Inner Self ... ... Reflect but no "ion"

Been having some thots during my "emo" period... It somehow bring me to this question ... .what is "WANT" and what is "NEED" ? and what is the main difference between these two ? Did a search on the net and more of less this is the meaning ...

Need -
A need is something you have to have, something you can't do without to survive. Of course its food, water, air. Needs will change as individual's progress through life.

Want -
Want is something you would like to have. It has the emotional pull. A need doesn't over power wants unless it affects a person's shelter, food, water, or air supply.

I think ,,, i had a long time dealing with these 2 and thot that i been doing a good job but NO!!!!! i didn't .... i managed to do certain part of it but still not good enuff .... i really need to keep my focus and try to draw the line better. I wan this ... I wan that ... I wan everything !!!!! ( even though maybe i dun even need any of them !!!)

I want a change in life .... is there anyone out there that can help me ? hee hee some magic perhaps ?

Also i think part of my "Emo" comes from my last trip, as i was not really feeling well , i didn't play as much , thus i feel like an "outcast" :( also realized that me being older , fatter , bigger , bad temper or whatever reasons ... they dun dare to play me cos the scared of me .... sob sob ..... I am just another plain john .... i want to be part of the team , the gang .... not some bully , think i abit "犯賤" most ppl will be more then happy to not bully or played with .... but me ... think i am weird .... I just want to be a part of everything .... I guess ....

Also from my classmate @ work , my boss had been talking and asking her for an answer as to stay or leave after our attachment ends. Well seriously, I dun think i would wan to stay on if he ask me , which would be my turn soon , but then again who knows maybe the offer will be good that i cannot resists ? LOL

Watever it is ..... i really hope i can be a better person .... Think i am too lazy ... i only know how to tok n tok n tok ... thus ppl think i am sooooo good in talking ... so good in thinking and sooo good in life but then i am just "shit" sigh ... I do want to be the best I can be but then yet I am doing nothing to achieve that. NATO = No Action , Talk Only....