Is this a right choice ?

Being kinda of tired after class this few days ... always feel tired ard 10 pm ( cos always wake up ard 6am) Anyway school had been not bad ... can said that i made a few frenz .. cos we chat n staff , 3 of us even went to buy our stuffs today after class. Anyway having mixed feeling now .... was call to go for interview for my attachment tomorrow to a standalone pastry shop called Blue Magnolia. Cos i had always hope to attached to a hotel kitchen cos i thot that would actually made a good base for me. But we can;t choose where we want to go ..... but rather the school decide for us then the companies decided if they really wants us ... sigh like orphan ( just a little luckier then them cos in the end we still will be taken up by someone) anyway on the bright side ... one of my classmate was going for the chocolate factory which is even more specialize ... so think he might be worst them me .

First day in at-Sunrice

First day at school ( at-Sunrice ).... alot to write but kinda of tired now ,,,, so in summary ....
1) suay ... rain when i reach DG MRT so had to run up
2) hot .... was sweating like dunno what
3) boring ... the orentation was kinda of dry @ times
4) cheap ... went suntec to get some stuff ( socks + white Tshirt)
5) wait ... wait for bus long long
6) kena chop ... 2pid clinic below charge me $35 for injection ...
Till i got more engery to type ... * DVD mode *

My very own Farewell standee !!!

End of the road with adidas Singapore

Finally the last day is here .... close to 4 years in adidas Singapore , more then 1 yr in Cathay outlet ... still i dunno why i am sad to leave. Maybe is the "comfort zone" feeling. I am actually having mixed feeling now .... A chef who learning cooking usually can bake but a baker usually can't cook .... so did i made the correct choice ? Well i just have to follow my dreams cos cooking is really not what i wanted not that i can't cook .... So i just have to do the very best and be the best i can in this line ! Still a few more hours and i will really say goodbye to this company .... and OOps ... i haben took a photo in the store at all .... maybe i should do it later :P esp i am in "staff uniform" today ha ha ! let it be my last look in uniform ... Going back to work .... will maybe continue tonite with pics maybe ! at-sunrice ---- wait for me .. i am coming !!!

Black 'n' White

Today is a sad day ..... Got a call from HR today , told me not only i can't bring over my off days , reason being we are supposed to work 44 hrs per week anything more they will have to pay OT if not ... scare later i go MOM complaint ... sigh .. then what happen to those days that we had to stretch and work for 9 days in a row ? where is the OT ? lame excuess. Next they also dun allow me to come back and work on the 2 weekends so thati can knock off the days i owe the company meaning i will have to pay back more due to short notice ! due to ... black and white .... must follow the contract ... this is how company works ! I was very angry of cos ... my EMO bit get over me for a while ... spoilt my whole day after that ... lucky that was about 7pm .. hald day oreadi gone. Thot of typing a mail to my HR manger ... typing halfway .. decided not to continue .... cos she's also a very "by the book" person .... but then just wanna try my luck once more .... so still i complete the mail which i will post below. I sound very loser in the mail yet i dun wan to get tooo EMO ( which i am famous for last time but i believe i have change .... hopefully.)
Guess i am more angry that , this is one company which i believed that i had work my very best!!! not sure if my superior sees it though. From the first day i joined , close to 4 yrs ago , i been trying my very best ... not to impress anyone but just because i enjoys the job itself back then in a small store in Parkway. Things change when the company change it's direction with franchise , new mgmt ... job is not that fun anymore but still though how i hate it ... while looking for alternative , i still did my very best in what i am entrusted to , though been telling myself i had enuff but still i will do what i had to do cos i do not wish to owe the company anything , still much as i hate it but i will still do it ... Remember the times when we were very low on manpower , we had to work 8-9 days in a shot , MC also must work cos not enuff manpower , even sick still cannot go home but had to rest in the storeroom. Worst experiences ..1 ) i hate to stay in shop for 3-4 hrs even after my wisdom tooth extraction , i am serving customers with blood in my mouth and enduring the pain ... reasons ? not enuff manpower again ! plus the fact that the dental wanted to give me 5 days of MCs but i only took 2 , becos not enuff keyholder ! 2) i had to do cashering with a tissue full of blood in my nose ... reasons again ? not enuff FT to do cashering , all newbies or PPs. 3) have to work even though was having very bad cough , dun even dare to take MCs thus always leads to even bad cough! Sigh .. i am really thinking today ... is this really worth it ? i feel so 2pid , why i keep working so hard for the company , is this company really worth it ? i am really pissed. Thot about the whole thing on my way back home .... still i decided to put my EMO aside ... cos i am a proud person ... even i wan to leave ... i will leave with pride .... for i will neber owe the company anything, if there is anything .... it's the comapny that owe me ... i had tried my very best during my time there and i am glad that i am finally leaving this company for good , it's just not good enuff for me ... not worth my commitment ! ha ha my EMO self again ... but at least i am feeling better this way .. i think that is more then enuff !

