09T15:12:00.003+08:00

This part was actually edited out from my last post , Thot decided to delete it but then realized that all my wishful things all along , cos I thot maybe there still be some chances with my ex and dun wan to "anger" my ex b4 a final decision had been made but it's just wishful thinking on my part , so since now all had been set , I should just state my own view , this is my own blog after all ... isn't it ?

< Firstly is the person who gave me hope after my last break off , gave me the "love" feel and then turn and run away , make me realized that maybe LOVE is not a game for me to play cos my defination is very different , though @ my age , ha ha , I still hope for the perfect LOVE , which i should pick myself up and tell myself , I had enuff...Must learn to protect myself then to let others hurt me with their sweet words.

Next is my Ex , gave me a hope to maybe we should try again , been telling me to voice out what i really wans but when I voice out and you can't deliever , then what for ? Told me , I am still the one who you wans to spend ur life with and stuff , YET your action is neber louder then your words. You keep thinking that you love me , but how much are you willing to show it ? how far can you go for the one you love ? You are the one whom wanted to patch back yet I m the one keep on giving in and the CHOICE is still in your hand. Well anyway in ur heart , I m always the one who had the upper hand, the high handed one , the die die I must win person , the unreasonable one .... ... I had enuff I guess ... making myself miserable for all these for nothing cos , maybe like you say you are not the one for me too. Our thinking of LOVE is so much different. Maybe it's all for the better. My life had picked up after you left then after that you had to come and make me fall into the valley again. Sigh. Maybe I dig my own hole and jumped into it again.

Had some problems with my Sis , Same thing she had always feel that I am the type that die die must win, unreasonable sort of person , ( Well maybe I am since so many ppl think that way , ha ha ) I really dunno , maybe that's my flaw. But in the whole conversation that we had b4 the quarrel , dun think i ever show that , where my side of point is that everytime she had a PMS she will just barked up my tree. I mean , fine , every1 got their emotional times , so what makes u think that I m in my best of mood then ? I guess that is the fault of being a "happy got lucky" pax. Fyi , I m having a lot of probs myself with lots of things in my mind too. But knowing her pattern , I took a step back , told her , maybe we had comms problem , maybe we should talk another day instead. But she had to add one last sentence that fyi , she is not the only one that had that views on me. To me , if you are so not happy with me then voice it out , dun have to go behind and tok abt me. And to me , at a point of argument , then you blurt out something , this means that that is really something that you minded alot, and if so "xin ku" to endure , then might as well not. And the best thing is , the next day , instead of trying to clear things up ourself or take a cool off period , she had to go n tell my daughter , and she had to come and ask me to hear my side of story. Which to me , WTF. Anyway told me gal the whole story and told her , maybe I need a cool of period from all , and frankly , to me all the while , my feelings was , I m just someone nice to hang out with , but being a fren to all of them ? I really wonder , maybe they did not give me that feeling @ all, or maybe I ask for too much. But it doesn't really matters now , time will drift all apart. Maybe I should be just like the rest of my classmates , neber engage , dun involve. We are just all classmates who took a course together. >

CNY 2009 - a new year, a new start ?

2009-02-08T12:16:00.006+08:00

Light orange cheesecake mousses

Chocolate mousse + morello cherry compote + lychee mousse + lychee bits Topped with sparkling grape jelly

Had CNY gathering < potluck > @ my place this year since had been always @ others' place for the past few gathering. Those 2 pics on top are my newest creation.

Seems wrong to put this part here but I guess I had to add this in and i will minimize this type of SAD posting cos think it's getting a bit unhealthy. Life had been a bit down for me , though I m still able to lauffs if needed. Maybe I think I am turning "short" soon.

-----EDITED ------

Lastly , I need to get a job real soon ... all this is adding up to my problems, Soon i will turn every1 against me to protect myself ..... like what i always do , maybe not healthy , but at least it's a form of protection that I will have. Really hope I will really change myself for the better , open my eyes bigger to see people i know and not getting myself hurt anymore. And I will focus more on my baking , and hopefully turn this blog into something more on my passion baking and not just my "down" life.

My gang of close bros with their wives

P/s : You guys/gals are still the best frenz in my life who gone thru my ups n downs and no matter where we are or how less time we meet up , I know support and help will always be there, just a call away. Thanks !!!

一個人的我也可以過得很好，活得精彩。

2009-01-25T12:15:00.003+08:00

Went on a shopping trip alone yesterday , haben been doing that for the longest time ... feeling yes abit lonely but I guess overall was ok , @ least no one to restrain me from buying this n that , of cos that also means i spend alot !!! LOL also no second opinon was given , I had to make all choices myself ... guess there's pros n cons.
Guess I had to be alone but I need to get use to it and live life to it's fullest, had a chat with my classmates last week , feel like having amemsia is not a bad things after all .... they mostly think it good cos they ca nforget certain things in life which is not happy to them, but to me ... it's more like a new me , a changed me. I feel that I been a bad person in life so far , a failure @ many aspect also and I longed to change , but just too lazy n dunno how to start.

Coughing .... n Coughing ...

2009-01-22T02:37:00.007+08:00

Think my cough is killing me once again ... sigh ... guess going to polyclinic again tomorrow ... Just finished baking first batch of pineapple tarts and some suegee cookies ... not too bad ... guess @ least i m doing something i enjoyed. Alot of things happen recently ard me ... 2 of my gals fren broke off ... and just dunno how to console them also cos I ... also just survived a broken r/l. But it got me thinking also .. what I really wans now ? I still think of that someone .... guess I just wans to find out what actually happen but dun think i ever gonna get an answer so i guess i just have to live with it.

What do ppl look in a r/l ? guess for me is very simple .... just 2 ppl ,,, loving each other and in both their hearts there is only each other. to me LOVE is everything , all other obstacles can be overcome. Someone once told me ... no one is meant for another , destiny is in our hands , we fight for our own happiness .... but yet ,.... that someone is the one that hurt me , ha ha . Funny. I was soooooooo touched by those words then but then it only brought myself more sadness. Is there no one out the who will put LOVE/matters of the heart as first place ? To me if 2 person really loved each other that much .. they will do all they can to be together, if things work out of cos good ... if not ... at least both tried!!! Guess I m just still looking for that 2pid someone out there like me ... emotional ... and just believe in love.But really at time i wish i wasn't so emotional ... maybe life will be better. Now i just wish i could find a job soon ... think i gonna give up on love oreadi .. too many ppl had places in my heart liao ... ha ha . Need a job badly to earn $ for my loans and also to forget those ppl in my heart .... no matter what happen ... I love you all :)
*ps : hope my cough will cure soon ... if not ... dying soon.*

DIPB003 United for the last time ?

Feeling Lonely ~

2009-01-17T01:03:00.003+08:00

Went to Polyclinic today , suddenly feel so lonely , seeing couples there accompany their lover to see doc ... sigh ... Gone were the days where someone will accompany me to the doc , or smsed me now n then to check if ok n stuffs .... Guess i just have to get use to this feeling ... :)

Msg my boss that I would not be helping him anymore @ work cos doc as to rest b4 it got worst , lucky X-ray shows that lungs are ok so just have to rest well.... :) Wish me get well soon and *cross finger* find someone to hangout often and maybe love soon ? LOL

Back to work ... Part Time !!

2009-01-08T23:11:00.002+08:00

Been back to work for 2 days ... 12 - 10 pm each day ... super tired ... guess not young anymore ... Anyway can;t help thinking about what had gone by the last week ... sigh ... i know i should get over it ... but ... it's just me .. the 2pid emo person that every1 dun understand.... Anyway ... tomorrow going for an interview ... had to shaved ... n dye my hair back black ....sigh .... boring once again ... Wish me luck whoever reading this and wish you happy with whoever manage to take ur heart away.

相遇是一种缘，相知，相恋更是一种缘，

缘乃天定，份在人为

缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！

有一种爱，它的名字就叫放手！

对的时间，遇见对的人，是一生幸福

对的时间，遇见错的人，是一场心伤

错的时间，遇见错的人，是一段荒唐

错的时间，遇见对的人，是一生叹息

其实有些事情，真的是没得到的时候，最珍贵美丽。

想太多 - Back to reality

2009-01-06T20:50:00.006+08:00

New happiness lasted a week and now ... back to square one .. Single once again n targetless. Agreed with fren that I moved on too fast but it takes both hands to clap but guess I clapped at the wrong hand. Think i should be sent to the Zoo as a protected animal - the most emotional guy of the century... ha ha ... anyway ... sad , yes n moved on - YES .. Just cross finger my career will be better ! Gambatei !!!

Maybe it really takes a great deal to know someone b4 you really jumped into something. Guess not all are so adventurous as me ( or 2pid to put it ) To me , I won't give up until i tried my very best , be it in the end i will ends up hurting myself. Realized alot of ppl i talked to , they give up once they thot things won't worked out , maybe they are too protective of themselves so I can't blamed them too.

"Love" is not something then just said for fun , as there is a saying in Chinese "說者無意，听者有心“ which means that you dun really meant what u said but the listening party might take it to heart. For example : You say "I Love You" , maybe you just meant "I MISS YOU" or " I LIKE YOU" or maybe it just have no meaning to you but to the person listening to it , he/she might thot you really LOVED him/her. Or in another example : you were very angry with your love one and in the heated of a argument you just said " I wish I neber love you or met you" , to you , it might just be a blurt out of words when u angry but to the other party , he/she might have thot you really meant what u said. So always think twice about what you say, as another Chinese saying "禍從口出“ meaning troubles always comes out from mouth ( in terms of words you said ). So next time be mindful about what you gonna say to someone, always think twice , no matters what your emotions @ that time is , it's gonna be hard.

For now ... in my mind ... there is just this song ... " Love dun cost a thing" , if you out there knows what I mean.

Hibernating season .... once again.

Gw n Krystal Wedding 03012009

2009-01-04T00:46:00.004+08:00

Just came back from my best fren's wedding, finally the last of our lot of close frens is married , so happy for them. Top pic is the ice craving they had @ their reception , with fresh fruits in it for eating :) .... Cool ...........

The day started early at 6.15 where WZ came to fetch to GW's place , there we met his fren and cousin n nephew who will be part of the "brothers". When to Krystal's place and 4 of her frens are waiting for us ... to hinder us in the process of rescuing the bride. First they start by asking us to eat Lemons .... which was .... small cos not very sour. Next was honey ,,,, a bowlful ... w/o thinking i took the whole bowl n glup it down ... ha ha , was very sweet !!!! until they ask me to stop n feed the groomwith 2 spoonful. Next was small bitter gourd ice cube ... i pop in 2 even though i dun take bitter one ... ( the bitterness lasted a few hours ) next was chilli .. which i can't take and so BX ( GW's uni fren ) helped , he was garang like me , sour, bitter n spicy.He pop quite a no. until his lips like red. Then next up they ask to life up our pants to show our legs , i knew they had wanted somethign to deal with hairs ... leg hairs ... and true ... soon they took out some tapes ... n i volunteer myself and i used all the 6 tapes up ... not very pain but have to " act act " bit bit to entertain them LOL.

After that , we continue with the tea ceremony on both sides then went to the hotel to make sure the room for there solemnisation was ready.And then we fall out when the whole thing was over ... reached home about 3.15pm.Went to sleep at ard 4 pm and overselpt until mum wake me up @ 5.40pm ( was supposed to wake up @ 5.15 pm but i set alarm to 5.15am.

WZ picked me up @ 6pm and we left for the hotel. There help abit here n there and when they were having the toasting session , thot he got enuff ppl on stage so the few of us "act blur" until GW when to the mic and shouted my name ... was feeling 50/50 cos 50% was a bit malu ... to be called up like that thru the mic , 50% was hmmm he really treated me as one of his best fren thus name is the first to be called ( only one to be exact ) After that helped with the photo taking session, which i did not want to help cos thot he got enuff ppl .. so i can take a rest. But in the end ... being the KPO one ... i still helped the whole process ... cos since he trusted n tasked me with that in the first place.

Finally the last of my best fren got married , so happy for them .... it also will mark my last time of duty as a "brother" and all well ends well ..... To Guowei and Krystal , Happy Marriage and May Love follow you 2 always in ur lifelong happiness.

Happy yr 2009 to all ~

2009-01-01T02:30:00.005+08:00

Lychee Jello

Coconut sago with Pineapple

Tiramisu

Medicine :(

My own Pasta

Had a gathering @ my fren place , we had porridge for the first time ... quite cool ... did some desserts and review not too bad :) Chatted a lot, catch up alot of old times ... and finally the last of the lot is getting married this Sat 3/1/09 , wish him and his wife all the best. Everything was like perfect , except i still need to find a good job.

Came home ... dad was complainting about mum , sigh ... y do i have to be involved in this ... and sigh ... i think i really need a job ... and change my life abit bit ... for th better of cos ... I can only hope.

2009 - might be a start of many new things , for once , I m back to single again but "seeing someone?". It adds alot to myself .. "am i ready ? " "is the other party ready?" "are we meant for each other ?" hmmm might be thinking too far but that that is one bad point about me now .... I will just follow my heart and see where it leads.

Hopefully 2009 is a good year ... looking forward to 1) get a good career, 2) be a good BF ? 3) have a happy family 4) friendship.

Thanks to Wz & Mavis for this spread

Merry Xmas to all ~

2008-12-25T22:04:00.003+08:00

Been a hmmmm "busy" week ? anyway just some updates .... Had snack with my "sister" @ PLU Hangout Cafe , then meet my frenz for din din @ Thai Express and Desserts @ Ice3. My "family" from skool gave me a surprise belated bday @ swisstoel merchant court , really thank to them for that .... but a bit waste of $ ... to u all, my wife , sister and esp . my gal .... Hugz , love you all.

28/12/08 Went on a date after soooooooooooo long ... was a short one and dun really feel like a date ... more like knowing one another :) Nice feeling after that and hmmm hope to see if anything can make out of it ... If u r reading this ... YES .... I m keen to know you more ... n hope for more then frenz in the near future.... hee hee , sorry if that sounded too fast. Hugz

Happy B'day to Myself !!!!

2008-12-20T00:09:00.001+08:00

Just turned 31yo ... , a new yr , a new life and hopefully a new career ( hope I can find a new job soon). Maybe all the bad things shoo shoo away from me , may i becomes a better , stronger person. And may more ppl love me for who I am. I may not be the most perfect guy but I am def not the worst ... so like/love me for who I am. Blessed that my back is ok from the accident from that 2pid cabbie.

Dun walk behind me cos I m not a good leader , Dun walk in front of me cos I dun follow , Walk beside me ... cos I am always there if help is needed.

B'day wish this yr -

1) My parents to be heathly

2) I tonite kena 4D

3) All my frenz to be healthy n happy

4) All my classmates n me to find a good new job

5)May all bad luck stays away from me

6) A new Love ? ( dun think i m ready )

7) Family harmony

8) Blessed to all who read my blog

9) A good year to Me and all who knows and likes me :P

10) World PISSED .... (Peace)

Finally my course has ended.....

2008-12-18T21:07:00.005+08:00

My First Sugar work

My final Showpiece

My mazapan snail

17th Dec - My last day of school in at-Sunrice , finally after 15 mths , how times files .... I still remember my very first day there ... it all just seems yesterday. Anyway we had our final end of term exam .... to write out a recipe out of 10 , by lucky draw ... and pulling sugar to do a showpiece. Very happy that finally my showpiece after 3 tries over the week , it finally able to stand up and present it the way i wanted. We had a mini celebration after that and some drink n stuffs :) 3 "awards" was given out 1) The Loudest - Esther , 2) Best Smile - Yj and 3) Most Mischivious - ME , ha ha ...

18th Dec - On the way to work , my bike kena BANG by a cab , hurt my back a bit , went to the doc but doc he never even check , just gave some pain killer and ask to KIV , dunno how to claim from the Cabby now. Think my luck is really going down on me. All the unhappy things have to all happen @ the same time. Just hope the pain is temperory. Hopefully some thigns good will come my way soon ....

P/s : Could have celebrate the fruit of my labour with you but you were gone from my life .... Just wanna say , if you are reading this , Thanks for the Support and Help you have given me for making me to follow my passion and dreams.

12 星座分析

2008-12-07T22:24:00.001+08:00

白羊座终极完美分析
'白羊吗？太恐怖了！他们脾气大、暴力、瞧不起人，还是躲远些、小心为妙！'
　　如果你这末认为，那你可能就会失去一个肯为你付出生命的人。受火星的灼烧，白羊决不是人们想象中的那种冷血狂魔！
　　白羊的内心世界有两个：恨的世界与爱的世界。白羊的外显世界与内心世界是同步的，只不过由于他的'恨'意更昭显，以至于掩盖了他爱的那一面。
　　白羊很善良，心中总是想着别人，很多时候愿意委屈自己而成全别人，但由于白羊不能掩饰自己的情感，凡事争锋，有什末不满就会立刻表露出来，于是不能将美事做尽，落个彻底的好人，反而最后还招来一鼻子灰！比如，白羊想看爱情连续剧，你想看科教片，于是你们就开始为了看什末而打假。如果你硬看科教片，则白羊会大吵大骂，最后'砰'的把电视给关上！白羊心里想，电视又不是你一个人的，凭什末只许你看不许我看？！你不让我看，你也别想看！但如果白羊占了上风，看上了爱情连续剧，而你默默的走开，则白羊一会儿又会觉得过意不去，心疼你，怕你不高兴，于是让你看。一句话，白羊是重形式不重实质，极度不能容忍别人挑战他的权威。
　　
　　其实，白羊是那种死要面子活受罪的人。面子，比白羊的生命还重要！白羊最不能容忍的就是别人贬低他、瞧不起他！谁要是对白羊吼几嗓子，白羊能吼谁24个小时。比如，上司若是责备白羊不当，则白羊就会气势汹汹的反责备上司，而且责备的更欢。上司责备他一句，他能责备上司10句！！当上司解雇了这个不肖员工以后，白羊不但不伤心，反而还有种壮烈感：'虽然丢了工作，但是丢得值！我当着那末多人的面骂了上司一顿，真是露脸！恩，同事们现在一定还在议论我的英雄事迹……'白羊边重新找工作边想，想着想着，自己便不禁暗笑起来，接着便是昂首阔步，得意洋洋，觉得自己真是了不起、不可一世！
　　
　　白羊爱面子，都爱到了成癖的地步。白羊希望别人喜欢他、爱戴他、吹捧他，最好能对他前呼后拥、关怀备至。白羊男们总是感慨自己为何没能当上总统，白羊女们则从来都认为自己是总统夫人的料儿，只是不小心找错了男朋友！白羊总觉得自己是个天才，只是因为怀才不遇才沦落到今天这种无名小卒的地步。比如，白羊认为自己天生就是个艺术家，只是张艺谋导演没发现他。若是张导发现他，他一定比巩丽要出色的多！由于白羊喜欢那种高高在上的感觉，所以，只要你平素多吹捧着他、赞美着他，则他便会'累死不知死'的对你，你喜欢他怎样他就会怎样。
　　
　　白羊很温柔，只要你没惹着他，你可以随便与他嬉戏。但如果你要是有什末一不小心的举动触犯了他，则最好赶快给自己准备个棺材。比如，白羊与你打情骂俏，很开心的气氛，双方都乐在其中。忽然，你一不小心，出手重了些，打痛了白羊，则白羊就会立刻瞪大眼睛、提高嗓门，把你骂个狗血喷头，甚至再狠狠的还你两个更重的巴掌。此时，欢乐的气氛一下陷入了僵局，弄得你心里别扭至极。但白羊却认为，闹归闹，你也总得有个限度吧，出手没轻没重，真是讨厌，我的漂亮的手都被你打红了！想着想着，白羊会更生气，弄不好再轰炸你一次～～～不过，过了10分钟，白羊又开始和你有说有笑，好象什末事情也没发生过。白羊凡事都来得快，去得也快，一般不记仇。
　　
　　你也许会说：'白羊不记仇？怎末可能！他们总是抓住别人的错误不放！'但是，白羊确实不记仇，他们抓住别人的错误不放，实际上是为了时刻提醒对方，不要再犯同样的错误！比如，白羊的爱人有外遇，但经过一番周折，两个人又和好了。那末，在以后的生活中，白羊会时常责骂爱人当初是怎末的抛弃自己、自己是多末多末的不幸、自己的心灵受到了多大多大的创伤！白羊之所以会这末做，主要有两个原因：一方面，每当白羊想起这些，就会十分的激火、生气，于是非骂爱人一顿不可，以解心头之恨；另一方面，白羊这末做是要时刻提醒爱人，以后不能再有外遇了，变相给爱人敲警钟！
白羊是那种把自己的快乐建筑在别人的痛苦之上的人，因为白羊爱满处宣扬别人的溴事。比如，他会在大庭广众之下，说你们小时候一起玩耍时你不小心尿了裤子，更或者，他会对你的心上人说你有爱挖鼻孔的习惯（偶服了白羊了～～～）。但是，白羊并不觉得说这些有什末不可以，因为在白羊心里，这些都是那末的美好，是童年的回忆、是人生百态的小花絮。他们说你的溴事，仅仅是因为他们觉得好玩，觉得很甜美，能给人带来乐趣，把别人的目光都集中到自己身上来，让别人认为自己是开心果！白羊完全没有挖苦你、拆你爱情道路的意思，只是结果往往……
　　
　　白羊天生气质非凡，人中龙凤。白羊的人生宗旨是'活出自己'。由于白羊天性中有桀骜的一面，于是在与人相处的时候，就不自觉的流露出一种傲慢的气息。由于白羊的这种不自觉的摆谱儿，以至于不了解白羊的人都躲着白羊，因为他们觉得白羊看不起人。但如果有个机会接触了白羊，则人们又会认为白羊是那末的好接近、那末的好心肠。白羊自己觉不出自己的傲慢，心中只是暗暗纳闷：为什末别人总躲着我，我是多末的平易近人、和蔼可亲啊！！！
　　
　　白羊多没主见，耳朵根儿软，自己做好坏分析的能力很差。白羊极富正义感，喜欢让不公正的事情昭雪。但是，由于白羊的没主见，使得白羊的正义感带有一厢情愿的色彩。比如，白羊认为从一而终是种正义，于是，任何发生婚外情的人都会受到白羊的谴责与蔑视。白羊认为，我一生下来，父母、老师就告诉我要从一而终，难道我坚持从一而终还会有错误吗？！白羊不明白，任何的一桩善也是一桩恶，正义与否远非能用是否从一而终而简单定论。这也可从一个侧面反映出白羊是个简单的人，任何复杂的事情到白羊手中都会变得简单、易行（人生能有这种魄力也实在是一件美事）。
　　
　　白羊对待感情亦是反应神速。若你向白羊示意爱慕之情，则白羊若喜欢你，第二天你们便成了情侣；若白羊不喜欢你，就会躲你远远的。你若穷追不舍，他还会一点面子不留的直指责你：'躲我远点，我不喜欢你！否则我打你！'（汗～～～）在白羊心中，喜欢就是喜欢，讨厌就是讨厌，没那末多的的暧昧不清。
　　
　　白羊喜欢那种有惊世骇俗之举的人，因为白羊觉得只有这种人才配得上自己。比如，你们约会，到了吃饭的时间，你最好带白羊去钓鱼台吃，就算你的钱只够在钓鱼台喝瓶矿泉水，白羊也会因你的这个壮举而爱死你；你若带白羊去吃街头的麻辣烫，那末你就做好被白羊蹬了的准备吧！
　　
　　白羊的性欲很旺盛，但由于他们很顾及自己的面子，所以总是光想不练。换句话说，就是白羊的意淫很严重。比如，在公共汽车上，身边坐着一个漂亮MM或GG，于是，白羊就开始对其产生了无尽的有关性的想象……由于白羊的行动力超强，所以做起爱来也是超神速。

