Inner Self ... ... Reflect but no "ion"

Been having some thots during my "emo" period... It somehow bring me to this question ... .what is "WANT" and what is "NEED" ? and what is the main difference between these two ? Did a search on the net and more of less this is the meaning ...

Need -
A need is something you have to have, something you can't do without to survive. Of course its food, water, air. Needs will change as individual's progress through life.

Want -
Want is something you would like to have. It has the emotional pull. A need doesn't over power wants unless it affects a person's shelter, food, water, or air supply.

I think ,,, i had a long time dealing with these 2 and thot that i been doing a good job but NO!!!!! i didn't .... i managed to do certain part of it but still not good enuff .... i really need to keep my focus and try to draw the line better. I wan this ... I wan that ... I wan everything !!!!! ( even though maybe i dun even need any of them !!!)

I want a change in life .... is there anyone out there that can help me ? hee hee some magic perhaps ?

Also i think part of my "Emo" comes from my last trip, as i was not really feeling well , i didn't play as much , thus i feel like an "outcast" :( also realized that me being older , fatter , bigger , bad temper or whatever reasons ... they dun dare to play me cos the scared of me .... sob sob ..... I am just another plain john .... i want to be part of the team , the gang .... not some bully , think i abit "犯賤" most ppl will be more then happy to not bully or played with .... but me ... think i am weird .... I just want to be a part of everything .... I guess ....

Also from my classmate @ work , my boss had been talking and asking her for an answer as to stay or leave after our attachment ends. Well seriously, I dun think i would wan to stay on if he ask me , which would be my turn soon , but then again who knows maybe the offer will be good that i cannot resists ? LOL

Watever it is ..... i really hope i can be a better person .... Think i am too lazy ... i only know how to tok n tok n tok ... thus ppl think i am sooooo good in talking ... so good in thinking and sooo good in life but then i am just "shit" sigh ... I do want to be the best I can be but then yet I am doing nothing to achieve that. NATO = No Action , Talk Only....

For those who out there having this problem ... hope this helps :)

Dealing with a Crush on a Friend
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He's your good friend. She's your best confidant. You have known each other for a few years and have shared meals, movies, hobbies and vacations. You have confided to each other about your latest love interest and turned to one another for support when the relationship(s) failed. You can't imagine life without your good friend.

But for a while....

You've felt jealous of his dates. You've been overprotective of her since she has been seeing the jerk. You've been having very strong feelings of attraction and a desire for something more than friendship. Could it be that your feelings for him/her have grown into something more? If so, your relationship may have developed into a "friend crush".

You don't know what to do. You know you want to continue spending time together- more time. But it's getting hard. You fantasize about having more with this person and are beginning to feel like a jealous would-be partner. Do you pretend everything is the same? Do you start distancing yourself- hoping your feelings will go back to the way they were? Do you actually TALK directly and honestly with your friend about how you feel?

What will happen to the relationship if you make the WRONG choice?

Just as all people are unique, so are the characteristics of their relationships with others. There is no one-size-fits-all answer to this increasingly common dilemma. So, let's take a look at your options. You can:

Ignore your feelings, keep your boundaries in check and pretend everything is status quo
In order to choose this option, you must be able to deny your feelings so well that even you don't know what they are. You will also have to continue being comfortable on the sidelines while someone else has the relationship with this person that you desire. You will most likely be asked what you think of this or that person and be expected to be happy and supportive of your friend when they meet the right someone for them. In return for all this, you will still have your friend.

Begin to spend less time with your friend (crush) while seeking out new friendships to pursue and strengthen
This option will most likely cause confusion and hurt on the part of your friend who will wonder what happened. They may be understanding and accepting of your need to spread your wings and support you in doing what you need to do. Either way, you will see less of them and your relationship can weaken and perhaps disappear altogether as they move on with new people. If you can distance yourself for a while and no longer feel the romantic butterflies, you can always give them a call and may be able to pick up somewhere near where you left off.

Continue the relationship with your own hidden agendas - a desire for romantic intimacy and the hope that the person will realize that they feel the same way
If they become involved with someone else in the meantime, you can work to sabotage their new relationship or you can leave them wondering where all your anger and hurt feelings are coming from. You can spend a lot of time and energy handling it this way, without anything to show for your efforts but the loss of a good friend.

Have an open and honest discussion with your friend regarding your new feelings for them
This is the choice that seems to be the hardest for folks to make. Often what I hear from people in this position is that they fear "ruining the friendship" if they discuss their feelings honestly. While this is a very understandable concern, it isn't well thought out. It is emotional, not rational.

Look again at the other options. Every one will bring about a change in your current friendship.

Why?

Once your feelings have changed, so does the relationship. Ignoring them, hiding them or distancing yourself will lessen your closeness and the positive dynamics that flow between good friends. You can't go back. You need to decide how you want to move forward or if this is an option for you. It is also possible in choosing this option that you will learn that they have similar feelings for you that they were afraid to reveal. Therefore choosing this option could result in romance and a love relationship based on true friendship.

Intimacy exists in all close relationships. It is the ability to be completely open and vulnerable to another without fear of harm or rejection. So, by definition, we cannot be intimate with another while hiding or denying our true feelings and needs to them.