The mail as follows :-

Dear A*****,
L*** called me and explained my balance, I would like to check with you for the balance of the short notice, is it really
not possible for me to come back and work for the 2 weekends? cos this will be able to help me to knock off 4 days of what I owe the
company meaning less pay will be deducted from my basic.

I understand that the short notice will cos the disturbance to my workplace but this is all but very last min for me, the
course I m taking suppose to be in jan'08 but last min for the sept class there was someone withdrew and thus they had the placing
for me.

I didn't expect the company to grant me early release cos 'black n white' I will still need to serve my notice, all I ask
for is just an allowance for me to minimize the deduction of my pay. The course i am taking is not cheap and attachment pay will be even lower, thus I am really taking a very big step in this, considering I still have my housing loan and stuff to cover. but I do not wish to miss the chance , 4 yrs back I almost had a sponsorship from a hotel but due to the course did not start due to lack of students , I lost the chance , that's when I landed in adidas. I do not wish to see a repeat in this case, e.g. if I miss this sept class, later the Jan class did not start then I will lose my maybe final chance again. Baking had always been my passion, and I had tried many times to get into that industry but no company willing to take in someone with no experience in that background.

Saw cases before , even when a staff is not performing , staff did mistakes , they did not get a termination letter or
served any notice nor pay back anything and the company would just put it nicely that " to maker it look better on you , we will not issue you a termination letter , you better put in a resignation letter yourself". I however had tried my very best to proved myself and did what I can; I had even informed my superior once my intention is made and make them prepare for this and not only throw them the bomb last min. I had actually informed W**** and M** , even when I am not confirm accept by the school but I keep them updated every now and then when I got any news from the school. I had informed then at least a week before the acceptance from the school, cos I will need to submit my document to the school, and attend an interview and then got an answer from them. Compare to those staff that was being terminated (or rather ask to leave) I feel I am ac!
tually being penalized here.

I know I might be wasting my time writing all these but I am willing to try my luck one more time. Cos to me I am just
trying to pursue my dreams and not joining a competitor company for a higher pay job. I just hope that my last close to 4 years of service with the company is able to help me with something here. The only time I made a mistake ( which was not 100% due to my fault ) ended me with a warning letter which I accepted it whole heartly cos though not entirely my fault but I had to bear some responsibility for that too.

Regards,
Cedric Puah "

Guess i am asking too much .... i know i am .... but .... sigh ....

Life in a different way

有一次，一對戀人乘坐一輛巴士進入山區。
Once there was a couple who took a bus into the mountain.
他們打算在某處下車。
They decided to stop somewhere in the mountain.
他們下車後，巴士繼續往前駛。
After alighting , the bus move on.
巴士行駛途中，一塊大石從高處墜下並將巴士壓得粉碎。
Halfway thru the mountain , a large rock fell onto the bus
and the whole bus was smashed
所有乘客無一生還。
no one survived the accident.
那對戀人看到這件事後說︰「如果我們都在那輛巴士就好了！」
The couple , after knowing about the accident, said " if only we never alight the bus"
一般人都會想說：「還好我們剛好下車了！」但他們卻說了不同於一般人的話，
Normally people will say " Lucky we alight the bus and survived"

您認為他們為什麼會這樣說？
Why do you think the couple said that instead ?
先想想再往下找答案
Think and read on for answer.

再想想吧！
Come on think again
再努力想想…
Come on try harder



----------------------答案 ( Ans ) -------------------------
如果他們都留在車上沒有下車，那輛巴士將會因他們沒有下車而趕在大石墜下前駛過
出事地點！！
If they had not alight the bus , The bus would had avoided the huge rock and move on.


在我們生活中，多嘗試以不同的角度來正面思考及多找機會去幫助他人，
Moral : In Life , try to think in a different way and find ways to help others
別再不知不覺中一昧自私的為自己活著了。
Dun be a selfish person and just live for yourself !

The Long wait ... ...