处女座终极完美分析
都说处女座另类，双重性格，甚至有点神经质，其实原因只有一个，处女座的一切都要随自己外显的性格而转，姑且称之为'状态'。处女座状态好的时候，可以将自己聪明、细腻、能干、温情、幽默、有内涵等优良品质完全外展，此时他们显得如此完美，光芒四射，并且可以表现得非常外向、健谈，容易与人打成一片（这本非他们的性格）。而一旦处女座状态不好，便会变成另一个人，甚至非常窝囊，一事无成，不过通常此时他们都躲避外在的干扰,所以让人感觉有点间歇性自闭症)因为同为水星守护，所以处女和双子一样善变，但双子善变的是心思，处女善变的却是情绪。

　　
很多时候处女座要面对很多实际的琐事，这时的处女座便不得不在冷中面对周围世界：要么说话做事很不自然，有做作的痕迹；要么便极度冷漠和被动，对谁都不理不睬。其实处女座很清楚自己现在的样子，但他们无力改变和控制自己的情绪，只能选择疯狂地逃避一切。

他们想的是：与其很不自然地面对你，尴尬地和你说些无关痛痒地话，或是因和平时反差太大而被人说成表里不一，性格怪异，还不如先躲一阵子，等调节好了以后再出来。所以，在与人交往中，他们只会和不得不交流的人（实在躲不掉）或是完全陌生的人（反正无所谓）交谈，而和熟悉的朋友反而疏远。

所以.你在他心中地位越重，他躲得你越远。特别是恋人.

而且,大家都知道处女座的人有严重的完美主义倾向,所以就有了所谓的\\'处女座的人最喜欢若即若离\\'。原因很简单：他只想给你一个最好最完美的自己，而不愿让你看到他无助脆弱的一面。所以请记住，有时处女座对你冷，绝不是你说错做错什么，这是他们正常的生理现象，他们只是不想让严寒和冰霜伤害了你（可事实上这种做法已经伤害）。不必难过，因为他们在乎你的话，他们的内心比你还要难过、自责和内疚！他们所能做的，只希望快点调整好情绪，回到你的身边。

正基于以上两点，处女座有时便会表现出非常另类的行为和思维模式。他们的性格也很多来源于此：不喜主动，不善交际（也可以热情，只是今天热了，终有一天会冷的），不爱表现，不喜抛头露面（万一哪天情绪无法把握状态不好时，岂不大失脸面），诸如此类。

关于'洁癖'并非处女都有洁癖，很多处女座并不爱干净，但却要求整洁，他们更多的是井然有序，不喜欢别人破坏他们所整理和布置的'完美'格局。处女座更多的是有精神洁癖。一旦触碰到他们精神上的禁区，严重时会表现得歇斯底里。

关于'花心'一般说来处女座绝不花心，忠诚是他们的代名词。异性关系多很可能是他们需要确定一个好人缘和自己有魅力，来反击那些普遍观点。一旦找到心中真爱，他会呵护你一辈子，只要你能给他安全感，他永不背叛，心中眼中唯你一人。寻花问柳，红杏出墙这些事与他们绝缘（一是责任感所致，二是怕麻烦）。

关于'聪明'不似双子灵活机巧，不象水瓶创意非凡，也不是天蝎的那种计画周密，处女座更多体现的是智慧。细腻、理性、好学加上十二星座里一流的洞察力和最强的逻辑思维能力，处女座想不聪明都难。没事少在处女座面前信口开河，随意撒谎，很多伪纱他们一眼便能看透；也别跟他们玩什么心计，你玩不过他们的。处女是那种可以把你卖了你还得向他道谢的类型。没事也少跟处女座辩论，他们没理也可找出理，甚至找出不止一条理来。处女是永远不会吃亏的。

关于'单纯'处女座很纯真，但绝不单纯，他们内心复杂得让人难以想象，很多不经意的事可能都是他们精心布置的。处女座也总在纯洁和好色之间徘徊，这一点最难说清。不过他们真正的内心是极其善良的，
宁可自己苦也不愿伤害任何人，心灵如水晶一般晶莹剔透。

关于'幽默'都说处女座冷若冰霜，缺乏幽默。多和他们接触吧，你会体会到什么是冷幽默，什么是真正的幽默，而并非品位低俗的搞笑。

关于'迟钝'别看你和处女座说某些提议时他们半天才反应过来，在你说好的一瞬间，他们脑子里可能已经转过五六个你这项提议会造成的后果（通常是消极后果）了。他们总是想得太多，绝非想得太慢。

关于'自私'处女座的自私觉不是狮子的那种惟我独尊，也不是水瓶的以自我为中心。处女座正因为是无私的，所以显得自私。（能够理解吗？）因为处女不想伤害任何人。

关于'逃避'由于处女座性格上的因素，他们通常会显得压力很大。当周遭的事物已无法掌控，或是自己的情绪无法调节好时，他们会疯狂地逃避，堕落自己，这种状况通常对别人无害，却是伤害自己，让所有爱他们的人感到心碎。不过不用太担心，过一阵子他们自己会好的，他们天性的自我批判精神很快便会起作用。处女座一般不会彻底堕落，堕落前可能都已留有余地，只是在等待着希望的来临。甚至有时堕落都是做给别人看的。

关于'内涵'处女座有涵养这一点是肯定的。在成长中不断吸取教训，不断学习，取人之长来丰富自己的内涵。因为他们感觉到情绪无法把握，而这些是自己可以踏踏实实做到的，将来一定有帮助。这是他们所追求的完美主义目标。

处女座就是一个表面神秘到难以琢磨，说穿了却又很简单的星座。最接近神的人？可能吧，处女座喜欢这样
来标榜自己。因为他们确实有超凡脱俗的一面。他们的内心接近了神，可是身在这个世界，不能不食人间烟火吧，所以必须得戴着一个面具活在这个世界上。

处女座喜欢和人说些暧昧的话，对心仪的对象却不好意思表白。
处女座希望别人了解自己，却又只将能公布的那一部分对外展示。
处女座是最有责任感的人了，可很多时候却害怕承担责任。

金牛座终极另类分析
幽默是金牛的天赋

与一般星座书上描写的金牛们相反，其实金牛座非常具有幽默感。他们天生就有搞笑的才能，善于制造轻松的氛围，不要再将牛牛们认为成是一群僵硬腐化的人，相反他们很可爱。还记得在《满城尽带黄金甲》的发布会场上不断耍宝的金牛发哥吗？他的幽默感绝对令资深娱记也大跌眼镜，人缘好不是随便说说的，金牛座有着宽厚的胸怀。

其实他们有着叛逆的灵魂

金牛基本上看起来都是乖孩子，仿佛脚踏实地，固执老实，但是，谁曾想到，其实他们的内心都有着一个小邪魔在作祟？他们虽然是一板一眼的生活，但是在他们的内心里却喜欢着调皮的恶作剧。不要金牛们想象的太沉闷，他们其实内心五彩斑斓，而且特别钟意制造出各种人生的小小乐趣。也正是这样叛逆的灵魂，让有些金牛让人吃惊。所以，一般的容貌姣好的乖乖女，或者一般人理想中的文静男，其实，都不属于金牛的鉴赏范围，他们总会奇异的喜欢些标新立异的人。这点在金牛男上表现的较为突出，也因此而衍生出不少瓶女和牛男的佳话吧。

思考是金牛的具象

在贪图享乐的外表下，金牛有一颗哲学家的心。他们看问题的方法与众不同，他们有着唯物主义的思考逻辑，不会轻易人云亦云，也正因为如此，他们让人觉得固执非常。

但是千万不要因为固执就否认金牛们的智慧，有马克思，列宁，康德……为证，金牛们完整的理性思维往往能建立严密体系，只是有时候他们太容易钻牛角尖！不过即使是钻牛角尖的牛牛也具有鲜明的个人特质，李敖就是这类金牛的代表：）

务实的人生不需要浪漫武装

跟牛牛生活是一件比较乏味的事情，如果你钟爱浪漫的仪式。

因为牛牛无论金钱或者生活，他们都踏着务实的步伐。他们不会轻易说我爱你，他们不会随便送花，他们甚至不记得你的生日，更别提情人节等什么形而上的各种纪念日，这让人大为光火。因为没有了形式的爱情，又怎么能证明是爱情呢？

但是，金牛们会告诉你，其实有时候真正的帮助其实好过鲜花香水，有时候挺身而出的担当其实胜过所有的甜言蜜语。所以金牛们的爱情，也许让人闷到感觉不出火花，但是，在贫乏的爱的表象下，却藏着他们深刻的滴水不漏而且日久弥坚的关怀。

享乐人生的信仰

金牛们懂得生活。他们虽然很执著，但是该放弃的时候，他们并没有太多犹豫。从利益出发考量的方式，让他们在现实生活中相当的如鱼得水，而懂得平衡自己的贪念，而追求物质的享受和一心的宁静，是金牛座中的极品。这样的金牛能够在逆境中坦然，在顺境中懂得顺应。他们有着预见性的智慧，使人生得到完整的规划。在适当的时候寻求闲适，所以金牛座很少有面临困境无法自拔的困兽，他们相当的懂得自我调节和生活。他们有着自己的节奏。

能够轻松生活的智者

金牛们在星座排行中表现一般，但是其实他们都很出色，金牛座的孩子往往是班干部，金牛座的爸爸妈妈都是模范爸妈，他们在生活中尽职尽责，富有责任感，虽然有时候稍嫌古板，但是正是他们撑起了所谓规矩的框架。

严肃生活认真思考却有能享有生活乐趣的金牛们其实非常可爱，当然，如果他们不那么市侩，那就更好了！

巨蟹座终极完美分析
巨蟹是心软的，容易被感动，即使表面看起来总是有一副硬硬的壳，但那壳子底下是一颗柔软敏感到极至的内心。它们面对一份感情是犹豫再三的，不要说它们懦弱，它们只是明白自己是容易受伤的。他们对感情抱有信仰，相信纯真、相信天长地久，所以有时是挑剔的。

这是一层表面坚硬的壳，其实攻克轻而易举，因为蟹蟹有一颗柔软的心。

蟹蟹恋爱了，这时的它们变的很粘人，很婆妈，因为你是它的中心，它会为你考虑很多，饭吃了吗？天气会变了吗？记得带伞哦！路上车多，慢点走哦！……..诸如此类！

蟹蟹是深情而痴情的，爱上一个人会爱的很深，即使明知道没有结果也很难自拔。这是巨蟹的一种固执，想要得到的东西，往往不会轻易放手。有时，一段没有结果的恋情会成为蟹蟹的生活重心。这无疑是痛苦的，但又难以自拔。然而，巨蟹的不安全感又在内心大叫着放弃，所以这时的蟹蟹总是在坚持和放弃的巨大矛盾中苦苦煎熬着。学会放弃是蟹蟹的一门功课.

当然，如果蟹蟹真的决定放弃了，它的坚决会让所有人吃惊。
要记住：除了你自己，没有人可以伤害到你
蟹子是痴情的，但又不善于表达，面对自己心爱的人拘谨、放不开。它们的幽默感此刻变得生涩。
蟹子是深情的，但又不善于把握，为什么一次次控制不住自己的情绪，说出明知不该讲的话？

分裂而善于幻想的寄居蟹在说巨蟹之前，先说说几个一直以来欣赏的几个偶像，他们都不同，但他们有一个共同点，就是，他们都是巨蟹男。周星驰，王家卫，罗大佑，李宗盛，梁朝伟，张学友……一般在每次排行榜中总是靠末的巨蟹们，看起来并没有很明显的个性，但是，他们在艺术方面的直觉和敏锐却是别人难以匹敌，从这几个人名里就不难看出。他们在生活中都是温文尔雅的，被动的，甚至往往是沉默的，但是在他们的电影，歌曲中，却展露出令人惊异的才华，让我们总是不由自主的为之倾倒。当周星驰让我们笑得泪水横流的时候，我们也早听闻其实戏外的他认真严肃，不苟言笑，对待朋友和情人都很苛刻；我们知道在戏里演什么都神形毕似的影帝梁朝伟同性格南辕北辙的射手刘嘉玲20多年同居，至今都不愿结婚，他总是说，其实他的人生就是在戏里；我们知道张学友出道前曾经是黑社会的小混混，天天宿醉，自暴自弃，也看到张学友成名后依然为了家庭拼命打拼，几近崩溃……

　　这就是巨蟹，其实，最能说明巨蟹特质的，就是－－分裂无论是哪一种蟹，他们都有着分裂的思想。他们渴望安定，也渴望出人头地，他们内心充满艺术的灵感，夸张的幻象，但是在现实生活中，他们总是低眉顺眼，很难真正展露心中的狂想。所以在艺术的舞台上，他们反而得以施展，让心中奇异的狂想放大到极致，他们可以将任何一首歌一个角色演绎的入木三分，所有来自于生活中被动的接受，在艺术的殿堂上得到了最好的宣泄，所以巨蟹真的应该属于舞台。即使没有好的歌喉没有好的外形，但是他们有良好的感受力和表现力，他们的性格实际上更像是一只寄居蟹，在真正自我的生活中，他们常常将自己包裹的很紧，但在诠释和演绎别人的时候，他们那内心的感情得到了释放。

　　巨蟹座的另一个长处是他们有着哲学的思考力世界因两股力量相互消长，而水象就是典型的阴柔之力。水象星座的人有一种天生的宇宙观，巨蟹也是如此，加之他们天生有母爱的情结，所以他们的思考往往带有着人性化的关怀。所以从事与艺术相关的行业的巨蟹，无论如何都可以算是幸运的巨蟹，因为能够得以发挥天然的性格所长。但是不是每个巨蟹都有这样的机会，所以大多数巨蟹都会感到自己的压抑和痛苦。他们不是没有渴望，相反他们需求很多，渴望很多，但是他们总是躲在自己的壳里做着各式各样的幻梦，只是在想，很少实施。所以如果你看到的总是低眉顺眼的巨蟹实际上并不是真正的巨蟹。那只是巨蟹的一个假象。

　　永远无法抹去的自卑巨蟹们其实是自我感觉很好的心高气傲的一群人，但是却又难以克服时时刻刻想躲进壳里的自卑感。他们天生多疑和敏感，碰到困难，就先躲进壳里，自欺欺人，在梦中编织自我的安全感，而从来没有想到如何主动将危机转化为机遇。他们对待困难的消极方式，使他们总很难真正木秀于林，他们总在捕捉他们认为最好的时机，但是那个时机却总是无法到来，其实世间哪有万全之策？当蟹蟹们艰苦的自我互博之时，大好时机已经失去。但是要改变这种天生的自卑感确乎很难，蟹蟹们几乎完全不由自主。
怀旧是巨蟹们的人生主旋律巨蟹们非常怀旧。他们喜欢旧东西，怀恋旧感情，对家庭有着天然的眷恋。泛黄的相片，褪色的丝带，尘封的梳妆台……所有一切带有浪漫情调的旧物，都可以让他们独自神伤，黯然追想，他们总是沉浸在过去的回忆里，永远记得年少时的孤寂敏感，永远记得初恋情人，多年后仍然四处找寻初恋情人的消息，慰籍多年来始终保持新鲜的记忆。所以王家卫的电影总喜欢用这样的句式开头：多年以后……

　　忽冷忽热患得患失的爱情他们天生悲观，永远需要多一点，更多一点的安全感。为什么他们如此需要安全感，因为他们天生就没有安全感，所以他们是很容易恐慌的，所以他们也就变得非常的多疑和猜忌。爱上一个巨蟹是要仔细思量的，因为他们会突然忽冷忽热，突然置之不理，突然恶言相向，但是其实他们并非不爱你，他们有时候是在跟自己呕气。他们渴望天天24小时同你粘在一起，他们对爱人有着强烈的占有欲，恨不得掏心掏肺给你，他们关注你的点点滴滴，小到为你买一支发卡，大到帮你选择哪路公车……他们都费劲心思，他们时时刻刻每件事都为你考量，但又因为付出的不停增加而变得越来越担心害怕，会不会得不到对等的爱。所以他们会突然变得冷淡了，也许只因为你一个眼神，他们就觉得你已经不如从前，于是开始无休止的试探，他们说话总是转弯抹角，但是却总希望你永远清晰表态，假设某天你也含糊了一下，那就完了，蟹蟹们立刻条件反射的开始惴想出无数个虚拟场景，在无尽的悲观中，意淫出种种悲惨场面，然后再见你时，就已经是冷口冷面，甚至说出无比绝情的话语－－所以，你和巨蟹的他们，是要努力去磨合的，给他们足够的信赖和安全，他们回馈你的，绝对让你感动的热泪盈眶。

　　虚伪包装下易感的心实际上巨蟹善于伪装。他们喜欢笑，无论何时何地，他们常常微笑，也许这笑容有时候让人欣慰，但有时候却会让人感到非常的虚伪。当然巨蟹们也总有自己的小奸小坏，但是他们虚伪的前提却总是先为了保护自己。他们对自己应得的利益是淄铢必较，有时候会让人感到他们是不是很小心眼，但是，在朋友聚会等场合上，他们又绝对是豪爽大方，主动抢着付账的人。所以其实巨蟹是个公私概念很明确的人，他们对该得的绝对毫不客气，而对待朋友，他们又觉得其实这点钱根本不算什么。他们是眷恋朋友和家人的，他们基本都有些喜欢酒。而且酒量都还不错，因为他们眷恋那种宾客相尽欢的气氛，更眷恋着家的和乐融洽之感。所以巨蟹们喜欢做饭，即使不会做饭也对美食有天然偏爱，他们懂得享受居家生活，所以巨蟹们有个理想婚姻是最快乐的事情。问题是巨蟹们却常常选择晚婚或不结婚，因为他们多疑又害怕，他们总是对新幻境充满怀疑，对新的家庭又向往又拒绝，在自我矛盾中，不断蹉跎了年华。

　　自己为自己创造安定感觉巨蟹们总是不安，这是一种不好的感觉，因为如此，许多巨蟹枉然蹉跎，终日郁郁。其实，巨蟹们可以尝试自己为自己创造安定的感觉。找一个家里人都喜欢的对象，建立一个自己的家，也许巨蟹会发现自己会变得安稳很多。找个摩羯是比较理想的选择。或者找一个自己的爱好，倾注所有的心血，自己也会变得安定很多。当然蟹蟹们也许会说，你这是站着说话不腰疼啊，要是那么容易的话，还用得着你说吗？呵。但是，无论怎样，当我们自己意识到自己的不安，就该努力去克服他，其实壳外的世界，没有那么可怕，这是真的。