The choice will always be yours. Choosing wisely is about really knowing the options, the consequences they bring and what will be best for you and your friend.

Emo again ....

Been sick for the past week .... too much time at home and been thru thinking alot. Still have alot of things inside me that cannot be told to others.As i posted b4 , still i can't find someone whom i can tell everything.Most can share some but not everything, yet i dun feel like blogging it out as it should be deep within me. Hope this emo will pass soon ... i dun have much time left ... 3 more mths to end of course and that will means to come out to working world again .... Still sick ... off + holiday + leave + Mc .... i been away from work for 6 days ... working tomorrow ... sure kena one :P

Life is the process of finding love.

Every person will need to find four people in his/her life.
First person is yourself.
Second person is the one you love most.
Third person is the one who loves you most.
Lastly, the one you spend the rest of your life with.

In life, first you will meet with the one you love most,
and learn how love feels;
Because you know how love feels,
you can find the person who loves you most.

When you have experienced the feeling of loving others and being loved,
you will then know what it is you need most. Then you will find the
person who is most suitable for you, to be able to spend the rest of your life with.

Sadly, in real life, these three people are usually not the same person.
The one you love most doesn’t love you;
The one who loves you most is never the one you love most;
And the one you spend your life with, is never the one you love
most or the one who loves you most.

He/She is just the person who happens to be at the right place at
the right time. Which person are you in other people’s life?

No person will purposely have a change of heart.
At the point in time when he/she loves you, he/she really loves you;
But when he/she doesn’t love you anymore, he/she really doesn’t love
you anymore; When he/she loves you, he/she can pretend that he/she doesn’t.
Same goes, when he/she loves you no more, there’s no way he/she can pretend he/she loves you.

When a person doesn’t love you and wants to leave you,
you must ask yourself if you still love him/her. If you also don’t
love him/her anymore, don’t ever let him/her leave just to save your pride.
If you still love him/her, you should wish him/her happiness and
hope that he/she will be with the one he/she loves most, not stop
him/her from it. If you stop him/her from finding true happiness with the one he/she
loves, it shows you already don’t love him/her, And if you don’t love
him/her, what rights do you have to blame him/her for a change of heart?

Love is not possessive.
If you like the moon, you can just take it down and put it in your
basin. But the moonlight still shines upon you.
In other words, when you love a person, you can use another method
of possessing that person. Let him/her become a permanent memory in your life.

If you really love the person, you must love him/her for what he/she is;
Love him/her for his/her good points and the bad, You can wish for
him/her to become like what you like him/her to be just because you love him/her.
If he/she can change to become what you like him/her to be, you don’t love him/her anymore.

When you really love a person, you cannot find reason why you love him/her,

You only know that no matter when and where, good mood or bad mood,
you will wish to have this person be with you.
Real love is when two people can go through the toughest problems without asking for promises or listing criteria.
In a relationship, you have to put in effort and give in at times,
not always be on the receiving end.
Being away from each other is a type of test.

If the relationship isn’t strong, then you can only admit defeat.
Real love will never become hate.

When two people are in love,
they love to ask each other to swear and to make promises.
Why do they ask each other to swear and promise?
Because they don’t trust each other, they don’t trust their lover.
These swear and promises are useless;
Till the sky falls, till the ocean dry, my love for you will never change!
We all know that the sky will never fall, the ocean will never dry.
Even if it does happen, are we still alive by then?

Be careful when making promises, don’t make promises that you cannot keep.
Swear by things that can never happen, because it can never happen,
so no harm just saying it casually. Remember, swearing by things that can never happen are the most touching!

In a relationship, what you say is one thing, but what you do is another;
The one saying doesn’t believe; the one listening also doesn’t believe.

Which person have you found so far? In the world so big, which person have you found? And who has found you?

Iphone Cunpcakes anyone ?

Saw this online which is done byNick Bilton and Danielle Bilton which is damm cool and they actually won the first prize for NYC Cupcake Decorating Championships & Ignite NYC ... Think i wan try make also LOL

Term Break - Trip to KL

View of the pool

View from the room

Finally term 4 is over and we had decided to go KL for this term break. So last week we go ahead and book for a 3D2N trip to KL , we booked cheap bus tickets from Causeway Link @ $49 for a return trip , was quite good deal :P cos we wanted to make this as budget as possible. Hotel , we manage to get staff price for Hilton ( @ least 5 star) as JS 's cousin is working there, so we got quite a good deal.

