Black 'n' White

Today is a sad day ..... Got a call from HR today , told me not only i can't bring over my off days , reason being we are supposed to work 44 hrs per week anything more they will have to pay OT if not ... scare later i go MOM complaint ... sigh .. then what happen to those days that we had to stretch and work for 9 days in a row ? where is the OT ? lame excuess. Next they also dun allow me to come back and work on the 2 weekends so thati can knock off the days i owe the company meaning i will have to pay back more due to short notice ! due to ... black and white .... must follow the contract ... this is how company works ! I was very angry of cos ... my EMO bit get over me for a while ... spoilt my whole day after that ... lucky that was about 7pm .. hald day oreadi gone. Thot of typing a mail to my HR manger ... typing halfway .. decided not to continue .... cos she's also a very "by the book" person .... but then just wanna try my luck once more .... so still i complete the mail which i will post below. I sound very loser in the mail yet i dun wan to get tooo EMO ( which i am famous for last time but i believe i have change .... hopefully.)
Guess i am more angry that , this is one company which i believed that i had work my very best!!! not sure if my superior sees it though. From the first day i joined , close to 4 yrs ago , i been trying my very best ... not to impress anyone but just because i enjoys the job itself back then in a small store in Parkway. Things change when the company change it's direction with franchise , new mgmt ... job is not that fun anymore but still though how i hate it ... while looking for alternative , i still did my very best in what i am entrusted to , though been telling myself i had enuff but still i will do what i had to do cos i do not wish to owe the company anything , still much as i hate it but i will still do it ... Remember the times when we were very low on manpower , we had to work 8-9 days in a shot , MC also must work cos not enuff manpower , even sick still cannot go home but had to rest in the storeroom. Worst experiences ..1 ) i hate to stay in shop for 3-4 hrs even after my wisdom tooth extraction , i am serving customers with blood in my mouth and enduring the pain ... reasons ? not enuff manpower again ! plus the fact that the dental wanted to give me 5 days of MCs but i only took 2 , becos not enuff keyholder ! 2) i had to do cashering with a tissue full of blood in my nose ... reasons again ? not enuff FT to do cashering , all newbies or PPs. 3) have to work even though was having very bad cough , dun even dare to take MCs thus always leads to even bad cough! Sigh .. i am really thinking today ... is this really worth it ? i feel so 2pid , why i keep working so hard for the company , is this company really worth it ? i am really pissed. Thot about the whole thing on my way back home .... still i decided to put my EMO aside ... cos i am a proud person ... even i wan to leave ... i will leave with pride .... for i will neber owe the company anything, if there is anything .... it's the comapny that owe me ... i had tried my very best during my time there and i am glad that i am finally leaving this company for good , it's just not good enuff for me ... not worth my commitment ! ha ha my EMO self again ... but at least i am feeling better this way .. i think that is more then enuff !

The mail as follows :-

Dear A*****,
L*** called me and explained my balance, I would like to check with you for the balance of the short notice, is it really
not possible for me to come back and work for the 2 weekends? cos this will be able to help me to knock off 4 days of what I owe the
company meaning less pay will be deducted from my basic.

I understand that the short notice will cos the disturbance to my workplace but this is all but very last min for me, the
course I m taking suppose to be in jan'08 but last min for the sept class there was someone withdrew and thus they had the placing
for me.

I didn't expect the company to grant me early release cos 'black n white' I will still need to serve my notice, all I ask
for is just an allowance for me to minimize the deduction of my pay. The course i am taking is not cheap and attachment pay will be even lower, thus I am really taking a very big step in this, considering I still have my housing loan and stuff to cover. but I do not wish to miss the chance , 4 yrs back I almost had a sponsorship from a hotel but due to the course did not start due to lack of students , I lost the chance , that's when I landed in adidas. I do not wish to see a repeat in this case, e.g. if I miss this sept class, later the Jan class did not start then I will lose my maybe final chance again. Baking had always been my passion, and I had tried many times to get into that industry but no company willing to take in someone with no experience in that background.

Saw cases before , even when a staff is not performing , staff did mistakes , they did not get a termination letter or
served any notice nor pay back anything and the company would just put it nicely that " to maker it look better on you , we will not issue you a termination letter , you better put in a resignation letter yourself". I however had tried my very best to proved myself and did what I can; I had even informed my superior once my intention is made and make them prepare for this and not only throw them the bomb last min. I had actually informed W**** and M** , even when I am not confirm accept by the school but I keep them updated every now and then when I got any news from the school. I had informed then at least a week before the acceptance from the school, cos I will need to submit my document to the school, and attend an interview and then got an answer from them. Compare to those staff that was being terminated (or rather ask to leave) I feel I am ac!
tually being penalized here.

I know I might be wasting my time writing all these but I am willing to try my luck one more time. Cos to me I am just
trying to pursue my dreams and not joining a competitor company for a higher pay job. I just hope that my last close to 4 years of service with the company is able to help me with something here. The only time I made a mistake ( which was not 100% due to my fault ) ended me with a warning letter which I accepted it whole heartly cos though not entirely my fault but I had to bear some responsibility for that too.

Regards,
Cedric Puah "

Guess i am asking too much .... i know i am .... but .... sigh ....