　　总的说来，巨蟹们很可爱，尤其是在艺术上有成就的那些人，他们创造的都是令人仰止的丰碑，所以巨蟹们不必没来由自卑，其实你们都很出色。

摩羯座终极完美分析
年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们通常在表面表现的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。
　　
　　魔羯相对任何星座来比能在最段时间看出一个人的性格无论他们在如何隐藏，这点很像天蝎但是他们却看不出对方的心，他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他们通常不会说出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出．
　　
　　　　所有魔羯都拥有２个性格，只是大部分魔羯都不愿意去接受，因为他们希望自己永远的傻傻的活下去，魔羯的坏可以媲美过所有星座，也许他们不相信，但是随着时间的积累魔羯的人在慢慢变坏，其实这也是一种自我保护，他们需要知道了解自己最后的一张王牌，做不做就看对方是否达到让魔羯抱负的地步了，这并不是在表扬，似乎用阴险可以形容，当魔羯讨厌一个人的时候那就是一种绝对，魔羯不会随便讨厌一个人，但是如果哪个人做的太过分，这个人会从魔羯心底彻底抹杀，如果这个人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那么这个人就只能等着灾难的降临。
　　
　　　　魔羯是个比较城府的人，他们不会表面去得罪了，但是他们会计划着让这个人知道他所做的事情将会给自己带来多大的回报，魔羯的报复手段极其残忍，他会加倍的还给你，（如果你有一天遭受到摸名的灾难那么你去想想你在什么时候得罪了魔羯）魔羯并不会随便的去加害一个人，因为魔羯也讨厌自己的坏，他们是天才的杀手，一切的一切从很早以前就做好计划，而且这些计划在没有事件出现前他们就在考虑如何完美并无破绽的进行报复计划，也许这些和他的悲观有些联系，魔羯的人很了解世界，但他们固执的相信美好尽管自己知道那是不可能的，大部分魔羯都讨厌坏坏的自己，当然想抛弃自己是不可能的。
　　
　　朋友（最喜欢装傻的星座）
　　魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻，这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到任何伤害，与其做一个聪明的人不如当一个傻子平凡而又随意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧，而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋友都很真，他们很珍惜些朋友。
　　他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下去．和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好，好的似乎发傻，其实他们并不是脾气好，只是他们很会装，因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格，所以他们在包容对方，就算你做了什么过分的事，他们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做，最明显一点，你们可以去看看身边魔羯的朋友，无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的，其实他们已经知道你为什么会这样了．魔羯的交友观也很随便，他们可能会和贵族很好，也可能会和乞丐聊天，一切的一切只是心灵的交往，很少有魔羯会有势力眼，除非你这个人品太差了。
　　
　　感情（超级白痴）
　　魔羯的人傻的可以，他们并不了解爱情，但是他们只知道爱的感觉，对于他们任何感情的表达都是一种感觉，他们很认真的感受每一个感觉，大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉，最失败的爱却要两个人，傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为，爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系，可是到后来越来越感觉不是滋味，于是开始对对方表白，表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步，也许是太不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑，但是在爱情方面只要他说出'我爱你'或者话题谈到将来结婚，那么他绝对不是在开玩笑，魔羯很物质，但是这点和金牛处女不一样，他们的物质表现在爱上，他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的幸福，因为他们很自卑，唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。
　　当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候，自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他，而到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么，真是可怜的家伙们．
　　
　　追求: 魔羯的追求是认真的，只要对方不让魔羯认为完全没有机会，魔羯就会像疯子一样的追求着，他们其实对自己非常没有信心，唯一的动力只是相信自己在爱着，为了对的起自己的感情，为了认真的去爱一回．
　　
　　被追求:　魔羯对于不喜欢的人不会给予任何机会，魔羯的人很善良，而且他们知道长痛不如短痛的道理，如果魔羯勉强接受了你，那也是出于一种同情心，但是交往没几天他们就开始内疚，他们认为怜悯的爱对追求者来说是一种伤害，他们会尽量的躲避并且对追求者很冷淡追求者尽量的让追求者开始讨厌她／他．如果追求者不理解的话，放心最长不超过一年，魔羯会很理智的告诉你别在联系了，她／他会消失的无影无纵．
　　
　　拒绝:　如果魔羯真的爱了就不会去拒绝你，永远不会．
　　
　　被拒绝:　魔羯比任何一个星座对感情都很认真，恢复伤痕的时间也很长，他们会选择消失，这样对你对他都有好处，因为他怕多看你一眼而又再次无法自拔　他怕再多看你一眼　心如刀割

射手座终极分析
乐观与忧愁：射手座人的内心不是外表看上去那么乐观的，因为喜欢看的远，容易担忧的事情也就多，在他们的字典里，即使现在好，也不一定代表未来好，有时候很多人觉得很好的一个工作或一个伴侣，他们很轻易的就会放弃掉，可能只是因为一个毫不起眼的小原因。所以，这样的外在表现，就让人们觉得他们不喜欢被某件事情或某个人束缚住，追求自由的，没有压力的感觉。

现实：常说射手座是追求梦想的人，但往往忽略了他们现实的一面，算计起来不会比处女座差哦，只是更高明更隐藏罢了。射手座人的梦想是必须建立在现实的基础上的，一般他们很少谈及自己的梦想，而是实际的去做一些向梦想靠拢的事情。如果可以借巧力完成的事情，决不会多花一点工夫。所以有时候射手座也容易给人耍小聪明的感觉。可是，不得不承认他们完成的还满不错。也许终其一生，他们都在考虑怎么巧妙的做一些事情，花最少的精力去达到最好的效果。所以，很多射手座看上去让人们会觉得很懒，但是其实他们的大脑可没有停下过思考现实的事情。

拒绝低俗：几乎所有的射手座内心都是骄傲的，其程度绝不亚于狮子座。只不过他们不会显现在脸上，外在的表现总是随和的，恰当的。可是内在有着极强的自尊心，敏感也情绪化。因为射手座人心中是骄傲的，所以他们拒绝低俗，不喜欢任何俗气的、粗鲁的事或人。如果可以，他们希望一切有关的事物，都是优雅的、高尚的，值得品味的。而真正能让他们觉得值得交朋友或谈恋爱的人是很少的，虽然表面上他们是很随和的。

多情：很多人说射手座多情，尤其是男性。其实在射手座人的心目中，对于爱情确实有理想化的倾向，和他们谈恋爱，是一件高难度的事情。他们非常讨厌俗气的人，所以你不能很物质或喜欢谈钱，但是他们又很现实，所以你不能一文不名，各方面也必须有一定的实力。物质与精神，你必须平衡的刚刚好，才让他们觉得你值得去爱。或者，你有足够的神秘感，可以让他们不知道你的缺点在哪里，而盲目的爱你。一般，当然是没有完美无缺的人的，所以，可能象金牛座这样永远会让射手感觉捉摸不透的闷闷的人，会非常吸引他们；或者象双子那样，足够机智，懂得察言观色，捕捉他们的情绪，才会让他们感觉到爱情的甜蜜。一般射手的感情模式是，第一阶段，你们还不熟悉，他（她）爱上了你，非常热情。第二阶段，你们逐渐熟悉，而他（她）开始龟毛，整天挑剔你的毛病，无论是背地里还是当面。如果你有幸通过他（她）的挑剔过程，基本挑剔出的毛病为零或者你把缺点保密的非常好；那么进入第三阶段，他们就又是忠诚和热情的爱人了。但是基本能通过第二阶段的人非常少，所以有了射手多情一说。其实射手对恋人的挑剔，是源于对爱情的挑剔，对丧失自由感的恐惧。

射手座人的人生，往往是幸运的，因为他们是聪慧的、明朗的、通透的。与众不同，也许是他们终生追求的梦想，希望每一个射手人，可以找到他们的梦想！

　　人人都说射手座是感情的骗子，对爱情不尊重，只追求片刻的快感，是花心与冲满欲望的象征。朋友们…你们了解射手座最真实的一面吗？
射手座是大孩子，天真与善良，遇到爱情时，可能让人感觉不认真，付出的比谁都少。可是，知道吗？射手座很想爱，却也很怕爱！刚开始他们只是慢慢的付出，谨慎的爱，好怕自己会受伤。可是在一句一句的爱，一天一天的相处下，射手座把带刺的防备丢掉，开始不顾一切的去爱他们所爱的人，在别人眼中，只是射手座为了达到某种目的而作的行动。可射手座不介意，他会在自己幸福的想象中陶醉，希望对方能感受自己的爱，想对方觉得与自己一齐是幸福的。
在射手座爱上了一个人，他会把自己放到最后。有苦自己承担，可能会因为吵了一场小架而不开心，却也是最快认错，无论谁的错，他们都会包容，知道吗？射手座会因为深爱一个人而原谅他的背叛，会因为你的一句话付出很多。他们爱玩，在玩的同时，也希望把那一份好心情带给你，射手座是乐观的。
　人们总觉得射手座的世界很快乐，可是呢？射手座难过时没有人知道，他不想让别人可怜自己，射手座不坚强，可是很善良。在你难过时哄你开心，让你有依靠，分手后，他会哭者去想属于你们俩幸福的回忆，也不想爱的人因为同情而勉强和他一齐。他比谁都希望自己爱的人快乐幸福，却常常忽略了自己，全身都是伤也笑着告诉你，我很好不用担心。
　　在所有人看到他的笑容以为他没事，却不知道失恋对射手座有多大伤害，华丽的外表下有一颗脆弱的需要别人了解和安慰的心。知道嘛？你的一点关心，心思细腻的射手座会记得你对他的好，把自己的爱毫无保留的送给你，射手座是不被了解的，可他们不会怨谁。他们会傻傻的认为，让我承担吧，别让别人也受到伤害。所以，不要让快乐的射手座痛苦，别让他们最有魅力的笑容成为掩饰痛苦的伪装，认真爱射手座。你会知道射手座的爱，是充满泪水的…

狮子座终极完美分析
狮子座，一个博爱和充满阳光，能量的星座，其实狮子座的人很向往爱情，他所拥有的爱情有的时候不是真的爱情，或者只是一种向往或者是自己的梦想，说白了就是狮子座的人最爱的是自己，他要让自己发光发热，获得别人的爱和崇敬，在这其中，他能够体会到这种来自他人的关爱而感到愉悦，于是，他就爱上了别人。。。可是，狮子座的我们想想，仔细想想，你真的爱了吗？真的象你说的那样的爱吗？

究其根本，我们爱了，是因为我们爱自己，狮子座的人的自恋程度可以说是十二星座之首，他可以因为别人的崇拜的目光或者是弱势的态度而展现自己的爱和博大胸襟，但是，这不是纯粹的爱；

此外，狮子座的人很喜欢征服感，或者他不爱你，或者还不足够爱你，但是为了一份征服感，他或者会'爱'上你，以证明自己的非凡魅力，当然，狮子座的人很不愿意伤害别人，因为他的内心是善良和充满正义感的，他是重视原则的人，但是，如果他做了伤害别人的事情，即便出于面子他没有说什么，但是其实内心里他会真的好自责好内疚的，虽然别人看不到，但是他的确会好难过。

狮子座的人，无论男女，都很容易陷入一份感情，但是热情来的很快，冷却的速度也快得惊人，我不知道别人是不是这样，我是真的这样的。如果他可以对一份感情持续很长的时间，那么恭喜了，说明你真的很强势很有魅力，足以让他对你死心塌地，否则，狮子座这种内在没有安全感又很敏感的动物，很可能从更有魅力和新鲜的事物上找温暖，因为，狮子座的我们看起来好坚强好阳光好乐观，但是骨子里面的不安感从未消退过，表面的自信只不过是保护自己的盔甲，但并不是很真实。

同时，狮子座的人也可以很绝情，这点我认识所有的狮子座的人也包括我自己都很像，不可能吃回头草，字典里没有'后悔'或者'回头'这两个词，因为狮子座的人很爱面子，自尊心比什么都重要，一旦放弃了或者决定了，就不可能回过头去改变，狮子座的人也很怕被伤害。作为我，宁可错过一份感情，宁可放弃。宁可不要，也不会冒可能会被伤害的危险，因为太不值得，因为狮子座的人太爱自己了。。。

狮子座的人喜欢热闹，但是也很享受孤独，他可以把这两者之间搞得很平衡，他很喜欢跟朋友一起，疯狂的玩闹，成为一个party的主角，但是回到家里，他立马就可以变得异常安静，不喜欢被打扰，他需要自己的空间来思考，如果不给狮子这个空间，对他步步紧逼，那么他一定会抓狂，变得不可理喻，他还会离开你，因为在狮子的字典里，'自由'和'自我'这两词的比重几乎占据了全部。

还有，狮子座的人很喜欢新鲜的，华丽的，有质感的，昂贵的，有品位的东西，他也喜欢朴实，但是却不喜欢无聊和无趣，他害怕一成不变的枯燥，他害怕今天就能预见明天的可能性，他喜欢为止的新鲜有趣的事物，如果你恰好具备了这一点，那么你和狮子座的人很配合。

狮子座的人有两种不同的倾向，一种是很喜欢天然的东西，不喜欢过多的修饰；另一类是很喜欢奢华另类奇特的事物，更多是狮子座是两者兼有，我属于这一种，我讨厌过度无谓的修饰，但是欣赏另类特别和高雅的事物，对于爱人的选择上，可能也会结合这个标准。

狮子座的人很宽容，通常不会因为小事而斤斤计较，他们喜欢展现自己与众不同的仁慈心和获得尊重。对于过往的爱人，狮子座的人很少去探讨是谁的功过是非，无论当时对方有多伤害自己，但是过去了就过去了，狮子座的人不会去诅咒或者怨恨，因为他们喜欢向前看，他们不喜欢做八婆和有损自己高贵形象的事情。狮子座的人相信，只要自己完美和努力，幸福就在前方，更美好的一定在等待着我们！！

双鱼座终极完美分析
看过很多关于双鱼的各种传说，分析，解释。似乎无一例外的把双鱼当作了一个女人的星座，动不动就是流眼泪，唉声叹气。可惜可叹，如果双鱼真的只是这样的一个星座，那么可以说没有一个人愿意去做双鱼，而历史上也不会有什么著名的双鱼人物了。

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　　最本质的部分：思考
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　　双鱼座的最本质特点是什么？善良？懦弱？温柔？不是，我告诉你，是思考（在很多情况下，是过多的思考）。
　　是的，双鱼座的一切特性，都来自于他过多的思考，或许世上没有第二个星座比双鱼座更能洞察别人的心理，更能分析事情的本质。
　　你可以称之为敏感，但是一旦这种敏感能够正确的使用，那么没有人能比双鱼座更快的学会人情事故，在这一方面，有一个双鱼座的伟人做的尤其出色，他的名字是周恩来。
　　
　　因为思考的太多，所以双鱼座的人就算不是真正善良的，也至少是表面善良的。对于双鱼来说，善良与其说是本质，不如说是双鱼喜欢的一种生活方式，以善良的方式活着，是轻松而又受人尊敬的，一般的双鱼座很早就能洞察到这一点。
　　
　　再谈谈温柔，这一点，不管是哪篇文章，都不会忘了提双鱼座的温柔。是的，双鱼的确是温柔的。因为双鱼总能敏感的体会到对方的细微变化，时刻了解到对方心意的转变，表现在行动上，就是能尽快的知道，什么时候应该为女孩披上自己的外衣，什么时候应该停下手里的活，转过身去和女友好好的说话。
　　
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　　与众不同的部分：信仰
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　　双鱼的信仰就是没有信仰！
　　在双鱼的世界里面，没有绝对的对和错，如果发生了一件事，他第一件做的事情是去理解这件事，去分析这件事，而不是去判断这件事是对的还是错的。
　　下面引用一段话说明双鱼的这个特点：
　　'鱼座男人没有偏见，没有亲自穿著鹿皮走几哩路，他不会评断印地安人；没有试试赤脚走路，他也不会评断裸体主义者。甚至这些做了，他还是会满心谅解而不会过于批评。他很少冷酷的指控，倒是每每温暖的忍耐，他甚至会试试了解他的岳母，天底下有几个男人能这样？海王子拥有罕见的同情精神，他的朋友向他吐露秘密而从不担忧会把他吓著，要吓到鱼起码需要两吨以上的炸弹。如果你和我以及你的鱼儿三人同坐一室，一个男人走进来告诉我们他有些担忧，因为他重婚，在四个州各有一个老婆，你可能眼睛瞪得大大瞧他，冒著火，心想监狱是最适合他的地方，我可能鄙夷的说他是个卑鄙的流氓，但你的鱼儿很可能问：'那四州？你爱不爱她们其中任何一个？'鱼很好奇，但防震。对他来说，这个家伙需要一缸子同情以及好得要命的律师。'
　　
　　有一位伟人利用了这点特性，结果成就了科学史上的神话，他就是爱因斯坦。
　　
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　　双鱼的致命缺点：懦弱
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　　现实中的双鱼座确实给人太多的失望，懦弱，多疑，自卑，优柔寡断，没有主见.....一个双鱼座或许没有上面全部的特点，但至少会有一，二个。就算是伟大如周恩来，有时候难免有些优柔寡断和没有主见，当然，这种时候不多。
　　
　　造成双鱼座优柔寡断的原因很简单。因为同样一个选择，在一个射手看来，只需要考虑2样东西，但是在双鱼看来，却需要考虑10样东西，因为他想的实在是太多了。简单的说一句话，双鱼都会想到它会给周围的人带来多少种不同的影响，它会让人对自己有怎么样的看法，会不会造成误解。（虽然很多时候，双鱼会冲动的把一些话脱口而出）
　　
　　至于多疑，这点和自卑联系的比较紧密。虽然双鱼座能轻易的了解对方的意图，看透事情的真相，但是却往往不能坚持住自己的观点，这种不能坚持大多数是因为双鱼座自己不愿接受这个事实，也有很多时候是因为双鱼对自己不够自信。关于前一点，比较突出的一个例子是，双鱼座的女孩不到男孩子直截了当的告诉她，他不爱她了，女孩就总是还抱有一线希望，虽然女孩心里明白的很。

懦弱呢？关于这点，和信仰联系在一起。你一定觉得很奇怪，懦弱和信仰又有什么关系呢？
　　信仰是种很可怕的力量，他可以让一个人做出平时不敢做的事情，拥有不该拥有的勇气，牺牲不该牺牲的东西。而双鱼恰恰是没有一丁点信仰的，就算有，也不过是为了给生活加一点调味剂，或是给自己找一个避难所。对于双鱼来说，自己能过舒适，安稳的日子，比什么都重要。富贵如浮云，最想的开这点的就是双鱼座了。至于爱国什么的，酒饱饭足的双鱼可以慷慨激昂，也会不惜重金施于，但是只是建立在自己有好日子过的前提下。
　　接下来，可以解释下双鱼的懦弱了。
　　只要能让自己和爱人平平安安，有什么不可以忍受的呢？什么尊严，什么气节，见鬼去吧。所以只要不把双鱼逼到绝境，你尽可以嘲弄双鱼的懦弱。每条鱼的忍受范围都不同，但一般都比正常人多那么一点点。但是如果你不小心让一条鱼觉得无路可走了，那么你真的要小心了。鱼可以践踏人间一切法律，无视所有道理，更不会考虑自己的尊严和人格。你务必要相信这一点，虽然这种时候很少，但那只不过是因为上帝不想让人们经常看到地狱的惨状。
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　　双鱼的最大优点：感情
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　　与其说双鱼是个为爱情而活的星座，不如说双鱼是个为感情而活的星座。
　　对于双鱼来说，世界上最重要的东西是感情，一条精神上满足的鱼，可以没有其他东西，就已经是最幸福的人（当然，绝大多数情况下，没有其他东西，很难精神上满足）。
　　任何感情对于双鱼来说都是重要的，爱情很重要，但不见得会比亲情更重要，在双鱼的眼中。
　　
　　对于鱼来说，感情是单纯的，是单独的。鱼可以原谅对方的一切，只要那个人是真心对他好的。你可以十恶不赦，可以吃喝嫖赌，可以之前是人尽可夫的妓女，可以是个卑鄙无耻的骗子，都可以原谅，只要鱼能确定你是真心的喜欢他，对他好。但是请注意一点，大部分的鱼都比你聪明，不要以为你的小伎俩可以骗到鱼，你是不是真心喜欢他，他比谁都清楚。
　　
　　对于一个男孩子来说，双鱼女孩能给你对于一个女孩子想要的一切，温柔，爱你不顾一切，可爱（很多时候是装的，鱼大多数是很聪明的），体贴......
　　对于一个女孩子来说，双鱼男孩....嗯..... 看你的运气了，如果你遇到的鱼是个没有志气，不想做事，玩玩乐乐的鱼，而且他已经25岁左右了，那么好心的提醒你，还是尽早离开他吧。除非你是个富婆，或者你只是找个情人（没有人比双鱼更适合做情人了：安全快乐而无副作用）。否则，你会经历世间最凄凉的婚姻和生活，阿门................
　　
　　那么如果你遇到的鱼是有事业心，能上进，肯做事的鱼，或者干脆就是事业有成的鱼，那么真的是恭喜你，你是千万少女中最幸运的一个，再挑剔的女人也无法对一个有上进心有事业的鱼有更多的要求了。你可以得到世界上一切的温柔和快乐，包括用钱买的到的和用钱买不到的，鱼很乐意把他的一切奉献给他爱的人，看到他爱的人开心，他会更开心。大部分的鱼的'一切'仅仅只有感情，而没有物质，但是我们现在讨论的是最优秀的那种鱼，那种能随时把名望和财富送给你的鱼，现在你知道你有多幸运了吧。
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　　提到感情不得不提的：公平
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　　很奇怪吗？公平对于双鱼来说，是个很重要的单词。
　　双鱼没有普遍意义上的价值观，是非观，你不能用这件事这样做是对的，那样做是错的来说服一个双鱼座。永远记住，鱼的世界里很少有对错。
　　那么鱼又是怎么来处理他和别人（尤其是爱人的关系）呢？就是公平。
　　
　　如果鱼曾经有过十几，二十个女朋友，那么他就不会在意你以前有过多少个男朋友，如果鱼一个不小心跑出去玩了一夜情，那么你一夜情的时候，他也会选择无所谓
好吧，就算你的鱼纯情的一塌糊涂，你是他（她）的第一次，他也可以原谅你的曾经花心，一时花心，可能会的花心，只要你能用足够的关心和真心的喜欢弥补。鱼大致兑换了下你的关心（兑换比例只有天知道了，呵呵），如果觉得双方大致公平的（相对于他对于你的感情付出），那么他就无所谓，就会原谅你。
　　
　　所以和鱼相处是件很简单的事情，只要你能保证你给他的和他为你付出的差不多多，就可以了。至于伦理道德嘛...嗯，讲真的，鱼从来不是教条主义者。
　　
　　反过来，如果你让鱼觉得你对他的关心不够多，对他的爱不够多（不够多是指没有他给你的多），那么鱼会在痛苦之后，也相应的减少对你的关心和爱，不要怀疑，这方面，鱼比谁都表现的现实和斤斤计较。
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　　感情中的完美主义
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　　鱼在意的东西很少，所以很不幸，鱼对于他在意的东西就是完美主义者的态度。
　　
　　对于鱼来说，完美的情人不是忠贞不二的情人，不是事业爱情兼顾的情人，也不是外形完美的情人。鱼要求的是'完美的爱'。
　　
　　你可以不经常说我爱你，但是你说的时候，一定要是真心实意。
　　你可以很少陪他逛街，但是你陪的时候，一定要是真的开开心心。
　　你也可以对他说很少的情话，但是你要保证，你对别人说的情话更少，而且你对他说的是真心的话。
　　
　　对于鱼来说，欺骗和做作是最不可原谅的。很多人以为简简单单的对鱼说几句我爱你，固定性的发些短信问候鱼，经常为鱼买些好东西就能让鱼觉得被爱了。真不幸，大部分鱼都聪明过了头，一般都能轻松辨别那些举动是真心的，那些不过是手段（如果你曾经用这些手段征服过双鱼女生，也别得意，只不过是双鱼女生比男生更难以拒绝别人而已）。
　　
　　所以，请诚实一点对待鱼，爱他多少就给他多少，他也会给你同样多。这至少比他生你的气好的多，不是吗？
　　
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　　双鱼真的浪漫吗？
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　　所有的星座解释都会说双鱼是浪漫的，但是所有和双鱼（特别是双鱼男生，一般浪漫都是指男生做的事情）接触过的人，都往往感觉不到双鱼的浪漫，到底是为什么呢？难道双鱼并不浪漫？
　　
　　我给你个肯定的答案，双鱼绝对浪漫，他脑子里面的浪漫点子不仅包含了所有好莱坞大片的经典场景，还有更多他自己的原创镜头，他时不时的都在幻想浪漫的场面，一个鱼可能在他18的时候就开始想他30岁结婚的布置。
　　
　　那么为什么现实中是两样呢？因为2点，自卑和善良。
　　前一点很好理解，大部分的浪漫需要自信。很多时候，不是鱼不想浪漫，而是不好意思和没胆子那么做，你能理解是吧，呵呵。
　　
　　那么自信的鱼呢？为什么他也不浪漫？
　　因为他没有遇到合适的人，因为他善良。
　　
　　双鱼的爱情大部分是有些被动的。鱼总是轻易的喜欢上一个女孩子（注意，我用的单词是喜欢），然后开始和这个女孩开始交往，然后十有八九，会发现这个女孩不是能给自己完美的爱的女孩（这是肯定的，遇到最合适自己的人哪有那么容易），鱼很现实的知道，他和这个女孩不可能有将来的，2个人能拥有只能是一段回忆。那么对鱼来说，绝大部分的情话都会说不出口，因为鱼自己知道这些话都是骗人的，很多浪漫的举动做不出来，因为鱼不敢让女孩陷的太深，怕分手的那一天女孩太伤心。很多人说处女，金牛的人想的多，其实鱼想的并不比他们少，只不过犹犹豫豫又舍不得的鱼，就算明了的知道和女孩没有将来，也不会点破，只会静静的维持，享受拥有的每一天。但是这样的情况下，鱼的善良就让鱼忍住了很多浪漫的情话和行动。
　　
　　我这么说是不是显的鱼很高尚？呵呵，没有什么真正高尚的人。鱼能如此的为女孩着想，是因为这么做能让鱼觉得自己很伟大，有一种悲剧式的美感，鱼愿意让自己沉浸在这种自我的意淫中。
　　
　　当然，这样至少比不顾别人的死活，只图自己开心要好的多是不是？所以还是应该为鱼们鼓鼓掌的。
　　
　　所以，如果有一天，你看到一条浪漫无比的鱼，不要怀疑，他已经认定你们有个美好的未来，他已经知道他不会给你太多的伤心了，那你还犹豫什么？上去拥抱你的幸福吧。
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　　结语：什么样是好的双鱼？
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　　双鱼有很多缺点，但是大多数都可以原谅。除了2条，懒惰和犹豫。
　　
　　而双鱼要成为一条好鱼，所需要的东西很简单，事业。
　　
　　其实不用去提醒鱼们其他的事情了，他们自己都能想明白。只需能保证鱼能稳步进行他们的事业就可以了。
　　
　　一旦鱼用心去赚钱了，那么他肯定能赚到钱。但是这一点很难，真的很难，如果有一天，你看到一条生龙活虎的鱼，千万不要放过，好好的捆住他，很有可能，他会带给你所有的梦想.