Yesterday was a long day cos i did not get any calls from at-Sunrice ... so i am actually quite worried that i might not get the placing .... but ppl ard me told me i will sure get it ... still worried .... Wake up in the morning .... mum said of earthquake again ... didn't feel any .... cos me still sleeping ... also my main concern today was THE CALL ! half a day past ... no call ... no email ... keep on checking phone .... think to myself .... i will give myself till 5 pm then i will call them and ask .. reason as to why i am so " kan cheong" - the guy whom i read his blog regarding the interview ... got his call with hours i think ...me ? more then 1 day still no call !!!! OH NO i think to myself .... i had tender my job oreadi !!! and i turn down an interview with the other company which i had email my CV almost 3 weeks ago ..... sigh .... finally cannot control ... i call the school ... the recuritmenet office was not there ... left her a voice mail .... then send her an email as well .... just went i click on the send button .... i received a call from her ... and .... YES i been accept .... my dreams is finally had a start !!!! so i sent my retail manager an email to let her know .... and she replied " Congratulations that you have finally made up your mind to pursue your passion." ... Seriously ... i really dunno what she mean ...... i always had this dream and i always wanted to pursue but no chance .... this only show how "MUCH" she know me ... but then again .... will she care ? who am i ? NEXT~ maybe she will quote my lines " pls stand behind the YELLOW line " HA! was actually hoping people around me can be more supportive .... this is really a very big step i am taking ..... wish me luck whoever out there who really loves me :P hee hee ... I LOVE YOU too !!!!!
On the other side of me .... i am actually quite sad too ... been in this company for close to 4 yrs .... always wanted to leave but then when time is here .... a bit sad .... but frankly ... i really dunno which parts makes me sad .... But one staff of mine told me today " Somehow it gonna be different without you ... somehow just feel safe when you are around ... somehow you can put thing in order " ... Sigh ... i feel touched ! but then how many of them will think that way ? most wish i am out ASAP ... reasons ? me too ANAL LOL rather i know them well enuff to spot their mistake and pin point on them , but I am an easy person to get alone as long as you are 1) humble 2) keen to learn 3) and cute ? jsut kidding more like as long able to do what i pass on to you ... then you will have a nice life under me !!!
Now just cross finger and wait for HR reply ...... Wish me luck again .

False hope ?

Finally , went for my interview with at-Sunrice today , reach quite early so took some time to cool myself off and then i went in. Lucky to know that the interview will be done one to one , 3 in a row. First up was the Chef, he looks ok ... friendly ... 1st Qn was to intro about myself ... which i go on and stuff , then ask me about the course .. blah blah ... also ask me about how i feel if there were things i learnt before, think my reply was quite all rite .. it goes " I would treat it as a refresher course and also a chance to fine tune what i had learnt ", he looks satisfied ( i think ) ask me if i got any question ... i replied " No , cos i have not been in this line thus , no expections but i will treat every chance as a learning process and i will try my best to learn whatever i can" Then he left ... looks happy i think .... Next was a admin officer from the student body , she came in and said "your pictures ( meaning my portfolio which i printed out ) makes me; hungry ... so many I shouldn't pass you" in a joking manner and i made a cheeky reply " then all the more you should let me in the course then i can bake some for you to eat next time" and she lauffs. Well she go into more serious things like it's gonna be tough work , tough environment and so on also ppl will not treat you like trainee but as a staff working , i told her i totally understand ! and she went on to some stuffs and lastly she asked me " no offence , but have you thot of losing weight ? " , well i replied i did , and i do tennis and some running in my free time but a bit hard cos i am those big frame type and also becos of my long hours now , quite difficult for me." Oh and she asked me where i would prefer to go for attachment ? i replied preferred hotels / pastry shop ... and she told me sometimes they attached ppl to production lines too !!! a bit disappointed but hey i need to start somewhere ! She too look ok maybe a bit impressed i think by my determination then the recruitment office came in , they gal who brought me ard the school yesterday. Same thing she ask me to intro myself ... i was like ... hmmm ok here we go again ...... any later she ask more serious question ... then there was one that ask about what's my take on working oversea ..... I was like of cos i would want to work oversea ... free holiday !!!! but i replied ... " Yes , i would like to try and work oversea cos i can learn different things , different culture and blah blah blah ..... " seems quite ok also i think when i ended and she told me they will give me a call that very day or latest by the next day .... ... ...

A new begining ?

Today i finally step into at-Sunrice for a tour around the school ... quite nervous as after few weeks of emailing and asking ard ... finally i had made a decision .... They staffs there were friendly and show me and mimi around the school .... But quite surprise that she notice my "pinky" ha ha guess was too long to not to be notice ... anyway told her that i really need to know asap cos i will need to send my reply to my workplace cos sigh ... i was not be able to be grant for an early release desipt the fact that i am going to study and fulfill my dreams ... guess work is work .... anyway ... they called me up within 1 hours after i left the place and told me they had arrange an interview tomorrow for me .... happy and nervous LOL cos the gal had said that they will test on language and stuffs ... my language had failed me this few weeks LOL mix guy with gals , he with she and mis-prounce words here and there .... quite scared too if i screw this up cos i SUCK big time at interview and i really need this placing ... cos i know it's gonna to cause me alot ... in $ but .... finger crossed !!! tomorrow will be the big day ... WISH ME LUCK !!!