Long updates ~

It had been a while since i blogged , this few mths had been up n down like a roller coaster ride. First of all , yes , I got a job but part time only @ a hotel , which i had always wanted , BUT only to realized that it is not where I would wan to be , not becos of hard work but becos of what is to be done there. I gave up a full time job offer to go in that place as a part timer , though not what i really thot it would be but @ least i get to seen tried n know that is not where i wanted to be. Think i know what i really want for now, I really wants to do beautiful cakes and desserts , using the best ingredients and had the best presentation. Of cos , I am not @ that level yet and i am still trying very hard to learn from the best if given a chance. Maybe I wish that i dunno what i really one like some of my peers, think that would be easier and not so choosy.
My hand is giving me problems this few days , it can get so bad that until I can't even lift chopsticks for long. Think my current workplace gonna kill me , work 2 weeks and I am off for 1 weeks, anyway decided to go back to work ... FORCED myself to , till i find another job , think I had to reply on painkiller for my hand till I see a specialist in end of June.
Back to things at the hotel , 1) cos they served buffets , so hmmm things is just looks ok will do no need to look super nice , and their desserts dun really have the I see liao will "WOW" feeling. I always thot hotels might have the "WOW" factors that I am looking for but too bad ... so am kind of disappointed. But think on the brighter side , I do get to see different things , like ice-cream machine , and stuffs. But I dun think i will stay there for long cos 1) it's just part time and also the working place dun really suit me , i needed to be somewhere more jolly and not just rushing for nothing ...
Had another fren's gathering recently , desserts I made was way below standard ... quite disappointed with myself LOL ... ppl been saying ... i been doing worst then last time, dun have the "Wow" factor anymore. Must buck up !! anyway plan to get a ice-cream maker for myself , so good news to my fren ..... I might provide fresh ice-cream cake /desserts for you ppl next time .... :) next will aim to get an "espuma". Pray to whoever .... whatever .... I hope to had a chance to learn n specialize in desserts/plated .... but i dunno where i can pick up .... dun think i can do it on my own .... so if any1 got any good chef willing to take me in , let me know .... I dun mind working for free if there's things to learn !!!
Will try n start to take pics of my creation and maybe post the recipe online from now on .... always forget to do that ... feel so bad..... ..... but ... recipe .... should I or should I not share ? I been very open always but seems to me many ppl still keep their recipe like dunno what like that .... makes me wonder .... what should I do ?

P/s : hope my hand can get better , if not , I might have to even give up my dreams on baking ... ( now on 3 mths medication )