双子座终极完美分析
有很多的朋友，可是'看起来朋友很多，可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话，他跟别人可以天南地北的聊，可以聊得很八卦，也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西，可是注意了，他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么，可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如，今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了；隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事，他几乎是不说的，就算是说，也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子，他会很自然的把话题给扯开。

对于自信的双子来说，他又同时很没有安全感，这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住，不让自己暴露。对于双子来说，如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了，就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时，只会一个人躲在房间里哭，或者一个人郁闷着。

双子也很怕被伤害，很多时候宁愿自己承受一切，也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力，很快乐的样子，可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的，他怕被伤害，也怕被别人抛弃，只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质，精神脆弱，容易人格分裂，因为承受了太多的东西.
一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命，可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己，上面说了，这只是一种习惯了，可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。

双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心，真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多，累了，也没耐心了。可是说起双子，就不得不提感情，双子这一生，似乎必须被感情牵伴，跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心，只是博爱，所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话：双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想，却只有一个人的身体，双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利，也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务，双子只剩下一个时，爱也就只剩下义务了。
我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结：花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座，如果可以不发生冲突，都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架，他讨厌吵架，如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架，那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了；

要双子真的跟你翻脸，除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受，这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼，然后头也不回地走掉，甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了，就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友，但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点，只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实，很大一部分双子，对待感情是非常专一的，之所以给人留下花心的美名，是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情，不是双子铁石心肠，而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁，一些潜在的不自信，只是双子隐藏的深入，可是一旦让双子动了真感情，那么恭喜你了，双子的天真，率直，外加表达能力丰富，一定能让你获得很多快乐。

每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里，多数是不堪回首的往事，双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座，他（她）的这个故事通常都是因情所困，动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的，也是坚强的，他（她）可以很快的振作起来，可以当什么事都没有发生，这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了，等到夜深人静的时候，双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身，他（她）可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴，可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中，可以一整夜坐在那里发呆，但是，一旦天亮了，要出去见人了，双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走，你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子，这就是双子，拥有双重性格的双子，一个在世人面前乐天，快乐，在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。

双子的爱是最永恒的，可以付出一切，有人说我们花心，那时我们没有真正的爱，当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的，因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人，那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了，当爱给过了一个人，他再也没有能力再付出了，其实太多的人都不懂我们，其实连我们自己都不懂自己，我们很会伪装，很会说谎，但我们最细腻，对感情最敏感，双子的爱与悲伤，谁又真的了解！

水瓶座终极完美分析
几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。
那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。
一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。
没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。
水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。
用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。
但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。
更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。
在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。
显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。
一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。
在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。
这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。
水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。
水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。
算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。
但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。
这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。
这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。
天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。
自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。
水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。
感情投入的越多越是伤的重。
最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。
爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。
所以，不轻易说。
只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。
只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。
之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。
人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说'哪有？冤啊！'。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己'我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！'
有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。
因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。
当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。
只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。
星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。
水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生

天秤座终极完美分析
优雅的天平在灯红酒绿中微笑转身，顾盼神采，洒脱如同水中的鱼。他们与红酒，水晶杯，晚礼服，钢琴曲是那么的相得益彰，漫不经意的吸引着公众的眼光……
几乎所有人都有这样一种印象：
天平座的人善意、可亲，爱交朋友。于是大家也由此认为天平是群居生物，必然是害怕独处，喜欢热闹的。
但，事实并不是表面看来那样简单。
的确，天平是个和平使者。在公众场合可以很好地调节气氛使之均衡。气氛热烈时，他们会沉静的压住阵脚；气氛冷凝时，他们会运用不着痕迹的轻松幽默化解坚冰。总之他们不会随波逐流去助长气氛的冷热，而是像用天平称量物品一样，加减砝码，使之维持水平状态。
而他们在做这种加减的时候，动作是优雅的，态度是和悦的，看起来漫不经心不动声色。实际上，他们是很有心计的人，尽管众口难调，也可以找到一种万全的方式来使全局和谐起来。
但是这并不是说他们喜欢主宰，只是因为他们看不得失衡，那会使他们如坐针毡。
因此，尽管慵懒的天平座讨厌麻烦，讨厌得要命，他们还是会不由自主地担负起调节的责任。也许正因如此，使得天平在公众场合从未放松过自己。性格使他们承担了不必要的责任，无可推卸。
他们不吝惜金钱，却吝惜自由的时间和安静的休闲时光。像所有风向星座一样，他们喜欢自由，喜欢像风一样谁也捉不住他。
他们喜欢自在独立的空间。就算你是他最好的朋友，也不要老和他粘在一起，你要知道他并不喜欢如此，尽管他不会直接说出来。你也得相信，你的天平座朋友也许半年也没有音信，但是只要一见面，你还是他最好的朋友。因为他就是这种交友方式，你拿他怎么办？
'我懒得……'
这是天平座的口头语。他们懒得出门，懒得聚会，懒得应酬……所以他们并不是很喜欢参加party。倒是宁愿呆在家里上网，看书，画画。他们自身是均衡的，一个人的均衡总比一群人的均衡来的容易。所以他们喜欢独处。
通常，天平座的人会给人一见如故的感觉，因为他们有着温婉的微笑和优雅的举止。对初次见面的人，天平座往往表现出自己最讨人喜欢的一面：善解人意，大方，诚恳，健谈。但是这种热情劲儿不会长久。冷漠何时到来取决于你与他交往的频率。你越是粘得紧，他就冷得越快。因为他们喜欢'君子之交清淡如水'。不是他们不喜欢同伴，而是他们和人交往更多地关注了对方的情绪，总想着照顾对方心情，不要发生冲突，所以感觉像是在工作一样，无法真正的放松。
较之对宫白羊座，天平是另一种独立的个体。白羊是一种外在的独立，内心是热的；天平则是表面看似亲和力很强，内心却是任谁也无法融入的。天平的冷静，连他们自己也觉得惊讶。'我居然如此冷漠！太不可思议了……'他们审视自己的时候，感觉有点陌生。那是因为他们把内心世界掩饰得连自己都骗过了。
他们控制情绪的能力太强了。最亲近的人会感觉到，天平给人不露声色的隔离感，有时会被埋怨'太冷静了，我都不知道你在想什么！'
可是他们不是故意要隐瞒什么，只是出于本能。一个连自己都骗过了的人，你还能要求他对你坦白什么？
他们不喜欢歇斯底里，不喜欢痛哭失声，不喜欢安慰别人也不怎么喜欢被安慰。因为他们懂得，谁也无法真正理解另一个人。
天平，其实是很独立的一个星座。他们在霓虹灯影里微笑，在灯火阑珊处寂寞。他们叫你懂得：孤独的最高境界是繁华。

天蝎座终极完美分析
天蝎，生于秋深。性喜静，意清幽。爱之切，怨亦深。本质轻名利，但拥有成名得利的天赋。

　　偏重灵与肉的完美结合。直觉力之准之锐，行动力之潇洒之特,常令徒有虚表之人忌愤不已。天蝎，一个别具一格的星座。格调分明有别常人，心胸高妙不露于表。常容人难容之事，亦笑人可笑之处。

　　对于朋友，重质不重量，高度要求知心。宁可孤独，也不违心。对于爱情，宁缺毋滥。宁可抱憾终生，也不苟且凑合。风流不羁的言行下，执着追求一种宗教意识的爱情信仰。内心具有高度责任性，忠诚性，自律性以及矛盾性。浪漫儒雅，风趣超脱。拥有奇异诱人的容貌气质。根本上，提倡由爱生性的性爱模式，鄙视纯粹的兽性性行为，但，自己却又常在意志薄弱时，自虐般地沉溺其间。

　　天蝎大多恩怨分明，黑白绝不混肴。犹如包公，宁可得罪众官，也要奖惩公道。多思少言的特质，齐全透彻的智慧，使一切真相假面恐慌不已。因此，本质静默孤僻的天蝎们极易招惹他人的非难和灌上莫须有的罪名。而其强硬又柔弱的本质，常使其背负黑锅也不辩护，不低头。典型的'独当千古错，冷漠自逍遥'的天蝎风格。只有在忍无可忍时，天蝎才会真正采取报复行为。可也因其很多时候过于忍辱负重，好比老实人发火，报复也就更显突兀强劲，反令圆滑的小人真正的祸首们恼羞成怒，借机大肆渲染。由于天蝎有隐忍为善的一面，更有别致的独特气质，从而也导致了天蝎倍受他人嫉妒却常被反咬一口的现象出现。也因为典型的天蝎,并不擅长疏通改善人际关系，更不善于有效地表达澄清自己，从而成为了十二星座里最具争议的一个星座。

　　天蝎们拥有天赋般灵性的思维，结合现实的洞察，产生了异于常人的思索角度。爱情观，友情观，人生观，皆如此。由于意识超常，天蝎们总是：苦于红尘无知音，不如隐形爱孤独。天蝎的确就是这样极端：不是最另类的现代人，就是最另类的原始人。

　　人们研究天蝎的误区在于没有能力到达天蝎的心理根本。

　　其实，天蝎们一生都在寻求知心的朋友，同时他们也容忍对手的存在，但，并非制造敌人。要知道，天蝎本性不好战，但具备战斗的智慧和能量。请注意：这是关键。所以你可以成为天蝎的对手和朋友，但，不要把天蝎当敌人。因为，天蝎从不主动侵犯他人的利益。你也不要做些低层次的敌对事情，那只能显得你自己无聊挫败。比如：如果你煽动众人，想用流言蜚谣打击算计，甚至孤立天蝎，那么不久你就会发现天蝎依旧活得很洒脱，很独特。因为，他们本来没有把你当敌人，某种意义上，是你自己'自作多情'，以小人之心度君子之腹了。而这种俗不可耐的敌对伎俩，对于天蝎们来说，无疑是一堆可笑差劲的破招。天蝎生性渴望理解,却不奢求理解，安于孤独，更能乐于孤独。天蝎的优势在于，对于别有用心的人，能够一眼看穿，并完全做到视若无睹。也许，当你自鸣得意时，天蝎想的正是不和这头牲口一般见识！看，天蝎就是这样的心态，清高地忍让，忧郁地承受，却，酷得干脆利落，宛如一位高超的剑手，不是不过招，只是你非对手。为什么你非对手，因为你已经把自己立意为敌人。对于敌人，不用过招。兴趣无时不屑一顾。兴趣来时，一剑定胜负。这种彻骨的冷静和孤高，也正是天蝎人虽不招惹别人，却还是招致阴险有毒的恶名的根本。而，也只有天蝎自己知道，真正恶毒的其实是你！但是，一切也都没有用，要知道，能够忍受孤独的人，也就是最无所畏惧的人了。这也就是天蝎为什么可以在铺天盖地的恶名谣传里，依旧活出自己风格的原因。某个角度来说，才思横溢的天蝎人，正是从别人不切实际的攻击诽谤里，看到了自己与众不同的价值。因为，没有人会化很大的心血很多的精力，对一个平庸无常的人做太多的关注。显然，天蝎是别具一格的。
我本善良，我本真实，这样的句子，用在天蝎身上是最恰当不过了。每只天蝎似乎从出生那天起，就注定要为自己的独特而历经许多风波。对于人性，天蝎从来看得比所有人透彻。

　　可以说他们极端，但是，他们无法不真实地活出自己。也许，只有'曲高合寡'这四个字，才是孤独奇特的天蝎们最好的诠释。

　　天蝎。星象书上说，诞生在深秋的蝎子是最复杂的。同意这句话。因为蝎子可以根据需要在具体环境把自己塑造成适合的角色，是个善于戴着面具生活的人。但内心本我的强大力量又让他们在某个时刻不由自主地显现出其蝎子冷酷阴郁的一面。几乎没有任何一个蝎子座的人可以逃避这点。因为，本质的东西，深植于骨髓，扎根于灵魂。

　　这里，我希望通过自己的一点薄见，和大家一起认识这最复杂的蝎子。

　　情感强烈是蝎子座的人最普遍的特点。我至今没有发现感情因子欠乏的蝎子。他们有着异常炽热的感情，但大多藏得较深，平时看来是个比较和气的人，一般不爆发，爆发时绝对是喷涌而出的，有着强大的震慑力。

　　能促使蝎子爆发深藏的感情的事情其实并不多。我总结了三种情况。

　　一是欺骗，这种欺骗也许不是很大，也许发生在很好的朋友甚至亲友之间，也许只是一桩小事，但蝎子看来，重要的不是欺骗造成了什么损失，而是欺骗这种行为本身，他认为这是强烈的不信任感，是对他的不尊重。一个小小的欺骗在蝎子的心中会激荡起巨大的不快，天性阴冷的蝎子习惯将它放大来看，也可以说这种与他们处事风格准则背道而弛的行为是他们轻蔑并排斥的。用欺骗伤害蝎子产生的裂痕一般是不容易消除的。当事人在蝎子心中的地位可以说马上会大幅下降。经观察，没有哪个星座的人象蝎子这样如此深地看重信任和尊重这两个词，他们一般对此都很敏感。敏感得容下不在他许可的小小范围内出现一粒沙。越是亲密关系间的欺骗对蝎子的伤害就越大。因为他们对朋友往往交出真心，而这种付出偿来的若是欺骗和背叛的话，蝎子的心会冷到极点。

　　二是侮辱。敏感的蝎子其实并不那么开得起玩笑，当然他们能敏锐地分辨出你话里的真实含义，善意的玩笑他们还是不会拒绝的。但带刺的话他们绝对能马上听出，他能感受到你语气中的真实的感情成分。很自我的蝎子绝对不容忍别人侮辱他贬低他。也许一件事情让他糟糕，让他吃亏很大，但如果需要的话他能压抑住自己的情绪，装作若无其事。惟独侮辱不可以，你可以感受到蝎子那一刻表情越发阴冷，牙关紧闭。那是他在积蕴力量，你能感受得到他强压怒火的眼神，开始起伏的胸膛，只需要一个小小突破口，巨大的能量就要喷薄而出。这个时候，了解他们的人还是赶紧收口吧，否则谁都不知道会发生什么可怕的事情。我自己就经历过多次这样的情景，从来都是是猛烈的瞬间爆发，不明白的人奇怪怎么突然发这么大脾气，其实真实情况是，他忍着气已经很久很久了，只是你硬逼他爆发的。

　　三是为了他认为重要的人。蝎子是活得孤独的人，他们自己都会发现，自己和许多人是格格不入的，他满脸的笑容很多时候都不是发自内心的，只是为了场合的需要，真正谈得来并懂得他们的朋友一般很少很少。生命中他重视的人他一定会倾力保护，蝎子为了保护那个人时，显现出的感情是强大的。这个人最大的可能就是曾在蝎子需要时给过真正理解温暖关爱的人。哪怕是一点点。象会记恨一样，蝎子对那些对他真心好的人绝对是记在心上的，没有太多的表面的东西，关键的时候，真正肯为你牺牲的那个朋友，肯定是他。对他最爱的那个人而言，蝎子有可能的话甚至肯为她去死。如果他心中的那个她被别人伤害的话，蝎子会有剜心的痛，这个时候，他可能会暴露出最阴暗的一面，如果要把报复和蝎子联系起来的话，那么这种情况当属第一。蝎子这时候可能会在巨痛的驱使下，用最黑暗的力量为她去复仇去摧毁敌人。在我看来，蝎子最最强烈感情表现出来的时候，应该就是他为了保护她的时候。水象之王的蝎子外表看来往往不那么强硬，甚至有点软弱，这是很多人对他们的印象，但了解他们的内心的人就会发现，他们是讨厌被指使的人。可以说，蝎子是吃软不吃硬的，平等对他的话，他便是个性子很好的人，要是想压制他，蝎子内心马上会排斥，并且潜意识里他们是很厌恶习惯对他们指手画脚的人的。他们心中多数是不服，但不会明显表现出来，也许暂时地顺着对方，背后则默默积累力量，也许干脆用冷漠直接表示拒绝和厌恶。蝎子确实是喜欢掌控别人的人，但不象火象的狮子那种气焰上统领一切的感觉，蝎子能用一种独特的暗藏的力量影响人，因为他有着洞穿别人内心的敏锐力和坚定沉静的气质。如果蝎子具备一些火象性格的话，则会是个让人感觉非常凌厉的人，冷静的外表下说起话做起事来霸气十足。蝎子如果学着性格张扬一点的话，会马上显现出强大的领导力。蝎子对自己的爱人也有着强烈的掌控欲，只有当那个她只对他一个人好的时候，他才感觉安心，他希望她能常陪在他身边，希望她能经常依靠他，所以小鸟依人般的温柔甜蜜的女孩子最能激起蝎子爱的感觉。这就解释了为什么他和水象的鱼儿和巨蟹很和得来的原因。
蝎子比较喜欢不带表情的说话做事，可以说，蝎子很难学会用表情表达他们丰富的内心世界，他们是不善于利用表情的人。蝎子本质是不爱笑的，尤其不习惯在一大堆人之间肆无忌惮地笑，蝎子习惯浅浅地一笑，让他们在众人面前表情夸张地保持10秒钟我相信是件困难的事情。

　　他们确实常给人缺乏亲和力的印象，哪怕是他已经认识到了这点并试着去改变了，结果还是会发现，一不留神，他和人的距离感又莫名地产生了。可以说蝎子的笑保留着人类某种原始的东西，蝎子笑起来会带着丝羞涩，特别是在人多或异性面前。看起来非常孩子气，让人感觉纯真，显得乖巧。但蝎子多笑真的比较重要，蝎子笑起来纯朴真诚的样子可以很好地打消他们在别人心中不好的印象。蝎子可以多对着镜子练习练习。敏感的蝎子有时会莫名地收住笑容，这会给别人不好的印象，他们会纳闷并猜想你突然沉下脸的原因，很多时候，蝎子和人的隔阂就是这么产生的。

　　在蝎子的生命中总有一种向往孤独的特质。

　　他们即使在受不了凄寂的同时，又渴望得到只有在孤独时才能享受到的自我极致发挥和无丝毫保留的面对现实。

　　所以，孤独的蝎子是矛盾的。

　　孤独中他们的心灵像眼睛，诚实敏锐得揉不进一粒尘沙。

　　所以，孤独的蝎子更能洞悉谎言与人心。他们只有在孑然一身的时候，才有机会登上精神的高峰，望得远，看得清，障碍尽除，思维如月光染雪，剔透通明，理智与感情皆回归到最纯净的状态，能清楚的照亮自己。

　　所以，孤独的蝎子睿智。

　　当蝎子被身边的孤独包围的时候，他们的内心却是在释放。他们的身体和灵魂变成了过滤器，吸取着潮湿冰冷的空气，渗透出清澈甘甜的水滴，那就是他们的思想。思想无限流动，不受空间和时间的限制，抵达所有相通的灵魂。

　　所以，当到达你的灵魂时，请你好好珍惜。

　　当你看到陌生人面前孤僻而冷淡的蝎子时，请你见谅，因为即兴发挥不是蝎子的强项，蝎子一向预热很慢，感情需要很大的安全感才能活泼的施展。

　　所以，当你想要了解那些外表形单影只，独来独往的蝎子时，请细心的感受他们内在活动的勃放如春。

　　对于天蝎座的激情别人已经写得够多的了，以致再写就显得有点多余了。其实那些描述严格地来说，也不完全正确。天蝎座的人确实拥有过量的激情。但是这些热情不一定是用一种显而易见的方式来表达的。对于天蝎座的人来说，性是一种表达的途径，它是一种达到秩序的方法，而不仅仅是肉体上激情的释放。

　　天蝎座对性和爱的渴望，通常与它们能提供的转变有关。他们喜欢把性与爱称作自己所喜欢的名字：一次神秘的经历、一次深层次的体会。性与爱让天蝎座向比他们自己更强大的事物投降。天蝎座的伴侣有一种巨大的容忍力，他们为了爱情和忠贞可以牺牲一切。他们甚至可以做出巨大的自我牺牲。在他们身上有一点狂热，这会渗透到他们与别人建立的关系中，并且影响他们的精神和态度。

More thots ....