On Sunday, I went over to JS place to stay over and went to mit the gals @ IMM the next day @ 7.45 am as the bus leave IMM @ 8am.( Forget to mention that my throat was swollen on saturday nite and it makes me hard to eat or sallow. Did not inform JS about it cos feels bad about it cos he said that he had rsvp some very sweet melon for me the day b4. So ends up i have to drink his "special milk" - mix of ribena + milk , rock melon and 1 cup of tiger beer , was like hell trying to sallow but endure it somehow. Also did not have a good sleep due to the throat and cough)

It rained that morning and ends up me n JS had to share his tiny umbrella from JE mrt to IMM. Had a quick coffee there and bought MAC for breakfast on the bus. The bus leave quite on the dot and seems not too bad for a budget price we paid for it. After both customs, all 4 of us proceed with operation "tiloh" ( sleep in malay - dunno if i spell correctly though). We reach the outskirt of KL ard 1 pm+ , it was not where we supposed to stop. Js was hmm not happy as per normal, but no choice cos so lucky for us that the day we arrive is the first day they started to use the temp bus interchange, due to Ramadan, they scare all buses will jammed the city area, so for that abt 20 days , all travel coaches will have to stop outside in the outskirt and transfer to the city itself. We took a cab to the hotel , which was less then 15 min away. The hotel had a great location , right next to the train station which happen to be the main interchange station.

We found Js's cousin GF and she assisted us to check-in , only to find out none of us had a credit card on us , luckily Lynn got hr mum's debit card. Proceed to the room and drop our stuff and make our way out for lunch as all of us was very hungry ( Js actually wanted to take a shower, but was denied cos he shower very long one ). We took a cab to Mid-Valley Plaza and had lunch @ this Italian grill chicken restarant called "Nado" ( i think again ). Food was good but due to my throat ... i had minimum :( after that we continue to shop a bit here n there and then make our way back to the hotel. Drop our stuffs and leave for din din @ Jalan Alok ( Js keep telling his cousin that we are eating @ Lorong Ah Soo .... duhz ... 1 in KL and 1 in SG , huge difference).

After din din , we had a walk along Bukit Bintang and Js wanted to show us the stretch of happening pubs along bintang walk but after walking for a long long time , we gave up then took a cab back to the hotel , 1 min after in the cab ... we saw the place that we wanted to go LOL . Reach hotel , supposed to have a drinking + cards session , but Js complaint of back pain and thus all was cancelled as he was really having a really backache. Can see that he is really in great pain. At around 3+ saw that he like kinda of sleeping on the floor liao then i went to sleep.( was kinda of sad when in the morning , when complaint tired and said was staying up till 3am++( have to admit i was tired but of cos i saw that he was like sleeping) to make sure he was ok ... he say where got ... i was sleeping soundly , where got stay up for him ... really @#$@$.Woke up ard 5am + cos he went toliet and on all the light :( . then went ahead to bed again. Woke up in the morning ( supposed to be 7am but too tired so we all wake up ard 8am++) went ahead with breakfast in the hotel , I didn't enjoy much again cos i had a hard time swallowing :(

Left the hotel ard noon time and took a cab to Plaza Darmas to this shop called "EuroChef" they sells alot of kitchenware and esp alot of "Matfer" products, one of the reasons why we came to KL. Found the place and bought some stuffs, so happy that i finally got my white set of chef knife n saw knife, bough also a tool for cake deco and a "pen" for writing. We spend a total of more then 1K RM there.... pocket burn hole ..... After that we had some cakes tasting ard there, the cakes looks really nice but taste wise .... so-so only. But they have a tea there that i tried was quite good ... it's called "San Terri Love Story " it consist of - apple , passion fruit , cinnimon , honey , lemon flavour tea ... it was quite good !!! ( think the shop is called San Terri Cafe @ Sri Harmas Plaza"

We made our way to One Utma after that and had lunch @ this vietnam restaurant called "Vietnam Kitchen" , the food was actually very good , Esp to try is the Pork ribs in caramel sauce , steam mince meat , pork in coconut sauce and more ... actually no complaint about the food @ all , Js 's favourite drink was the "six treasure " highly recommanded. After lunch , me and lynn went to buy rose petals for Js , as he always say he wanted to have bath in a bathtub with rose petals. Played hide-n-seek with them as to keep it a surprise for him.Made our way back to the hotel as the cousin going to bring us out for din din that nite.

Lynn , Js and me went ahead to the jaccuize and pool after that we had fun with the slide there :) Yj did not join us in the pool cos "come red". Js's cousin came n mit us at ard 7+ and we all went back to the room to take a shower nad then left for din din. After din din , we drive ard a bit then headed back to the hotel. Had some "cat fight" in the room and Js proceed with his rose bath. In the end , he actually fall asleep inside, lynn n Yj shared the bathtub in the other room , me n Js's cousin was in the room watching movies. Did not ton that nite also cos the cousin sleeping in our room and he working early that day. Lynn was tired too , Js a bit drunk but sober after the shower which i ask him to take to wash off those petals.

Last day , suppose to go KLCC but overslept and long breakfast , can u believe ??? they ate for about 2 hours , i went back to bed cos i can't eat much again. After that they played again in the room at @ 12pm finally we get our asses out to have lunch @ Times Square. Was quite rush for all cos we need to be back @ the hotel b4 3pm and check out by 3.30pm to take a cab as our bus will leave @ 4pm.Reach the temp bus stop ard 4pm and got on the bus. The bus left about 4.15pm and by ard 8pm we reach woodlands custom, was quite fast as there was no jams.

Think we wasted tooooo much time in sleeping and in the room doing cat fights. other then that do enjoy the company of them, wish i was not sick though ,,... can't really enjoy all the good food. hope to do it again with them soon, luv you gals n guy.

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