2008-12-03T22:09:00.002+08:00

Was reading some blog online and suddenly had a thot ....

Qns : So when do u know when your over no long love you ?

Ans : When he/she dun even bother to lie to you for things he/she did that he/she knows that it mightof cos becos he/she makes you sad or makes the whole relationship sour.

Just my thots cos why would someone lie in a case like that ? cos he/she loves you , though did something wrong but he/she really loves you then bother to lie ... of cos i m not saying this is correct but .. @ least for now .. that is how i feel ... Guess I m just emo ....Someone love me please ? ha ha give me the power to love again ? to live again ... to stand on my feet again ???

I dun even know what i wans now ....

Another animals story after 8 years

2008-11-28T23:12:00.000+08:00

Kola was online and someone named Tiger pvt chat him, they had a chat.. and one line quoted from Tiger was “ We chatted b4 but think you ignored me last time”. This was what caught Kola’s attention; well curiosity always kills not only cat but KolaXiong as well. They chatted and decided to meet up on day near Kola’s workplace during lunch.
First date, Kola had to meet some frenz @ a pub and can only meet Tiger after that for Harry Potter. After time spent with frenz, Kola went to meet Tiger in the east for midnite show. After show they decided to take a walk @ the beach.
---This was all 7 years ago, details might not be accurate but more or less is like that.---

Times past … both had thot that they will be together forever, and spent the life with. Kola always thot to himself n tell his fren … Kola will neber break up with Tiger unless Tiger wans it. Cos emotionally Kola is very much attached to Tiger and being over confident Kola thinking he is cute, Tiger will neber leave him and will always forgive him no matter what Kola do. Kola being the super duper “lomantic” one always do little things to make Tiger happy, on the other hand, Tiger being the more logical one is abit wooden, which Tiger always admit n claimed. But Tiger neber realized that those things done for Kola is oreadi very “lomantic” to this 2pid bear. Like buying him a whole set of comics AND wrapping it up (Tiger’s own books were not wrapped usually) and cards for Birthdays, Valentine’s and Anniversary. But all these stop after a few years, Things gets into that comfort + stagment zone … Tiger being the more logical one, starts to gets Kola more n more practical prezzie. Kola liked those of cos but would have very much prefer it to be like last time … a tiny cards with sweet wording and stuffs. Fault is no alone … Kola, being the playful one; always hands out and played with other animals in the Jungle. This causes Tiger to be unhappy and soon no longer trust Kola. Quarrels after quarrels, still they tried to be together BUT one final day … Tiger can no longer feel the love from Kola and can no longer trust him. Tiger decided to call it quit. Kola finally realized that Tiger no longer the same … no the same tiger that would love him and care for him, It comes as a shock cos being the over-confident Kola, he always thot Tiger would be with him to the very ends.

Days pass … and weeks passed, Tiger had left the Jungle, and Kola being the emotional one sits on the beach and waiting n waiting …. Dunno how long he will waits, but times will tell … maybe one fine day, Tiger will comes back to the Jungle and love Kola again but then … maybe that day will neber comes and Kola will just give up and moved on …. Time will tell and heal all wounds and Kola believed one day, he will move one … either together with Tiger, or alone … or who knows someone else will comes along and pick Kola up…. But Kola thinks to himself … Maybe there are some people in this world that is just not meant to be BF material and Kola is one of them, Kola neber fails to hurt all those who loved him, this is the 2nd story I written … the first one was 8 years ago …. This means Tiger is not the first who had been hurt by the 2pid bear – KolaXiong.

I am such a loser ?

2008-11-28T22:22:00.003+08:00

Ppl always say , when one door close , another open .... but seems ALL doors are close to me ... but then every1 keep saying ... Everything happens for a reason ... I dunno ... Seems when you are down ... all things just follow ....

No matter how hard I try ... today is still very unbearable ... almost wanted to cry @ work ... but controlled it ... Reasons as to Y so emo ? cos was labeling the cakes we baked today ... so many of them and ALL I have to write down the dates .... and BINGO it's 28/11/08 .... why must it be this day ? I just so hated it but still I had to labeled it .... DO I HAVE A CHOICE ? NO is the ans ... Then have to do retail as well .. though feeling so bad inside I still had to smile @ customers ... I just feel like going home but yet I can't. Was quite a busy day @ work today answering alot of calls and walk-ins. And to think that is the worst ... it's not .... I dunno how true is it but someone told me that my boss say i cfm staying there to work AND he is very sure I cannot fins a job outside ... Am I really that bad ? If I am then why you bother to take me ?

Had some unhappiness with my mum these 2 days .. .my mood had not been good and there she is nagging @ all the wrong things ... Suddenly I just realized that not only I lost my love but I also lost the one person who is always so supportive of what I do. Support me to do what I want , give me both +ve and -ve advices on my creation ( cakes n desserts) AND always believe in me as to I can archive more. How often you find that someone who really supportive in things you do ? and believe in you when no one else did ? Praise you when you are good n pull u down when you are not ? Even my family members dun do that to me .... I suddenly feel so lost ... my support pillar is no longer there ... how long can I survive ?

Health is catching up on me also ... think old liao ... been coughing after 7pm nowdays and everytime just feel like puking ... yet nothing comes out.Didn't eat as much nowdays also , dun really drink that much sodas nowdays also ... been trying to cut... Maybe it's good to take this time to cut some weight.

I longed for someone to love now , but yet I am no seeking , cos I always believed that you have to close one book b4 you open another.... My chapter with you is over but the book is not yet closed ... @ least not for me. As I told you , I still hope for a MIRACLE but then I dunno how long my faith will be. Decided to shut myself off all ways of meeting new ppl , always felt to look for love , you might as well wait for love to come to u. @ least you won't be that sad if you find nothing cos u neber try in the first place ... rather then you try n try then cannot find ... you be more sad...

LOVE .... when ppl in love , they always promised things like " I would love you FOREVER " But when love is no longer there .. will there still be a FOREVER ? but then we are all humans ... we still will say things like that or wants to hear things like that. LOSER ( of cos lar ... if you tell your love one " I love you but not forever cos I dun wan one day we no longer together then you blame me" ... how will your love one feel ? bad , sad , angry ... rite ? We are all just humans ... with feeling n ... big time loser :) So maybe I m not alone :P

It's all finally over ....

2008-11-27T21:47:00.002+08:00

This time it's really over .... finally it all end .... I will pack myself up ... all my emotion and move on ... no matter how long it'll takes .... I also dunno how many 7 years I'll have .... sigh .... Happiness is always not equal to forever to me :) I 'm just jinx !

東主有事，休息一星期

2008-11-22T23:21:00.002+08:00

Will be busy these 2 days and ... something still on my mind ... so will currently stop for a week till I am more cool down. Hugz

I decided to give up ....

2008-11-20T20:03:00.004+08:00

Know this is tough choice but I decided to give up waiting and hoping. Heart is aching every now and then and if to hold on waiting ... I be more painful and think it will get worst .... I dun think I can endure much longer this way. I choose the short n sharp pain way ... give up myself ... @ least I know pain is there but it be better then to have to endure this longer .... the faster I give up ... the faster the wound will heal. Letting go doesn't means I dun love you anymore .... in fact it might actually means I love you even more , and standing by my thots ... Loving someone is not about possessing someone but rather wanting that someone happy. Since u might have made the choice or not ... to make it much easier for you ... I make the choice for you. Letting you go and be happy ... is the least I can do for you. Maybe you dunno ... tears really dried up .... Thinking of you just make my heart more aching ... so letting you go might be the right choice .... @ least for now. I be ok .... I will stand where I fall ... worst I still can rely on my friends ... But I want to do this alone. I really wish you find al the love you can with ur new love and try to be a friend to you. Thanks for being there and taking care of me all these while, must have been hard on you but now you are free ..... Good Luck.

PS : to me , if you love me , you dun need so long to think , if u dun love me , think so much also no use. I prefer 要愛就愛，敢愛敢恨。

PS 2 : 我好想給你最後一個擁抱

Can someone answer me ?

2008-11-19T10:43:00.002+08:00

Been thinking this question .. if someone out there reading this have an answer for me ... pls leave me a comment ...

Had been crying bit here n there ... until recently ... realized there is like no more tears but i felt my heart is aching alot ...it's not pain ... dunno is it mentally ... but I feel the ache there on n off @ times. The theory behind no more tears is becos I no longer sad ? or I m still sad ? I really dunno. Suddenly felt lighter and realize that lost those few kgs that i put on last few mths ... maybe it's good thing also ....

Suddenly this song was on my mind ....新不了情
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱你的人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了
心若倦了泪也干了
这份深情难舍难了
曾经拥有天荒地老
已不见你暮暮与朝朝
这一份情永远难了
原来时还能再度拥抱
爱你的人如何死守到老
怎样面对一切我不知道
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了
回忆过去痛苦的相思忘不了
为何你还来拨动我心跳
爱你怎么能了今夜的你应该明了
愿难了情难了

I cannot control......我愛你

2008-11-18T22:40:00.004+08:00

Drunked last nite ... lucky no hangover this morning .... cried to bed as per past few days ... happen to chat with a good fren last nite , analysis about the problem .... and ask me to give up. If not then dun pissed the other party off ...

Wake up early in the morning ... decided to write a letter ... hand written letter .. dunno why but just thot just let it be known how i felt ... dun think it will help anything but just feel like doing so .... - 2pid me again. Acutally decided not even to SMS but 5 min ago ... cannot control ... SMSed again. Whole day i rvc anything ... maybe i really dun mean a thing @ all.

Heart is aching ... very painful .... but there's nothing i can do ... anymore .... I just have to endure ..... n maybe letting go is good for both of us ... maybe that is the only choice i had .... not i wan but am forced to take ....

Wat will happen in a mths time ?

2008-11-17T00:57:00.002+08:00

Had a chat ... you say you wan a cool off period ... saying that you might reconsider the decision you neber regret making . To me ... maybe it just a time for you to let me get use to u as a fren cos since you had oreadi commited to the other party ... i really dunno ..... I wanted to believe you but yet I m scare ... what can i do or not do to within this mth ? Am I supposed not to do anything ? Will I overdo things ? You said you will not see him for this mth too ... can you control ? is that really true ? I am very scare that this is just but a false hope ... But I will wan to try ... try to trust you all over again ... I'll try BUT again ... in 2 weeks it's our anni ( ok supposed to 7th yrs ) so how should I react ? should I just act blurz and try to celebrate with u ? or should I not do anything ? I really dunno. Can someone teach me what I should do and not do ? wat will u do if u're in my shoe ? facing a stiuation like this ? I really dunno ...... I am so lost now .... OR maybe i should take that as a sign on which side you are at ? If you date me out ... chances ++ if you act blur or appear to be busy ... then chances-- ? How will i know ur choices also ....

It's all over

2008-11-16T00:02:00.003+08:00

Time's up ... just as I had expected this is the ending I'm getting ... Time to move on ... Since you have made the final decision. Dunno how long I will take to recover but then it'll neber be your concern anymore. Thanks and goodbye 4ever.

Single again ....

2008-11-15T11:11:00.006+08:00

14th Nov ... 14 days to 7yrs together ... you drop the bomb .... calling it quits .... SAD but what else can I do ? Decision had been made and I respect your wish and I wish you all the best for whoever came along and hope he be a better partner then I am.

Seriously I dun hate you nor blame you , fault is mine for not being able to give u the trust you wanted. I am just sad cos we spent abt 1/5 of my life so far ... 1/5 = 6yrs+ ... that is a long time .... And instead of talking it out or giving us another chance you decided to give others the chance. Well assuming knowing you ... the other party must be really able to give u the happiness in such short time. Well i guess time is not the main issue here , Love .. once gone means gone.

I will try to be strong but then i really dunno cos it is always when you finally lose someone then you regrets , I guess I am just a normal human too.

Thanks for the time spent together be it happy or sad .... always thot that we will be 天長地久 but now it becomes 丞經擁有. Maybe you be happier without me in your life , hugz.

8.30 pm now .... 3.5hrs more to the deadline ... Though i know very sure that you will never make it back to see me , but i guess it will be better for me to accept it once and for all , call me 2pid ... call me childish or even drama ... but I guess I just can't accept it and running from it ... but fact will be fact .... so sorry but I decided to go for the hard way. Lying on the bed that we slept together b4 ... makes me realized that you be gone forever ...對不起,我愛你。

I should be happy ....

2008-11-10T23:11:00.003+08:00

Will be getting busy soon cos supposed to be in charge of getting the front retail store running with new menu and desserts. 4 of us have to give a detail plan of everything and get it up and running by next week. Well I should be happy cos I will get the chance to to launch my own range of plated desserts .... ya MY OWN !!! but then again, I dun think I am really up to it yet ! But this will be a good chance for me to prove myself to MYSELF !!! So .... I am taking the Challenge !!! *cross finger* So look out for my new creation :) must come support ok when launch !!!!! hee hee.

Oh... another good thing is ..... my junior read online of a posting from a customer here This is the cake that I design recently , though I thot it looked very the cartoon and not very well done cos my skill is still not there yet ... But I feel great cos the customer liked my idea of the opened door :) I did wasted quite some time on the house deco but I think this is all worth it !!!

To stay or to move on ... ... ...

2008-11-03T22:33:00.003+08:00

A nice pic from last KL trip.

As per my last post ... this is turning into my 5th and final term. Thus staying with my currently attachment site or moving on to another is a question that i need to ask myself. My boss had tok to me 2 times oreadi and both times I m not able to give him an confirmed answer. The thing is , if possible , if can get a job elsewhere with more exposure, I will move on but with everyone saying that market is bad … makes me wonder if there is any jobs out there for me. To me , if you are asking me to stay or not , @ least throw me an offer and not just ask me to make a decision based on blank paper.

Just today my chef talked to me … about same issue again , still I gave her the same answer , cos I really cannot commit , she‘s like hinting that if I decided not to commit , chances of me learning more things will be limited and she will also not delegate more things to me. I feel bad n sad , Bad – cos my chef did consider me as the more reliable one ( maybe there’s no one else ? )

Maybe I think too much …. Sigh … just that a lot of things crop up … 1 ) the above mentioned, 2 ) going to face the music tomorrow in school for my MCs @ work , 3) Japanese exam coming up and I cfm fail one 4 ) no $ cos Boss neber come to work today so I no pay and lunch $ 5) My army med status _ IPPT … die … A lot more to write but dunno how to continue …. Till then bah …

Some updates on cakes i did :)

2008-10-12T21:28:00.006+08:00

Suppose to, come up with some simple plated .. so decided to do the bottom 2 , will see how my boss n chef says tomorrow after food tasting. ( review not too bad so far from fellow peers )

Types of frenz

2008-10-09T00:38:00.002+08:00

Recently realize that some frenz i hangout with actually got not much common topic. Makes me wonder .. is this still consider friendship ? Makes me really wonder what is called a true friendship ? Here are the types of frenz i think i have :)

1) Long term frenz - seldom contact, but if got problems , i know i can always count on them. Eg. my secondary mates.

2) Hi 'n' Bye frenz - rarely see each others , maybe just a smile if just see on the streets. Just say hi , a smile , or maybe small
chat n exchange updated contacts but will neber call one another. Eg. ex-army campmates , work mates, classmates.

3) Heart 2 Heart Frenz - someone whom u can talk everything n anything. Including deepest thots , problems of the heart , wildest fanatasy :)

4) Fun time frenz - Only spend fun today ... no topic to chat @ all, other then just having fun together.

Just very very sad .... Type 4 ... can i consider them as frenz ? cos we totally got almost no topic to talk other then school n maybe bit of work. Even in class we dun really talk unless we are making fun of some other.

Think there are other types @ all , will continue soon ...

Btw bit bit sad today cos just found out a blogger decided to stop his blogging for the time being .... hope to see him update soon cos found alot of help there :) cheers !

Start of Term 5 ( 3 more mths to end of course !!! )

2008-10-09T00:12:00.005+08:00

This 2 weeks had been rewarding ? hmmm actually very complicated .. been good n bad i guess. School had been great cos learn alot of petti four n marcarons and @ work learn a few new things and hmm gain a few books that i wanted ( thus super broke now ). Apart from learning stuffs @ work ... we now have to help mend retail business and we are suppose to come up with ideas ... head big big now.

Inner Self ... ... Reflect but no "ion"

2008-09-21T23:04:00.003+08:00

Been having some thots during my "emo" period... It somehow bring me to this question ... .what is "WANT" and what is "NEED" ? and what is the main difference between these two ? Did a search on the net and more of less this is the meaning ...

Need -
A need is something you have to have, something you can't do without to survive. Of course its food, water, air. Needs will change as individual's progress through life.

Want -
Want is something you would like to have. It has the emotional pull. A need doesn't over power wants unless it affects a person's shelter, food, water, or air supply.

I think ,,, i had a long time dealing with these 2 and thot that i been doing a good job but NO!!!!! i didn't .... i managed to do certain part of it but still not good enuff .... i really need to keep my focus and try to draw the line better. I wan this ... I wan that ... I wan everything !!!!! ( even though maybe i dun even need any of them !!!)

I want a change in life .... is there anyone out there that can help me ? hee hee some magic perhaps ?

Also i think part of my "Emo" comes from my last trip, as i was not really feeling well , i didn't play as much , thus i feel like an "outcast" :( also realized that me being older , fatter , bigger , bad temper or whatever reasons ... they dun dare to play me cos the scared of me .... sob sob ..... I am just another plain john .... i want to be part of the team , the gang .... not some bully , think i abit "犯賤" most ppl will be more then happy to not bully or played with .... but me ... think i am weird .... I just want to be a part of everything .... I guess ....

Also from my classmate @ work , my boss had been talking and asking her for an answer as to stay or leave after our attachment ends. Well seriously, I dun think i would wan to stay on if he ask me , which would be my turn soon , but then again who knows maybe the offer will be good that i cannot resists ? LOL

Watever it is ..... i really hope i can be a better person .... Think i am too lazy ... i only know how to tok n tok n tok ... thus ppl think i am sooooo good in talking ... so good in thinking and sooo good in life but then i am just "shit" sigh ... I do want to be the best I can be but then yet I am doing nothing to achieve that. NATO = No Action , Talk Only....

For those who out there having this problem ... hope this helps :)

2008-09-21T22:22:00.002+08:00

Dealing with a Crush on a Friend
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He's your good friend. She's your best confidant. You have known each other for a few years and have shared meals, movies, hobbies and vacations. You have confided to each other about your latest love interest and turned to one another for support when the relationship(s) failed. You can't imagine life without your good friend.

But for a while....

You've felt jealous of his dates. You've been overprotective of her since she has been seeing the jerk. You've been having very strong feelings of attraction and a desire for something more than friendship. Could it be that your feelings for him/her have grown into something more? If so, your relationship may have developed into a "friend crush".

You don't know what to do. You know you want to continue spending time together- more time. But it's getting hard. You fantasize about having more with this person and are beginning to feel like a jealous would-be partner. Do you pretend everything is the same? Do you start distancing yourself- hoping your feelings will go back to the way they were? Do you actually TALK directly and honestly with your friend about how you feel?

What will happen to the relationship if you make the WRONG choice?

Just as all people are unique, so are the characteristics of their relationships with others. There is no one-size-fits-all answer to this increasingly common dilemma. So, let's take a look at your options. You can:

Ignore your feelings, keep your boundaries in check and pretend everything is status quo
In order to choose this option, you must be able to deny your feelings so well that even you don't know what they are. You will also have to continue being comfortable on the sidelines while someone else has the relationship with this person that you desire. You will most likely be asked what you think of this or that person and be expected to be happy and supportive of your friend when they meet the right someone for them. In return for all this, you will still have your friend.

Begin to spend less time with your friend (crush) while seeking out new friendships to pursue and strengthen
This option will most likely cause confusion and hurt on the part of your friend who will wonder what happened. They may be understanding and accepting of your need to spread your wings and support you in doing what you need to do. Either way, you will see less of them and your relationship can weaken and perhaps disappear altogether as they move on with new people. If you can distance yourself for a while and no longer feel the romantic butterflies, you can always give them a call and may be able to pick up somewhere near where you left off.

Continue the relationship with your own hidden agendas - a desire for romantic intimacy and the hope that the person will realize that they feel the same way
If they become involved with someone else in the meantime, you can work to sabotage their new relationship or you can leave them wondering where all your anger and hurt feelings are coming from. You can spend a lot of time and energy handling it this way, without anything to show for your efforts but the loss of a good friend.

Have an open and honest discussion with your friend regarding your new feelings for them
This is the choice that seems to be the hardest for folks to make. Often what I hear from people in this position is that they fear "ruining the friendship" if they discuss their feelings honestly. While this is a very understandable concern, it isn't well thought out. It is emotional, not rational.

Look again at the other options. Every one will bring about a change in your current friendship.

Why?

Once your feelings have changed, so does the relationship. Ignoring them, hiding them or distancing yourself will lessen your closeness and the positive dynamics that flow between good friends. You can't go back. You need to decide how you want to move forward or if this is an option for you. It is also possible in choosing this option that you will learn that they have similar feelings for you that they were afraid to reveal. Therefore choosing this option could result in romance and a love relationship based on true friendship.

Intimacy exists in all close relationships. It is the ability to be completely open and vulnerable to another without fear of harm or rejection. So, by definition, we cannot be intimate with another while hiding or denying our true feelings and needs to them.

The choice will always be yours. Choosing wisely is about really knowing the options, the consequences they bring and what will be best for you and your friend.

Emo again ....

2008-09-20T10:52:00.003+08:00

Been sick for the past week .... too much time at home and been thru thinking alot. Still have alot of things inside me that cannot be told to others.As i posted b4 , still i can't find someone whom i can tell everything.Most can share some but not everything, yet i dun feel like blogging it out as it should be deep within me. Hope this emo will pass soon ... i dun have much time left ... 3 more mths to end of course and that will means to come out to working world again .... Still sick ... off + holiday + leave + Mc .... i been away from work for 6 days ... working tomorrow ... sure kena one :P

Life is the process of finding love.

2008-09-19T19:30:00.006+08:00

Every person will need to find four people in his/her life.
First person is yourself.
Second person is the one you love most.
Third person is the one who loves you most.
Lastly, the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, first you will meet with the one you love most,
and learn how love feels;
Because you know how love feels,
you can find the person who loves you most.

When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved,
you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the
person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn’t love you;
The one who loves you most is never the one you love most;
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love
most or the one who loves you most.

He/She is just the person who happens to be at the right place at
the right time. Which person are you in other people’s life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he/she loves you, he/she really loves you;
But when he/she doesn’t love you anymore, he/she really doesn’t love
you anymore; When he/she loves you, he/she can pretend that he/she doesn’t.
Same goes, when he/she loves you no more, there’s no way he/she can pretend he/she loves you.

When a person doesn’t love you and wants to leave you,
you must ask yourself if you still love him/her. If you also don’t
love him/her anymore, don’t ever let him/her leave just to save your pride.
If you still love him/her, you should wish him/her happiness and
hope that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most, not stop
him/her from it. If you stop him/her from finding true happiness with the one he/she
loves, it shows you already don’t love him/her, And if you don’t love
him/her, what rights do you have to blame him/her for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive.
If you like the moon, you can just take it down and put it in your
basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method
of possessing that person. Let him/her become a permanent memory in your life.

If you really love the person, you must love him/her for what he/she is;
Love him/her for his/her good points and the bad, You can wish for
him/her to become like what you like him/her to be just because you love him/her.
If he/she can change to become what you like him/her to be, you don’t love him/her anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find reason why you love him/her,

You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood,
you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times,
not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test.

If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love,
they love to ask each other to swear and to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don’t trust each other, they don’t trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless;
Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall, the ocean will never dry.
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises, don’t make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen,
so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying doesn’t believe; the one listening also doesn’t believe.

Which person have you found so far? In the world so big, which person have you found? And who has found you?

Iphone Cunpcakes anyone ?

2008-09-19T19:30:00.005+08:00

Saw this online which is done byNick Bilton and Danielle Bilton which is damm cool and they actually won the first prize for NYC Cupcake Decorating Championships & Ignite NYC ... Think i wan try make also LOL

Term Break - Trip to KL

2008-09-18T23:38:00.007+08:00

View of the pool

View from the room

Finally term 4 is over and we had decided to go KL for this term break. So last week we go ahead and book for a 3D2N trip to KL , we booked cheap bus tickets from Causeway Link @ $49 for a return trip , was quite good deal :P cos we wanted to make this as budget as possible. Hotel , we manage to get staff price for Hilton ( @ least 5 star) as JS 's cousin is working there, so we got quite a good deal.

On Sunday, I went over to JS place to stay over and went to mit the gals @ IMM the next day @ 7.45 am as the bus leave IMM @ 8am.( Forget to mention that my throat was swollen on saturday nite and it makes me hard to eat or sallow. Did not inform JS about it cos feels bad about it cos he said that he had rsvp some very sweet melon for me the day b4. So ends up i have to drink his "special milk" - mix of ribena + milk , rock melon and 1 cup of tiger beer , was like hell trying to sallow but endure it somehow. Also did not have a good sleep due to the throat and cough)

It rained that morning and ends up me n JS had to share his tiny umbrella from JE mrt to IMM. Had a quick coffee there and bought MAC for breakfast on the bus. The bus leave quite on the dot and seems not too bad for a budget price we paid for it. After both customs, all 4 of us proceed with operation "tiloh" ( sleep in malay - dunno if i spell correctly though). We reach the outskirt of KL ard 1 pm+ , it was not where we supposed to stop. Js was hmm not happy as per normal, but no choice cos so lucky for us that the day we arrive is the first day they started to use the temp bus interchange, due to Ramadan, they scare all buses will jammed the city area, so for that abt 20 days , all travel coaches will have to stop outside in the outskirt and transfer to the city itself. We took a cab to the hotel , which was less then 15 min away. The hotel had a great location , right next to the train station which happen to be the main interchange station.

We found Js's cousin GF and she assisted us to check-in , only to find out none of us had a credit card on us , luckily Lynn got hr mum's debit card. Proceed to the room and drop our stuff and make our way out for lunch as all of us was very hungry ( Js actually wanted to take a shower, but was denied cos he shower very long one ). We took a cab to Mid-Valley Plaza and had lunch @ this Italian grill chicken restarant called "Nado" ( i think again ). Food was good but due to my throat ... i had minimum :( after that we continue to shop a bit here n there and then make our way back to the hotel. Drop our stuffs and leave for din din @ Jalan Alok ( Js keep telling his cousin that we are eating @ Lorong Ah Soo .... duhz ... 1 in KL and 1 in SG , huge difference).

After din din , we had a walk along Bukit Bintang and Js wanted to show us the stretch of happening pubs along bintang walk but after walking for a long long time , we gave up then took a cab back to the hotel , 1 min after in the cab ... we saw the place that we wanted to go LOL . Reach hotel , supposed to have a drinking + cards session , but Js complaint of back pain and thus all was cancelled as he was really having a really backache. Can see that he is really in great pain. At around 3+ saw that he like kinda of sleeping on the floor liao then i went to sleep.( was kinda of sad when in the morning , when complaint tired and said was staying up till 3am++( have to admit i was tired but of cos i saw that he was like sleeping) to make sure he was ok ... he say where got ... i was sleeping soundly , where got stay up for him ... really @#$@$.Woke up ard 5am + cos he went toliet and on all the light :( . then went ahead to bed again. Woke up in the morning ( supposed to be 7am but too tired so we all wake up ard 8am++) went ahead with breakfast in the hotel , I didn't enjoy much again cos i had a hard time swallowing :(

Left the hotel ard noon time and took a cab to Plaza Darmas to this shop called "EuroChef" they sells alot of kitchenware and esp alot of "Matfer" products, one of the reasons why we came to KL. Found the place and bought some stuffs, so happy that i finally got my white set of chef knife n saw knife, bough also a tool for cake deco and a "pen" for writing. We spend a total of more then 1K RM there.... pocket burn hole ..... After that we had some cakes tasting ard there, the cakes looks really nice but taste wise .... so-so only. But they have a tea there that i tried was quite good ... it's called "San Terri Love Story " it consist of - apple , passion fruit , cinnimon , honey , lemon flavour tea ... it was quite good !!! ( think the shop is called San Terri Cafe @ Sri Harmas Plaza"

We made our way to One Utma after that and had lunch @ this vietnam restaurant called "Vietnam Kitchen" , the food was actually very good , Esp to try is the Pork ribs in caramel sauce , steam mince meat , pork in coconut sauce and more ... actually no complaint about the food @ all , Js 's favourite drink was the "six treasure " highly recommanded. After lunch , me and lynn went to buy rose petals for Js , as he always say he wanted to have bath in a bathtub with rose petals. Played hide-n-seek with them as to keep it a surprise for him.Made our way back to the hotel as the cousin going to bring us out for din din that nite.

Lynn , Js and me went ahead to the jaccuize and pool after that we had fun with the slide there :) Yj did not join us in the pool cos "come red". Js's cousin came n mit us at ard 7+ and we all went back to the room to take a shower nad then left for din din. After din din , we drive ard a bit then headed back to the hotel. Had some "cat fight" in the room and Js proceed with his rose bath. In the end , he actually fall asleep inside, lynn n Yj shared the bathtub in the other room , me n Js's cousin was in the room watching movies. Did not ton that nite also cos the cousin sleeping in our room and he working early that day. Lynn was tired too , Js a bit drunk but sober after the shower which i ask him to take to wash off those petals.

Last day , suppose to go KLCC but overslept and long breakfast , can u believe ??? they ate for about 2 hours , i went back to bed cos i can't eat much again. After that they played again in the room at @ 12pm finally we get our asses out to have lunch @ Times Square. Was quite rush for all cos we need to be back @ the hotel b4 3pm and check out by 3.30pm to take a cab as our bus will leave @ 4pm.Reach the temp bus stop ard 4pm and got on the bus. The bus left about 4.15pm and by ard 8pm we reach woodlands custom, was quite fast as there was no jams.

Think we wasted tooooo much time in sleeping and in the room doing cat fights. other then that do enjoy the company of them, wish i was not sick though ,,... can't really enjoy all the good food. hope to do it again with them soon, luv you gals n guy.

1 mad + 1 GrumpyThe auto washing toilet bowl

Gone Drinking ....

2008-08-15T01:20:00.003+08:00

Went drinking after class on Wed again .... decided not to get drunk cos alot of chocolate to carry .... n due to reasons i dunno ... one of my classmate decided that he wanted to be drunk that nite ... guess alot of things in his mind that we all dunno .. and hmmm true enuff he got a bit high .... drunk or not ... i really dunno .... it just soo strange ... how can someone be drunk for a moment ... then the next he is sober ? even when i send him home ... he was soo drunk in the cab ... but once reach his place he got sober again .... then after a while he got all drunk again ..... and then sober again ..... this is just soooooo weird ...if a person is drunk or sober i will know how to take care .... but when he is on n off ... i really dunno how to go about taking care of him ... cos i dunno when he is sober n when drunk again ..... but one thing for sure when a big guy got drunk n emo .... it's really saddening ... feel sad also ... but dun worries ... no matter wat happen we still love you and we will be there always for you as long as we can ...... :) hugz!

bad week....

2008-08-08T02:08:00.002+08:00

Sigh alot of bad things happen this week ... hope all these will go off asap .... best of all .. while @ work today ... i kena the oven 5 times ..... and 4 times is @ the same area !!! how suay can u get .... sianz ... anyway attached a pic of out chalet last week ... the others are not for your eyes :P ... also attached my 4 times wound LOL

DIPB003 Chalet :) Part 1

2008-07-30T22:48:00.004+08:00

Just got back from skool and a 3D2N escape @ Aloha Changi ... It was crazy ... and lotas of fun .... and of cos ... I was DRUNK for the 3rd time !!!! I am sooo lously LOL. and the best things is .... I puke again ... kinda of loser ha ha . Well i was just high when we start our drinking game but i got too high cos i drank alot n fast and lots of mix .... the worst being the BIG cup ha ha. Think chivas and the Girl only is the killer. After a few games ... i told them i cannot oreadi so i told them i will go sleep first ... after laying on bed for a while ... think i was oreadi alseep ... My "wife" jumped on me and woke me up ... and Karen starts to take "raping" pics .... and the worst thing is .... that "jump" on my stomach .... makes me feel likes puking ... and .... I puked within mins .... all thanks to my 2pid " wife" .... too late now ... tired .... part 2 another day !!!Say .... " Drunk " !!!!!!!

DRUNK !!!

2008-07-24T23:01:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was a bad day .... I had my 2nd drunk in my whole life ( as long as I can remember ) Well i didn't drink alot but guess I drank too fast LOL .... dunno am I happy or am I not happy to drink that fast ... cannot rem liao also. But would just like to say sorry to both my classmates , Yj n Js , thankx for taking care of me when i was dead drunk .... puked 3 times ( or sessions actually ) i think. I must have created a scene .... by drunk and sleeping under the table in the heart of Prinsep street .. think there were still alot of ppl ard there when I was under the table ... turning here n there cos though me drunk i still can heard ppl talking around there ... soooooo MALU ...... think that was the worst sooo far .... the last drunk was in my own house toilet so no ppl know .... this time round was really bad ... lucky we not going "tower" next week ... really paiseh to face the ppl there LOL having dirty their floor with my puke ... :P Anywayz .... LOVE you guys ..... So sorry to give you 2 sooooo many trouble ... Promised to treat you 2 better ok ? ha ha ha ..... Love you 2 Many Many !!!! Thanks Sis ... and my loving "wife" LOL
From the bottom of my heart ..... Thanks and hugz !!!!

Btw attached my new gloomy pouches :) ( not all is mine though)

Life is .....

2008-07-17T20:28:00.004+08:00

One of my emo moments again ..... but i seriously really wonder .... what is LIFE ? what is HAPPINESS ? what is SADNESS ? and blah blah blah ....... When a person is smiling and lauffing ... is he/she really happy ? is there something called a Happy-O-Meter ? Can someone give me 1 if there is ?

I am really disappointed again @ Home Coming .... Once again I did not received the small paper of recognition even though my result was str8 A+ again ... attendance is FULL too .... yet once again my name was not in the list ... when i ask a chef of mine ... he said nothing .... no answer for me .... asked one of the SA ... she say alot of P&C factors .... WTF .... i just want to know what the P&C were ... then i can improved myself. I know i am vain .... but .... they put it as "students who did it well in their last exams" .... I believe that i did well enuff to score all A+ yet ... ppl who dunno will think that i under performed cos only my classmates got that , yet i didn't .... I do care alot of how ppl look @ me .... @ least i dare to admit that I am VAIN !!! Then again , maybe i m kena marked ... sigh. I did all i can to be the best of myself oreadi ....

I think my drive in studee and work is highly affected by my moods , emo and feelings .... I dunno how long this energy/drive will still stays .... hope someone gave me a light ... guide me and stand by me to the ending point. I dun wan to go alone .... i am scare ,,,, lonely and .... tired.... Any1 out there ? To apply please post a comments , terms and conditions applies.

On the other side ... had some fun with my classmates recently though ... a few of us ... been drinking alot recently ... I guess this sort of bond us together .... but dunno good or not though cos not very healthy and not very cheap with all those mid-nite charges.And of cos .... we did all sort of "things" when we get high .... alot of 2pid things ... 2pid topic n stuffs .... But i really enjoyed myself ... not sure about them though .... seriously .... i don't feel that old when crazy with them but then I am really much older .... sigh .... 5-10yrs different .... think would be much better if i was 5 yrs younger ? ha ha wishful thinking ....

I always had pppl thinking that i am not that bad ... i m good @ this ... good @ that ... and stuff ... which that is not the actual me .... yet none believe me .... How can i make them understand the real me ? am i really that faked ? is it good or bad ? I really dunno ... thinking more of it make me even lost .... I really dunno who i m ..... Once again to all out there ... " I M NOT AS GOOD AS U ALL THINK I AM, I M BUT A GREAT PRETENDER !!!!! "

Secrets - I have tons n tons of it .... yet 99% of it cannot be told to anyone .... or rather .... 10% i can only tell to A , 10% only to B , another 15% to C and blah blah blah .... but it won't help in anything cos the 10% I tell to A, is not related to A but actually related to me n B , then things i told B is between me n A/C ( here get this str8 ... i dun mean telling A's secrets to B but rather things concerning me and A )

Hope I will get out of this stage soon ...... attached is my drinking buddies pic .... mainly my "wife" and my "drinking" sister .... ( P/s alot of 2pid pics n videos cannot be uploaded ..... so ... TOO BAD to you all who got no chance to see it :P)

Sabo king , MOB , Gloomy Bear :P

2008-06-30T21:57:00.002+08:00

Long day ... Kena MOB today ... all the way to Tanjong Gul Camp .... damm far sia .... .. , Slient Mob @ 10am ... reach there ard 1pm ... thot sign can go off ... but they said lunch was indent ... sian 1/2 ... ard 2pm ... they say once all arrive then can go off ... ard 3pm ... CSP n CISS went off ... we CCP have to wait ... cos got 1 Sabo king .... he knows that got MOB today ... still die die went ahead to Pulau Hantu to dive .... damm #$%@$%@#% got ppl oreadi told him dun go liao ,he still die die go .. and the best thing is , officers said he ack the MOB @ 10am .... then when they call him ard 3pm ... he say he on the boat ... rushing back .... earliest will only reach @ 5.30pm ... MEANS we had to wait for him until 5.30pm ..... all damm pissed off ... lucky @ ard 4.30pm our PC told us we can out-pro and no need to wait for that F**ker to report ... Heng ... but still waited about 3hrs+ ... waste of time !!! Btw ... that F**ker is called Clement ... dun rem who he is though but i be looking out for him the next in-camp.

Went to Suntec for toys n comics convention ... took a pic with my fav gloomy bear ... and to my surprise , saw the creator of gloomy was there and signing autograph for ppl ( free , cos i think they sold out all their merchandises , if not might have to buy then he sign , i want to buy but no more stocks :( ) so anyway thick skin and get him to sign for me , though he wrote my japanese name wrongly ... but still it's free !!!!! ( some gals with video cam was camming when he sign for me and the gals ask me to wave n show the autograph in front of the big video cam wor ... wonder where my pics will show LOL ) ---- VAIN

Lost some .... Gain Some :)

2008-06-28T23:47:00.003+08:00

Supposed to blog yesterday but was toooooo tired after the contest .... slept for about 12 hrs str8 !!! .. CONTEST ? Oh ... for those dunno ,,,, I took part in my first Pastry - related contest !!!! neber thot i had the chance , but YES i took part and .... and ... I LOST !!! ( this is for the Lost some part of the title )

27 June 2008 - I went to BITC with my classmate , Yj n Karen to take part in California Raisins Contest , Me n Yj took part in Plated Dessert and Karen took part in Bread. I was still having cold feet in the morning and kinda of regret i took part ... wanted so much to give up cos .... SCARED !!!! but told myself ... 1) Yj is going to be more freak out then me ,,,, so i must be strong .... 2) Alot of ppl know I m taking part in this ... so abit loser if quit 3) dun wan to disappointed my chefs in skool , cos they really help alot. Anyway back to the contest ... Well there was all 18 ppl in the Plated Dessert ... me n Yj is in the first group .... after we all finished ... i was thinking standard was OK ... the rest was not all very well done ... only a few stand out ... but when grp 2 start ... i see the diff , not only in the final end products BUt when they just started i took a peek and they all look PROs. Well b4 this , heard that F hotel is sending 2 CDP in ... me a trainee against a CDP .... kaoz .... sure die flat flat one ....

Part 1 of pissed off - Was very disappointed the way the contest runs ... cos Yj was 2nd to present ( we had 75 min to prepare and 10 mins more for plated ) but they only told her that she was to stay plateing first cos the 1st one encounted some problem !!! so she didn't even had 10 mins to plate !!! how can they like that ... also Yj wanted to put her chopsticks with the dessert but they dun allow her ... saying they judges got everything inside !

Part 2 of pissed off - I thot will be like in TVs i see , we will present our items to the judges and explained our desserts, BUT NO ... they just took and served ... we dun even had the chance to explained how our desserts should be eaten !!! I had my dessert returned with the RUM I served in my dessert !!!! it was supposed to be drank after the dessert !!! and 2 cups of sauces returned untouched ... it's supposed to be pour n eat with the pudding !!! so sad .... I think I am super sad becos , I might be a trainee ... but i came up with my own receipes ( better then those who used receipe from their chefs and come and complete) I just hope I could have a bit respect for my dessert also .. sigh ... comparing to losing ... this hurts me most !!!

Part 3 of pissed off - I seriously think Karen could have won ... should have a place in the top 3 .... but sigh ... NONe ... Winners are all from top hotels .... and was told ... Karen's marks was dedected for her display ... BUT there was this guy who brought all PRE-BAKE deco show piece ... which we was told ALL deco show pieces have to be made there !!! ( for plated side also got ppl bring in pre made sugar deco ... so not fair !!!!! just think this is kinda of unfair ... not a very pro contest in my view .... not becos I didn't win ... cos me just there for experiences ... I got nothing against any1 and some of the desserts really nice.

Part 4 of pissed off - Think we read too much into the Rules ....They wanted something simple and ingredients to be easy available .... is GOLD LEAVES easily available ? i dun think so ... and all those plated desserts that won .... none of it look simple .... it looks so nice that only served in Fine Dining restuarants ... Kena cheated was the whole feeling ... the main reasons we lost ... we toooooooooooooo 2pid .... to follow all the Rules !!! Sigh

Happy moments .... I m glad that we took part though ... so we can see the dark sides .... also to learnt from all these experience .... AND think my reward for the day was when Chef Fred told me .... though we ( me n yj ) are just trainees with less then 1 yr in this industry ... they way we plate our desserts was much fine n clean then some of the others , who might be yrs in this industry ... ( no offence here but can u imagine ,,,, a green tea color dessert with a HOT PINK deco .... super mismatch !!!! - that was 1 of those who prepared b4 hand !!! ) I think with my Chef's remarks ... it was better then wining ... cos @ least we get his reconigions , to me that is all worth-ed :)

Damm sianz ... heard will kena recall back tomorrow ..... and to Tanjong Gul Camp .... dammmmmm far in the WEST ... sianz and got FULL-PACK inspection .... had problems digging out my stuffs .... blessed me tomorrow ... i hate tomorrow !!!!

Attached is my plated dessert and the 3 of us before the contest start .... so joker rite ... still take pic

My Raisin Soyphiscation
The Trio

Long update again ... ....

2008-06-18T23:02:00.003+08:00

It had been a long way since i updated here .... guess i been lazy ... ha ha ... and though there are things that upset me but not strong enuff to blog it here :P anyway few updates thus even though super lazy but me still decided to put it down here.

First of all .... my oreadi completed 3rd term of my studies , 2 more terms to go .... scary ... come to think of it ... it's super fast, if nothing goes wrong ... i should complete my dip in Dec'08 meaning 6 more mths. Term 4 going to consist of alot of breads ... chinese , french , indian ..... think our class might needs to really buck up cos if will be chef F to take us for most of the terms.

Oh had my term break this week , went fishing @ pasir ris pond with Karen yesterday. Arjun and Yj joined us in the afternoon to accompany us ... so sweet of them :P I reach there about 7.45am and decided to settle near the prawn fishing area. Took my own sweet time to assembly my stuffs and then continue to fish alone as karen say she will be late. After a short while i had a bite @ my line , but the fish was eating "inwards" meaning eat n swim @ my direction thus i dun have enuff time to whack it ... and i miss the catch ... so sad ... first bite and i lost it .... was quite dishearten but lucky i got another bite in less then 15 min and this time it was a hit.. soon karen joined me. There was this part which i am really pissed off .... there was this group of "PRO" anglers , who came over our side when they released fishes @ ard 1pm. I mean i am ok with them coming over cos this is very normal when fishes is being released. They got quite a few catches while we got none ... but when karen finally got one on the line , it cross with one of the "Pros" - cos in order to get fishes , they were throwing and crossing other ppl's line. The best thing was , he purposely whack his line and cause karen's catch to drop back into the pond, and the best thing is that cos the fish , think still in coma ... was still at the edge of the pond and i quickly ask karen to bring the net over so we can scoop it back ... the guy heard it and use his rod to whack the water , near the fish , trying to chase the fish away .... sooooooo loser ... he was the one that cause the fish to drop..... totally shamless and a BIG S-Hole .... We ended the day with me 3 catch ( 2 Kbls and 1 MJ ) and karen 2 "net" ( 1 injured KBL and 1 red snapper).

Oh almost forgot .... Me , Yj and Karen took part in a baking related contest and we will only know if we were shortlisted by yesterday. @ 4pm i told them ... aiyah if by 5pm we dun received any calls means no chance lot ... cos office hours mah ...so we waited and really no call came ... we thot no chance liao ... but to our surprise, @ 6pm i received a call and it was to inform me that i was shortlisted .... they were all happy for me ... and 5 min later YJ got the call as well ... and another 5 min later ... Karen also got the call .... so happy all 3 of us got it ... but kinda of scare also ,,, gonna be my first contest. After the fishing , me and Yj brought Arjun to Geylang to get Dim sum ..... think he really enjoys it ... or @ least he was STUFFED very full by us , ha ha until he say he eat until very tired ( think becos of the saltwater @ the pond)

Oh ... i was fully sun-burnt also .... guess skin will be coming off soon .... Btw , my contest will be next friday and also only know today there will be 2 sessions ,,, meaning me n Yj might not be in the same group ... wish us luck , of cos and Karen too. I m really excited and scared @ the same time regarding the contest .... anyway ... what will be will be ... gained experiences more impt ... win or dun win is just a matter of + or - .... :) so after so much toking ... here is the preview of my work , entitled Raisins SOYphistication !!!

FHA Dinner @ at-Sunrice by Classic Fine Foods & Rougié

2008-04-24T23:23:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was a busy day ... Went to FHA2008 again in the morning to get some stuffs then had to rush back to skool b4 2 pm as there is going to be an event which was to start from 7pm to 11pm. We were all very busy setting up the desserts for the nite , and we only managed to complete all ard 6pm+ thus all just had a very rush dinner of Fried Rice ( only 15 min to eat n go toilet ). B4 7pm we were all @ our station waiting for the guests. On forget to mentioned , I was post to the Churros Station with my Daughter - 0 dan. And Yj and GGG was on the other end , serving the same thing. Was surprised that alot of guest does not know what is a Churros ..... Luckily Chef Jimmy "REFRESHED" my memory b4 the event on the origin of it. Our stn was quite busy , "business" was super good ... All my churros was almost snapped once we display it and my Chef thot we did not do enuff LOL and Chef Fred actually say will award me Dip in churros LOL .... It was quite fun toking to the guests and also intro Churros to them ... I would always go like .. " Evening Sir/Mdm , any Churros for you ? and if they ask " What's that" , I will replied " This is Churros. Sir/Mdm , It is actually Choux Pastry , like Cream Puffs , just that this is DEEP FRIED and not baked." Then is will also tell them " There is also Chocolate sauce and Raspberry sauce here" and if they ask " So which is better ? " I will replied " Try one plain ( just with the lime sugar tossed ) , one with chocolate sauce and the last with raspberry, that's why we served 3 in a plate." Standard questions and answers the whole nite :P Also there were alot of guests who came took a look and said they will come back later ( cos they haben had enuff of savoury items ) BUT they always come back for our Churros and back for MORE .. LOL ... And i very the "JIAN" cos some students and staffs who came by and ask to try i would always tell them ... pls only come to my station COS the other station very the "CAT" , their Churros very short ... mine better .... LONGERRRRRRR ... BETTERRRRRR LOL ha ha ha ..... SUPER " JIAN" .... But was very tiring ... staying there whole nite ... piping and frying .... and worst kena scolded by Chef Dean for drinking @ my station ... of cos i know it's wrong to drink in front of guest BUT there is no one to relieve me .... the other counter got 4 pax ... my side most of the time only 2 of us ... how to go other place hide n drink ... Duhz !!!

But was quite happy cos alot of the guest really like the Churros cos they keep coming back for MORE !!! and also there is this chef Paul Lenz of shangri la Singapore came to joke with us and also gave me his name card and saying that we should go work for him( when he asked us where we worked) LOL ( cos he say he like the way we enjoy while work cos we were like smiling all the way ) Well this might means nothing or maybe he's a bit drunk or just being friendly but to me ... a chef of his status , toking n joking with us .... i think this is more then enough for us ... We are just Trainees aka Cheap Labours ( or rather FREE labours for the nite ) That is one of the many things that make me enjoy the nite ( of cos making desserts , tasting them and all ... It was a good experience ..... though every1 was Busy , Tired .. but working as a TEAM was GREAT !!! liked that feeling .... It also help me to tok to more ppl from the other class ( becos of under-the-table butler trade. LOL .... Hope this Sat event @ Sentosa will be great as well and no hiccups !!! *Finger Crossed*

The Forbidden Kingdom

2008-04-20T00:36:00.004+08:00

Just back from watching this show .... think was quite disappointing , even though b4 watching , oreadi read some reviews about the movie ( negative ones ) It's actually quite crappy @ some parts but would have to say the background music was nice ( sound like LOTR ) ... The movie itself remind me on LOTR also , Like the scene which Jet Li wore a white cape and rode a white horse , looks like Gandolf the White in Part 3 of LOTR. Then they mentioned in the movie ... Middle Kingdom ( like LOTR middle earth ) the part about the staff ... like the one ring in LOTR also ... also the evil wans to throw it into some fire/lava to melt it ... like LOTR also ... and of the THE Traveller Vs The Bearer in LOTR .... very Ang Moh style with Cheena story background ... think the only good part id Jet Li and Jackie Chan s' fighting scene. Oh forget to mention ... the White Haired Bride ... not fierce and evil enuff ... and the hair ... like bad hair day .... always blown and cover the face ..... doesn't look Stylo Milo @ all.

Pierre Hermé 's Desserts tasting @ Mezza9

2008-04-19T18:33:00.013+08:00

Assiette Macarons

macaron carrément chocolate

Tarte Vanille

Emotion Céleste

Surprise Ispahan

Surprise Ispahan unwrapped

Tarte Mogador

Dessert Ispahan

Emotion Satine

As the topic stated ..... presenting part of Pierre Herme's Desserts @ Mezza9. Actually was trying our luck cos the reservation was full that nite and our only chance was the Martini Bar cos it's first come first serve basis. After my Jap paper , me and Yj took a bus and make our way to The Hyatt Hotel. When we reached there , we actually saw Chef Megel and Chef Pierre Herme outside the Bar. Made our way in and waited for 10 mins before we were approached by a staff and we waited for another 15 mins for a table , for us ... it was OK as long as get get to try our the desserts. Before we were there , we were already awared that there is 2 different dessert menu , one in the bar , the other is in Mezza9 itself.

We ordered 5 out of the 6 dessert offered in the Bar ( the last one too exp and not a fan of carviar ) We also ordered 3 martinis ( which was a waste of $ cos we were just there for the desserts !!! ) anyway we was in the bar till about close to 10pm then decided to try our luck @ the restrauant cos Yj wanted to try the Dessert Ispahan, so I ask one of the staff if she is able to help us a table or put us on waiting list cos we really wanted to try the other menu. Waited till about 10.20pm and decided maybe we should make a move cos outside last order is @ 10.30 pm .... just as we were going to ask for bill , the helpful gal service staff told us she managed to get us a table in the resturant. So we move over and try 3 other more desserts from the menu.Out of the 8 desserts we tried , Luv 5 , like 1 and dun like 1 .... BEST was Ispahan ( die die must try )and LEAST was the Tarte Mogador ( cos the pineapple was bitter ... think too much liquor ) ....

It was a good experiene , some ppl might say ... pay so much just for desserts ... most prob paying for the name ( PH ) only .... but it was really good esp the sorbet ....neber has I ever try something soooo smooth ... of cos Ispahan was my fav of all ( even when Mr PH was in my skool and showcase his items ( picture only ) I had really wanted to try it cos Lychee + Rose + Raspberry ... all my fav !!!! NO REGRETS !!!! ...Last but not least ..... our bill for that night .... $286.00 :P

The Soldier & His Virtuous Wife

2008-04-19T18:15:00.005+08:00

17th April 2008

When to watch The Soldier & His Virtuous Wife <<都是当兵惹的祸>> today. Was quite blur cos i actually booked the tickets for 10th April , lucky they allowed us to change the tickets. It was very funny and the song are quite catchy and best of all they still got lucky draw wor.... Anyway truly enjoy the plays by The Theatre Practice ( previously watch their " If There’re Seasons… " 《天冷就回来》. Anyway these are some pic of the play and pics of my taking with the actors after the play.

What a day ... ... ...

2008-04-14T20:53:00.007+08:00

Today supposed to be a very good day cos we had a guest speaker - Mr Pierre Herme for Home Coming. But sigh turns out it just happen to be one of my EMO day. Firstly , usually if we performed well in our exams, though just a piece of useless printed paper but to me ... since i got that for Term 1 ,,,, I was thinking why not just do my best try to collect all 5 ( cos total i only got 5 terms) BUT .. though i managed to get A+ for all my subjects , I did not get that 2pid paper :( and worst my daughter is getting better and catching up ... of cos i jealous but i happy for her , cos this shows that she will not be depress and say wans to quit skool anymore :P But I am still sad and angry for myself , cos I like to collect things in SETs ,,,, now this cannot be complete liao. Sigh.

Secondly is that , I wanted to ask Mr PH some questions regarding his books BUT did not get the chance :( Reasons ? ... First question was ask by my classmate ... so LL cos she more high profile ... 2nd .. before i could raised my hands , there is this 2pid guy , who is not even student of the skool , think is some staffs from some partners ... somemore ask in FRENCH wor .... chey ... take up my chances , thick skinned , then ask Mr PH about seafood with chocolate ... oh pls why dun you try yourself ? y ask Mr PH ? and what ? seafood in garnache ??? oh pls .... 2pid !!! And the last one ? was given to my classmates again just bcos LADIES first ? WATEVER !!!! pissed me off ..... I been waiting for the chance for the whole weeks !!! and dig out my info also just in case i ask wrongly !!! and there it was busted !!!! SAD

To make myself feels better , I decided to go Pine Gardens @ AMK to try their cakes cos been hearing about them but no chance , the pics on top are 4 cakes I bought ... but a bit disappointed though. 1) Black Forest - Nothing special, quite a lot of cherries BUT all flatten one, chocolate taste normal, not much kirsch (if there is any), 2) Orange Zest Chocolate - The orange layer zest smell nice when eat separate but if you eat together with the chocolate layer, it will cover the taste of the orange zest, 3) Lychee Martini - supposed to be good cos was listed as one of Top Singapore 50 Cakes by ST last sunday. but to me ... just normal, nice to have the puree in the layers and can taste of the martini but maybe becos it just a neighborhood cake shop, things use in the cake is very normal , nothing very special and if your expectation is higher, otherwise not too bad, 4)Strawberry Mousses - nice try , top jelly , center sponge and cream. 3 different texture BUT , they dun even glaze their strawberry ... very disappointed also the jelly would be better if stronger in flavour or maybe there should be some lemon or something to bring out the flat taste of just strawberry. I might not visit there again cos to me , it;s not too bad but ok ok only for a neighborhood cake shop. But saw their new menu ... they had a Bird nest cake ... and think with apple mousses or something ... that kinda of interest me :P till then .... Sigh not feeling much better cos those some sweet and nice cake might makes me feel better ... BUT yet again disappointed by MEDIA !!!

Dessert Bu Fei @ Marina Mandarin

2008-03-29T20:19:00.012+08:00

Friday , 28th march

Went makan with 0-dan and Yj after Jap class. @ first they were saying that to only got for dessert buffet after out jap exam so was planing to go Dim Sum @ Geylang. But 2pif YJ says she got craving for sweets things so we went ahead with Dessert Buffet @ Marina Mandarin.

Atrium Lounge & Senses Patisserie
" The Dessert Symphony
(Every Friday, Saturday and Eve of Public Holiday, 8pm to Midnight)
On evenings of Fridays, Saturdays and eve of Public Holidays, let Atrium Lounge's Dessert Symphony Buffet (S$28 per person) indulge with a medley of over 30 decadent treats, artfully presented with each bite promising a harmony of flavours to the palate." - Quoted from Marina Mandarin Website.

Most of you must be wondering .... dessert buffet .... Y got a bandage leg ? This is the "GREAT WORK" of the 2 gals ..... cos 0-dan was wearing a limited edition flip flop !!!! so we scare there might be a dresscode for the lounge ... thus .. they thot of using bandages for the leg so we will have excuses as to why she was not in proper dresscode .... So funny ... and they actually thot and speak of it @ the same time .... they so "K"elever wor !!!

Tea with sugar stick

Coffee elcair

Firstly what greet us was the friendly staffs of the lounge and we were given seats at the other end of the buffet counter as the other side was full, the seat was quite BIG and comfy and it was next to some water feature. Next what greet us was the Tea/Coffee that comes with the buffet ( $1 per subsequent refill - i think ) . The sugar was soooooooooooo cute ... well maybe is Sua-gu ( mountain tortoise ) neber see b4 ... but it was soooo cute that we can't resist just licking and sucking it.

Crêpe Suzette

Triple melon something ?

First of all, was quite disappointed with the Crêpe Suzette cos from what we learnt was caramelized sugar then add butter and orange juice + lightly grated orange peel and the crepe will be put in and then the liqueur is added in and flambe then serve. But what they did was , 1) butter in then sugar in to caramelized then THROW in all the FRUITS !!!! strawberry + blue berries and stuff in to cook in the caramelized sugar ... so salah !!! and then they flambe it and after that then add in the crepe ... thus the crepe got no taste of the caramelized sugar smell and taste also there isn;t any flambe taste ... disappointed cos @ first we thot was like ... wow on the spot made crepe suzette. But the next thing i tried was good ... think was some melon thingy ... with cream cheese and the savarin was salty .... i like :P

Cream cheese + green tea?

Kaya Toast

Next I try on the cheese petti four , @ first we were thinking that what is the green thing with the cheese, and we conculde that "green" thing in Pastry usually is "Green Tea" or "Pistachio" after trying and trying ... we decided that it might could have been green tea cos of the after-taste ( also pistachio usually got a stronger taste. The kaya toast was not bad to me ... cos it was with 2 layers of Finger sponge and in between is kaya + butter , quite unique for a cake.

Layers of something white, green , red

Lychee macaroon+ dessert wine jelly with nata de coco

First of all the lychee macaroon is not too sweet , which i always hate macaroons as it will usually be too sweet for my tooth , BUT I can't taste of any lychee flavour and also they had a Apple Tea + Chocolate Macaroon which the apple tea's taste is totally covered by the chocolate.And the layers of things is actually quite nice BUT pls improve on the cutting ... mine look like Eiffel Tower + The Leaning Tower of Pisa !!!! it was big on the bottom and narrow on top and was like slanting to one side ( no excuses and tell me that is the design cos some of it was properly cut! but i have to give credit cos on the bottom layer there was a super thin layer of chocolate as base , and the whole thing was very soft , it must be very hard to transfer and display , and i like the red layer , can't remember was it raspberry or strawberry.Oh .... pls give credit to the dessert wine jelly .... it was the nicest I had that nice i think , also there was some parlines ,,,, one with dessicated coconut inside , that taste like pandan ? liked the one with a red toping on the white shell ( but i only like the red powder) , then there was one i think with nuts n raisins.

Chocolate Tart

Crème brûlée

The chocolate was not too bad and the golden ball is chocolate too , not some cheapo candy. The Crème brûléewas a bit disappointment also ... too thick and stiff ... think tooo much egg yolks or toooo less water/milk when using some ready-2-use Crème_brûlée mix.

Souffles

View form the bottom

Ok this had to be the worst of the worst from the whole dessert buffet ..... The Strawberry Souffle and the Chocolate Souffle , The strawberry one was under cooked , you can see it's watery below and it doesn't raised , in fact it sinked ! The chocolate one was over-cooked , it was very the stiff. Think they used steamer instead of oven so maybe that's why the taste is so bad, pls note you will have to waited about 20 mins for this , cos it's only steam when ordered. The other pic is the view i had from my seat , quite a nice place to hang out.

Some other things i tried , actually there were more stuffs but did not managed to take pic of all.In term of desserts-wise ... So-so ... but nice display of the petti fours but taste was can be improved also they seems to cut cost , use a lot of egg white foam instead of cream or custard , or maybe it is the recipes, But too much of the same things ... can get a bit *puke* also some of the stuffs must cut down on the sugar .. Esp there is this Sabayon something, The donuts can give a miss too. But nice place to hang out , services were good till certain timing ... we left @ about 2am ,,, and we were waving and waving but none of the 5-6 staffs saw us and we had to walk over to ask for bills. Staffs is not very sure of the current promo when we were paying up ( where the staff who attended to us did told us some promo)

FYI .... Citibank credit card holders , you only pay 2 pax for 3 pax to enjoy, so quite good deal , instead of $28++ ( think is about $33) , we paid about $22 each.> Nice place to hang out , chill and think we will still go there and try other desserts the next time round, of cos hope to see some improvement in some of the desserts. P/s : it will be good if they could off each a plate of what was in this picture.

Term Break

2008-03-20T01:22:00.002+08:00

Finally time break is over again ... didn't managed to go Taiwan and P.Ubin but had some quite fun time @ clark quay on monday nite. Me + YJ + Lynn went to visit JS @ his work place and after that we went drinking by singapore river. We "Ton" the whole nite and think we were all HIGH , had alot of crap tok , fun , and best of all ... Alot was caught on Video and posted on FB !!!! LOL lighting was not too good but we sure am a bunch of clowns :) more to come as YJ just suggested and "Ton" session b4 school open ... hopefully it be as fun :) till then .... to all concern about me !!1 I m fine still !!!! just too emo @ times still LOL

Changes for 2008 ?

2008-02-23T23:45:00.003+08:00

Quite a nos. of not too happy things happen this week .... sigh and been thinking ... should i stick to the old me ? or should i change ? ...... Used to be very emotional and manage to change a bit BUT i think is coming back to me .... sigh ... why i can't just be like some ppl ... just lauffs and forget ( Or CBB - Can't Be Bother , BH - Bo Hiew ) ? Maybe that why I am who I am .... but this is going to affect me more n more ( from past experience ) So maybe i should change ??? I really dunno .... Can someone pls give me some advice ? ( ha ha that only means it must be someone who dunno me well COS ppl who knows me will knwo I NEBER LISTEN)

Managed to complete most of my home assigments which some of my classmates haben even started ! For one ... I am going to STOP asking and Nagging @ them ... cos no point .... if they dun wan to help themself ... what can i do ? I believed i did alot ....like arranging meet up , pushing them to do and even offering to accompany them to do .... sigh .... Sorry Pals ... think that the max i can handle ,,,, having big probs with my Jap class too .... hope i can pass both Baking n Japanese.

Term break coming soon ( means exam is here soon too ... argh !!!!) Taiwan trip is cancel .... cos 2pid B**** changing job ... cannot take leave ..... so i guess if the DIPB GO4 is keen ... we shall do P.Ubin again .... at least something i can look forward to ( cross Finger).

Dunno true or joking, My chef talks about quiting ... hopefully just a joke :) cos i still got tons to learn from her. ... Oh btw ... won $10 from Toto ... Virgin win !!! YEAH !!! means more to come .... 4D....Toto....Big Sweep !!! HUAT( 發） ar !!!!

If you don't like something change it; if you can't change it, change the way you think about it. ~Mary Engelbreit

SCA AGM Lo Hei Dinner

2008-02-20T00:37:00.002+08:00

Attended the Singapore Chef Association Lo Hei Dinner on 17th February @ Swissotel Merchant Court. First time at this event and turns out to be quite worth it and fun for me and my fellow classmates :).

Went to work @ 8am as my chef @ work is still on MC and there was alot of orders to be done. Was a busy day for all of us but luckily we are ale to end early @ 4pm. After work , me and some of my classmates went to TTSH to visit Chef Jimmy. After that we head to Swisstoel Merchant Court for the dinner.
There was alot of people, total of 42 tables but seems most are from the Singapore Junior Chef Club ( SJCC) which we are in also. Lucky for us , we were allocated to a table to ourselves. It was a 9 course dinner with things like "Yu Sheng" , Braised Shark fin Soup, Roast Chicken with Rice cracker, Steamed Garoupa , Steamed Prawns , Dry oyster with Broccoli , Abalone with Mushroom, Fried Glutinous Rice , Lemon Sea Coconut with Sago and Pomelo .....+ free flow of drinks .... not bad for $10.

During the dinner , which was host by Chef Eric Teo himself , was quite fun , we truly enjoyed ourself , esp the part where the whole group of us went to look for Chef Megel, Chef Frederic ( 2 times ) , Chef Andreas. Chef Eric also came over to our table and "Yum Seng" with us.

Blessed all with a Happy Chinese New Year !!!!

Attached are some pics we took during our "Ton" @ Lynn's Place.

Class Outing AGAIN !!!

2008-02-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

First of all this happen yesterday but was toooooooo tired after all the Sun , Sea and BALLS !!!!
We had our 2nd field trip yesterday and this time round we went to an egg process factory in Jurong. Basically they sell shell eggs , hard-boiled eggs and pasteurized liquid eggs. They guy there really good in his job cos he reallys knows alot of things and always able to give us an answer we asked. After that we went to Paragon to LLCC then took a bus to The Cathay for lunch @ NiHon Mura. First time we ever had the whole class together with Chef Jimmy ( too bad Chef Frederic did not join us) After Lunch we went back skool to collect our WDA cheque !!!! Finally we got our additional $400 on top of our basic $500. Yipppeeeeee !!!!!

After that 8 of us went to Sentosa for Beach Volley ball, ( Karen + Me + Deric aka Gan Ge Ge + Lynn + JitShing + Yijia + Arjun + Esther ( In order of AGE !!!! ) ) I can say ALL of us trully enjoyed the day. Funny thing is that Karen actually broke the pin and the ball was slightly deflated , we was like searching ard for someone to loan a pump , lucky we managed to find if not it will be a wasted trip. Js was good in the "balls" game , Deric was super ONz , Arjun was good too , Yijia is SCARED of the ball , Lynn is STONING , Karen was not bad , Me was super lously ( trying out different patterns and cannot control the direction & force of the ball ) , Esther was .... hmmmm..... trying very hard LOL . Some of us went for a short swim in between the game, surprisingly Sentosa's water @ the Siloso beach was quite all rite for a singapore sea water. We had piggy back fighting for the BOIs, Me + JS Vs Deric + Arjun. Of cos me + Js was the winner cos me being the more STABLE ( = FAT lar ) horse. Arjun + Deric was super funny ... esp when Arjun ride on Deric and keeps asking Deric to hurry up and stand up. The always had problem stabling ....and to see wether "The Rider" ( aka Arjun ) or "The Horse" ( aka Deric ) is the "lao su shi" we get Js to ride on Deric and we CONFIRMED , the probelms lies in "The Horse" aka Deric .... LOL ....

After the swim, we went back for more volley ball game and this time think all of us played better and we took a few funny photo there ( will post once i got from them ) then we head for shower and took to tram back to Vivo where the rest of them had their DinDin there and i left to meet Mini & Gangs cos Chong just came back from Oz. We had DinDin @ "No Sign Board" @ Geylang, the white pepper/salt crab was not bad but the chilli one a bit cannot made it. They left for Durians after that but i head for home cos was really tired.

To my classmates of DIPB03 of at-Sunrice ...... It was a wonderful day out , let's do this again !!!! Let's enjoy + work hard together and enjoyed the time we have as students now !!! Hugz !!!

Bad Day !!!!!

2008-01-18T23:27:00.000+08:00

Started the new year ... been kinda of busy with work , studee and fun of cos. Nothing much to complaints nowdays so seldom blog anymore ... I guess just tired , ( guess if anyone reading also will feel tired from reading ha ha .) Anyway started my japanese course .... very blur cos i guess my foundation was not built very solid ... thus am struggling now , but lucky got 1+1 studying with me, @ least someone to turn to if I need help. School been ok but VERY angry this week, suppose to go back for Home Coming ( something that happen once a month, where students are advise to go back to skool from 3pm - 5pm). told my chef b4 that the home coming is on but she said that not enuff ppl , cannot release ( and i work till about 9pm that day !!) When i go back skool the Stud. Aff. asked me why i neber report for that , told her that I was working and chef dun release BUT shr said that she called my Boss - Miss D. and Miss D said " Cedric said he doesn't wans to go back" ...I was like "WA KAOz". Miss D neber mention anything about this with me b4 so thus there is no way she will know what i think , how can she put words in my mouth ??? BUT then maybe this just came from Miss P ( of Stud. Aff.) Whatever it is ... am going to tell my chef about it. I am a trainee and a cheap one too ... BUT still PLS show me some respect.

Bad day today .... LOST MY WATCH !!! my only WHITE watch and best still , I lost it @ my work place and there is only so many ppl @ my work place .... That's not only my only white watch but also my bday pressie from B'day'06 and of cos my fav one too !!!! Was very sad the whole day this makes me kinda of hate the work place even more ( on top of that incident on top) but of cos i will "REN" aka Endure till the last day of my attachment!!!

attached on top is the kawaii swans i did in skool !!!

3rd day of 2008 !!!

2008-01-03T23:13:00.000+08:00

Boxing day lunch @ workplace

Been yet another long time since I blog , dunno anyone read or not anyway :P But it had been quite busy ( ok ok I am LAZY ) 2007 is long gone and AWAY ... now is the start of a brand new year ... Gonna be a busy one this year. Cos other then my studies , work, I am going to continue my japanese language class... sure head big big one cos been about 6 mths since I last touch any of it ( well my head was same big big also when i took it last year , ha ha ) Well i guess 2008 had been fine so far ( 3 days only ). Will try to update more .... I guess one good thing is that the lesser I blog here ,,,, kinda of means my life is not so sucky ... ha ha !!!

Oh btw ..... ppl been asking me how is it like to be 30 !!! , and my reply to them is always " If you don't go and think about it .... there is actually no difference , life still goes on ( not like 20 turns 21 then can watch RA kinda of things ... BUT if you think about it .... YOU WISH YOU NEBER THINK ABOUT IT !!!!! ha ha ha , that's my most truthful answer and advice !!!

Before I log off .... think I would like to set the following for year 2008 -
1) Try to pass my baking course with the best grade I can
2) Pass my Japanese class ( can pass can liao , dun dare ask too much
3) Find a good job after my course ( but think it should fall in year 2009 resolutions
4) Have a HAPPY FAMILY ( Father, Mother, I LOVE YOU )
5) Maintain contacts with my current frenz and maybe hope to know more ppl in this line I am going into
6) Build up the bonds I had with my current classmates
7) Be more health conscious
8) Win 4D so I can change my "wife"
9) Dun be so LAZY
10) erm.... More to come ..... will add on the list :P

Attached is some of the photo that i took , some cakes I did for Xmas n NY party , a cake i deco for my "larling" Jane.

Emo @ 3am

2007-12-15T02:49:00.000+08:00

Been sick the whole week ... starting with cough + sore throat + flu + fever ... till now with still cough + flu + bit fever ( cold sweat) + of no reason ... a swollen eye. Now was about 3 am in the morning ( can't sleep due to cough), decided to blog down some thots. Soon I be turning 30 .... a figure use to seems so far away but now was sooooo close. Still remember when I was 18 yo , I used to think that it will be enuff to just live till 30 yo cos it seems so far back then ( based on my plam , my life line is a bit shorter then many). Would always think that by 30, I would have done alot and maybe did all I wanted to do. But now ... few more days and i be blowing my 30th candle, it just seems sooo fast and there still alot out there to be done. First of all , I just embarked on a new career change, by hoping to turn my passion into career - Baking. I had just enrolled into at-Sunrice for a Dip in Baking and Pastry Arts and just only finished my first term ... 1 more yr to go. So 30s seems to be the start of my life.But it just seems so wrong now .... 6 mths ago was already planning , I am going to have a BIG BIG Party for my 30th Birthday cos this is where a man's life start but now nothing gonna happen .... cos 1) I am still super sick , 2) I am working tomorrow still and on my bday I might still be working , got no clearance yet from my chef @ work. It all seems so wrong at the same time :(
Can't really sleep just now , so was thinking of what will happen if i am gone the next day ? I dun even have a will drawn ( ha ha i am not rich to have one anyway ) But anyway still decided to pen down something here ha ha *touch wood*

My house of cos will be to my parents , if possible my mum only

My cousin of cos will still be able to stay here as long as he likes but monthly rent transfer to my mum instead ( also if he decided to get married , he will have to move .... if not later mum will have to be maid to anothe.

My saving ( i got only -ve value ) + my CPF ( only that little) ALL will b to my mum of cos

My bike to be scrape ( dun wan other ppl to ride it - YES i am selfish )

All my toys going down with me ( Sorry to my nephew n nieces who been bio-ing them)

My Mac - to my cousin whom i still owe my study loan

All my adidas shoe + apparels - to my 2 brothers who been bio-ing them for a long time

Think that's all i have , sooooo pathetic rite ? wat to do i dun earn that much ( but i spent as much)
Btw : pls send out an sms to all my dear frenz on my phone telling them I be gone ... but pls do miss me if I had been a good fren :) ( though not everyone on my HP is my best frenz.

My best frenz list goes from :-

My secondary school mates - Dw & Wife ( dun quarrel so much, I would luv to be your child's god dad if you guys dun mine :P ) , Gw & gf , Kx & Wife , Wz & Wife , Yx & Wife.( frenz r 4 life )

My best hangout gals - Mimi+ Liz+Sam+Chong+LiChin ( thanks for the time spent)

My new classmates - YJ+Lynn+JS+Esther+my Chef J+Deric+Pat+Karen ( nice knowing all of you)

+ all who will missed me :P and did I miss out anyone ?

Opps I dun have much frenz do I ?
Wow i spent more then 15 min here liao .... Time to try and sleep .... 2pid cough makes me cannot sleep in peace.
P/s : To whoever reading this ... I am not going to KILL myself .... I am just EMO @ 3 am with a 2pid cough + a swollen eye!!!

Ubin Camping Trip

2007-12-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

Our "Deformed" Tent

It had been a long time since I upload any post but here is something long and interesting ☺. Well went to ubin with 3 of my classmates (that’s 1/3 of the whole class strength), which was very lucky cos Lynn is able to make it cos the nite before she actually smsed to say she might not make it due to food poisoning. Anyway we met up early @ Tanah Merah MRT (just been voted as WORST toilet of Singapore MRT) and took a bus to Changi Village. (Side note …. I had asked the group to bring a big bag … travel light … so we can buy water and put inside …. But one of them YJ ….really travel LIGHT….. In fact it should be consider super light !!!!! ha ha ha , a small bag … with hmm just some clothes and a loaf of focaccia bread) There was a huge change in that area esp. with the new Jetty and saw they had a boardwalk built in that area on the map (ok ok I know maybe it been there for some time but I neber been to that area for the Lonnnnnnnnnnnnngest time. Anyway the jetty was nice and there even waiting area for passengers waiting on board the bumboat to Pulau Ubin. Oh I forget to mention that the weather was great … gloomy but no rain.

The trip on the bumboat took abt 10 min +/- and very soon we reach the island itself (oh did I mention that it’s YJ’s virgin trip to Ubin) Once touch down, we went to the police post and gave our particulars (this is a recommended for all campers so that the police can inform in case of anything happen. Next we went to rent our bicycles and only to realized that YJ haben been cycling for long time …. And was abit unstable at first …. (Was very proud of her … neber give up and try n try) We left her to practices and me and JS went to recce the Jelutong beach but was quite disappointed by it (thot it will look nicer though) then we went back and realized YJ is done with her practices and we set out for Noordin Beach Campsite. Cos we decided to pitch out tent and then unload some stuff before going to Chew Jawa (coos just the 4 of us but we had a heavy load of food (including 2 cans of curry chicken, 1 can of sausages, 1 can of potato soup, 1 can of tuna, 5 pack of Maggie mee, 1 ice box with 6 can of tiger beer by me, 1 can of curry chicken, 1 can of shark fin soup, 1 can of luncheon meat, 4 pack of Maggie mee, some tibits and his must have 3 in 1 kopi by JS, Lynn had with her tibits and chips and YJ have tibits, cookies and bread.

We spent close to 2 hrs on my 2pid tent (which I throw away after this trip), the wind was very strong and we had a hard time setting up the tent in that kind of condition. On and thanks to “Handyman” JS cos he had a lot of “tools” to make the tent stable, without which the tent would not be stable. Ohh forget to mention again, Noordin Beach was much nicer we were the only campers over that that day and there was this dog there, we gave him the name of Bobby (by JS).

After that we decided to go and explore the “new” Chek Jawa, it had been years since I been there and they have new boardwalk and stuff over there. We decided to take a shortcut based on the map BUT we end up losing our way (took one big round and end up at the same place not to mention that we kena mud along the way, esp Lynn and YJ cos they wear slippers!!! haha got their slippers STUCK in the mud) thus after wasting the time on the wrong road, we “start” to make our way to Chek Jawa …. By the time we reach there was about close to 5pm, We took a look at the House No. 1 which they did a good job on the renovation. And Lynn had claimed that is her house, ha ha. After that we took a walk on the boardwalk which is very windy and nice.It was high tide thus we can’t see any of the nice coral and marine life but we manage to see a few school of small fishes. Oh we took some funny pics as well.

The clear blue sky

Land View

Sea View

Next was the viewing tower … Lynn did not wans to climb it in the first place but was persuaded by JS, which was good cos she did not regret going up … the air is good, view is good and of cos …. Lynn claimed this as her tower again! Next we set off back to the Ubin town. Half way along the way, JS’s bike’s paddle drop so he had to push like skate scooter. We had a “light” din din (with black pepper crab, steam prawns, vege, soup and squids – very “light” indeed) It was close to 7pm + after din din and some grocery and the sky was getting quite dark. So I had my first experience of riding in the dark on Ubin, it was kinda of fun for us yet we were having a bit of mix feeling … cos not sure will our tent stays strong against the strong wind, or will our food be stolen? Lucky for us, all was intact and we set off to shower after unloading (surprising the toilets there is nice n clean so much better then the Tanah Merah MRT’s). Though of cos water is not safe for drinking even bathing but we used it to bath anyway (I wash over with mineral water after that but JS just powder bath after that and the gals commented that we smell nicer then them LOL , welcome to the world of Metrosexual) .

Next we had small talk, some drinks, tibits at the shelter and at ard 11 + we started to cook our supper of all the Maggie + canned food. Chef for the nite was “Chef” JS, not only he cooked for us, he cooked for Bobby as well and some other dogs ☺. After supper, we tok cok, sing song some more till about close to 3 am.I must have been a bit high due to the few cans of Tiger beer ... cos think i talk alot LOL ( sorry for that guys ... too long neber drink and i am not really a alcohol person. There is where we were all tired and decided to go back into the tent and grab some sleep. Think JS was super tired, cos he fall asleep almost str8 away. I had quite a bad nite … cos I think I am too used to soft mattress .. so kept tossing n turning. Time goes quite slow as I keep checking my watch. @ about 3.40am, we heard the dogs outside barking and I just lay still n try to sleep, dun wan to think what is it but YJ sits up and look out, only to see the dog barking then went back to sleep (think she was a bit afraid cos she thot she heard noise nearby) I heard like sound of car and also like got someone open a can of soft drink. We concluded in the morning that it might had been maybe a wild boar that came around that nite (cos Lynn and JS heard and saw something along our way back, near the NPCC camp) and the dogs were barking and not howling…. So maybe they were trying to protect us? ☺

HornBills@ Noordin Beach

YJ woke up ard 7am and we went to clean up a bit and decided to wake the rest up but Lynn and JS continued to sleep so both of us decided to continue sleeping …. Soon it started to rain ,,,,, but only for about 30 min … then we decided to cook breakfast. 3 of us went out and left JS was inside sleeping cos can see that he was really tired. Me and Lynn was chef for the morning … soon it started to rain again … and ard 10 we decided to wake JS up cos we need to return the bike b4 12pm if not there be additional charges. We were getting ready to leave when it started to rain again so we hid inside the tent and after a while we tore down the tent and hide at the shelter. It keeps on raining and raining. We decided to set out in the rain at ard close to 1 pm and soon the rain got heavier when we reached the Jetty (lucky the uncle did not charge us extra cos we returned the bike late, btw the uncle was quite helpful, we had free lock, free baskets for the bikes and best did not charge us extra, it the last bicycle stall at the left hand side).

Maybe due to the rain and cos weekdays, we had to wait for close to half an hour to get enough ppl to get the bumboat to leave the Jetty (standard they will only leave when got about 12 pax, unless u wans to pay extra). We had our lunch @ Changi Village , only to realize that my fav. western food stall is no longer there and thew red tea longan's standard dropped!. After that me and JS shared a cab back and YJ n Lynn took bus back.The whole trip was very enjoyable for me and of cos the rest of the guys enjoyed it too and we hope to do this again. Till then …. Hope to have more fun with this bunch !!!

Busy Busy Busy

2007-11-17T00:45:00.000+08:00

DIPB003's GingerBread House


Garlic Baguette Viennoise	Soft Dinner Roll

Been very busy lately with home assignments (due 21/11/07) and also doing some under-the-table thing, so did not update my blog for quite some time so I am posting a few post together. Firstly, attached above is the complete Gingerbread House we did as a class project. It maybe not be the most perfect one but to us this is an achievement as this was a first time for many of us (almost all except Chef Jimmy who helped us a lot in this) But something I just dun understand is that why some people are so itchy hand, cos to our surprised someone actually vandalize our ginger bread house by poking the things and worst someone actually wrote “ This Sucks” or something along that line on the roof of our house. Cannot believe some people are so @#$%@# esp. . All students in the school are adults and Chef-2-Be. Don't think whoever the person will be able to become great chef next time.

we had our bread lesson this week and 2 weeks later will be out term exams, *cross finger*. Anyway last Saturday took off and went to adidas’s sample sale … spend quite a lot there but was not fun without the usual khaki to “snatch” together. And the best thing is that … I actually so blur that I bought 2 pants, same color, same design… darn.. Waste $$$. Oh forget to mention that something happen there at the sample sale, there is this guy who cut Q in front of me, thus I ask him “ are you together?” pointing to the lady group in front and he reply “ ya together, together”. Then I observed for a while but there was no communication between that guy and the group in front, thus I ask one lady in front and she replied “ nope, we are not together”, So I was quite pissed off, so many of us queuing and there this was someone trying to cut Q with 3 BIG bags of items. Thus I told that guy pls go and Q behind and then he point to my fren Q-ing behind me and say “ together, together” and I am super pissed off and told him “ yes, together … but WE’R TOGETHER, that’s my fren!” then he diam diam and look blur … then at this point there is this guy standing next to my fren and ask me what’s my problem. I told him that the guy cut Q and he keep asking me what’s my problem. Well I can be bother by this 2pid guy so I ignore him and ask that Cut Q guy to go off. Within a min that 2pid guy beside my fren hit me from the back and ask me what’s my problem again ….. Wah Lauz … cannot believe got such a 2pid guy who totally CAB (Chao Ah Beng) in the first place, it was not his business in the first place. My fren was so paiseh and feel so sorry about that 2pid guy fren of hers. That guy is super bo liaoz lor but I rally cannot bother with this type of ppl, think they just super LC (Low Class) an Ah Beng will always be an Ah Beng. (But that really spoiled my day cos damm experience)

Oh we be having out term break soon and some of use might be going to P.Ubin maybe for a 2D1N camping trip (cos Kampong Ubin chalets will cost us like $68 per pax/per nite) for those adventurous one and 1 day trip for those tame one but I think maybe end of the day only a handful of us will be going, for sure our class baby will not be able to go cos her parents say dangerous so she’s out! Also today my Chef @ work told us to be prepare for a bulk orders of 450 pc of cakes and cakes is going to be done by one 3 of us from baking to deco (packing will be done by others) Die …. Sure xiong like hell !!! But think gonna be hell of an experience !! Till then … will try n update soon and if there’s anyone out there reading … .do drop me a comment or mail ☺ cheers!

Some Misc Pics

2007-11-17T00:41:00.000+08:00

The 3 cakes are some of the orders at my work place.
The pasta was done by one of my lady boss ... and it is SEDAP !!!!! Very refreshing taste , think was some Citrus Paste.

Chocolate Tempering ( Day 2 )

2007-11-17T00:31:00.000+08:00

Chocolate set in room temp	Chocolate set in Chiller
Now you see it...	Now you don't ... of cos

Notice the "Shine" in the one set in room temp and the other which was set in chiller ? really a bit difference ! Also the last pic of cos you see me in "action" the chocolate shell was filled with garnache and all went together into my tummy "P YUMMY!!!